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When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

paralysed. that was when i read the email. shocked. after i read the email. got an email from my best friend, apparently he is giving tuition before he gets back his o levels results. i was seriously stunned. This is wad he wrote:

Hi guys, I am doing tuition in the holiday and after it too. For now lessons can be on weekday and weekend, next year it have to be on weekends only. I will do the travelling. The subjects are Pure Chemistry, Pure Physics, Chemistry(SC), Physics(SC), Elementary Mathematics, Additional Mathematics, Elective Geography and Social Studies. All subjects are at O'Level standard.

Science and mathematics subjects are charged at S$15 an hour per subject. Humanities subject are charged at S$10 an hour per subject.

This mail may be forwarded to any related parties.

Thank you

Yours faithfully,
Brendan

o.O i know he is smart and all. . . but this??? shockin. . . unfortunately for him, i am not taking tuition and if he tutor me, we would probably goof off and play. he has been eyeing on the PS2 at my house since lyk dunno when. surprisingly, i think i am the one with the problem. hating the fact that we are going to grow up and get jobs and then . . .life is spastic. i juz wish that i would have a clue when i grow up.

p.s i love you ♥
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haven blogged for a few days. . . my sis got back her psle results. . . can stay in st.nicks. so happie. can see her in school again. chatted with jenny. hope her scars will go away. realli very sad lor and she is pretty. . . put my life on line. . .if her scars does not fade, she can have my life. . . praying now that they will fade. . .totally hate the guy that is harassing jenny and sam. he is an ass hole lor. dun even dare to put his real name there, instead he insulted kenshin by putting KENSHIN on both their tagboards, then put a very disturbing msg. hope he dies and rot in hell. realli lor. was fuming when i read the msg. he does not deserve to live. very sick.

flo was online juz now. very happie. she now in hong kong. so good. this yr not going aneway but next year going to australia and switzerland. first time go to swit but i think it will be fun. hope can go japan too. last time went to tokyo, osaka and hokkaido. lyk the disneyland. . . the pizza there is delicious.

going to put on trial contacts for a month. apparently my dunno wad is rather high, dunno wad it means but i tink i see double vision. going to get them on wed. hope i dun poke my eyes out or get blind. i will be damn if i go blind, all the anime cannot watch.

p.s i love you ♥
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woke up at 10 this morning by the stupid noise outside my house. neighbour doing their fishpond. i would have ask them to shut that racket if that house did not belong to brendan, who . . .has been staying next to me for lyk eight over years??? later going to a wedding dinner, life sux. suppose to go for the class gathering. . . so sad. . . but cannot go liaoz. . . got a stupid wedding dinner to attend. . . and cannot dun go. . .

it has been lyk over a year and a half since i wore a dress or skirt. i think my mum is going to force me into one. i bloody hate them. . . so hard to walk. . .then if fall, will have lyk one gigantic split up the leg. . .

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i am seriously screwed up. i keep on havin the same person in my dreams over and over again. it is damn freakin me out lor. plus the fact that i am going to put on alot of weight durin the hols is not going to help. got back my results on friday. i was hyperventilating before i got them back lor. i was thankin god when i got it back. i thot i will get 68 lor, cos it is a sequence that i drop two marks from term 1. but it is not lyk it is damn fantastic either. there is something wrong with my cip hours i think, i did 13.5 hours??? i dun remembering doin so much lor.

my dad was going down my throat when he saw my results. he was scoldin me about my english (B3). then he started saying that alot of pupils results all As no Bs. i was seriously upset, realli. it was not lyk i did not try my best or wad. i think i will try next year for all As, if that is wad he wants.

i am going to skip meals startin from today lor. friday went to italian restaurant, saturday went for BBQ, today went to olive tree at hotel intercon. i dun ever dare to step on the weighing scale now!!!!!! it would be alright if i lyk salad but i dun, i onli eat them when necessary lyk for appetizers. dun understand why people lyk raw veggies.

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watched singapore's brainiest teacher last nite. mr geraint wong was very good lor. he would have won if chen wen li did not take his question. . . was watching if in a very anxious way, was rather nerve wrecking. . . until i saw egg's face on tv, then i freaked out. at first i thot my eyes got prob lor, cos i saw miss elaine lim and then a person in bright red. then when they show it again where st.nicks people were, i saw him. i was screaming lor. had the most horrible scare ever. it is not lyk ever once in a while when you watch tv and then suddenly you see your form teacher on it.

i think my holidaes are ruin liao. . .onli lyk four more days until get back report card and then find out wad klas i am in next year. i realli can't bear to part with my klas lor, even though some i very seldom talk to, but they are fantastic. the greatest fact of all is that i haven even touched my homework. not even a single word and i haven't even looked throught the questions. trying to find a way to turn down my father's cousin's offer into staying at westin for a nite. every year always lyk that one, june stay in grand hyatt, november stay in westin, sometimes marina mandrian or pan pac. very sianz of this life already. . . thinking about going to work liao. . . anything to get me out of my house.

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very tired todae. . . dunno why. . . juz think of all the homework to do, makez me very sick already. going to change my layout very soon, i hope. . . getting tired of this one liaoz. . . still trying to create my own website. . . muz learn how to get the hang of it.

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can my sis and my maid have common sense for at least one second. i mean, can you stop feeding the hamsters lyk once every freakin three hours. they are not yours. they are not lyk my sis fat, obese hamster who eats every chance he gets. there muz be a limit lor. if they die, i am holdin the responsibility to them. i was totally fed up with them. they tried to feed the hamsters pizza. a freakin pizza. they are being very idiotic lor. every though the hamsters nibble at the pizza does not mean that they can eat that. total nutcases. they are over feedin the poor hamsters. damn it. once they step into the kitchen, they will feed the hamsters. thank god, i stopped them at the first time. i dun care whether they are pissed off with me or wad, cos i dun realli give a damn at wad they think. i live my own life, they live theirs. i swear i won't hesitate to snap or scream at them if they toe over the line.

p.s i love you ♥
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had the best day of my life. went out with flo and rach. flo came to my house first to leave her hamsters. made one wasted trip to the school book shop. suppose to buy history workbook but not open. if it was not because popular dun have, or else i wun go there and buy lor.

took the mrt to city hall and met rach at the esplanade library. was chased out when my handphone rang. the sound was deafening. the library is so quiet, lyk can hear a bee buzz past by. left soon cos it was rather boring. walked to suntec for lunch. the toopid food junction was too crowded so went the burger king for lunch. found some coupons on the table. realized that rach's tearin skills was worse than mine. . . rach kept on attackin the fries while abandoning her burger. i and flo were starin at her until she ate her burger.

kept on making rach laugh until she could not eat her burger. laugh rather loudly some more, but heck care lah. she kept on choking on her burger lor, lyk four times. flo and i pretended that she choked to death and made a headline

Girl chokes to death at burger king by a killer burger

also pretended to be interviewed by the press, saying that it was such a sad thing. . . could not save her in time. . . kept on laughing, blah blah blah. . . then rach sae that she came back as a spirit to sue us and then we had a court case, us as the accused and rach as the defender???

went to the arcade there and played until very tired. played DDR and also the hands thingy. and then play a dunno wad game, very fun. . . by the end of it, we were so tired, very very tired. . . it was very nice to play with them lor, becos some when they go out, they dun go arcade one. but then it was ok with both of them.

saw so very pervertic things at the city link. actually, it was rach hu saw it first then ask us to see. being very blur, we see here and there also onli see stuff toys. then rach practically pushed us infront of tat thing lor. she could not sae its name cos already, we were getting attention. saw that thingy in S11 again. that we made jokes about some guy buyin ten of those thingys and also with the f word. for some people, it may be very disgustin but then we had fun. lyk one guy told another guy that i want to . . . you. laugh all the way until heeren.

bought one bon jovi cd at hmv for my maid. owe her one so long already. i dun know if i am paranoid or wad but i kept checkin my bag to see whether my wallet was there. muz be becos i read CC's blog or the fact that there was $150 in my wallet and i will be damned it i lost it. went to taka. on the way, flo bought an ice cream in a cup but on the way when we were going up to kinokuniya, the spoon broke. we had to make our way downstairs to get another sppon. bought a comic and a book from kinokuniya. dunno why i can't leave a place without buying anything.

went home around five something, but i was dead tired. my sis very nice today, help me to download D.N angel file and lend me her choker, luckily i bought her something. i have lyk ten over choker but i still have to borrow hers. something muz be wrong with me.

p.s i love you ♥
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i am so damn angry with my sis and her friend, hew mun. . . her freakin friend made up a blog, writin bad things about one of their friends to whom they hate. it should not concern me, but guess wad, they linked my blog. tat wad made me realli fed up. it looks as though i am also in it. i want all the pri 6 in my school to fuck off. i am realli damn pissed with them.

i called that bloody girl and scolded her lyk hell. they are so naive. they dun think that when the school finds out, they can get expelled for it. and now the gurl tat hew mun cursed in her blog found out and is now callin my house, disturbin my peace. she is now threatening to tell my mum. . . yeah, and zoe's record is not clean, she was once lyk grounded for sendin a poison letter to her fren last year. if my parents found out, she can say byebye for all i care.

now hew mun is TERRIFIED, and she does not know how to delete the bloody blog. i deleted it for them but next time i see her, i am going to slap her realli hard. dun know why they keep on disturbing me. i freakin hate all of them.

p.s i love you ♥
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i am going to be sick. my eyelid keeps on twitching and i have a sore throat. wad a great way to start my holidays. feeling absolutely horrible. i muz be so sick tat i lost to my sister during the PS2 game tennis. . .each time she sees me, she goes "i PASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, u FAILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!" in a very high pitch voice. T___T sure she is cute, but too hyper. . .

i want a photoshop and i think my mum is going to buy one of me. . . unfortunately she does not know how much it costs. Sure, she is willing to pay over $60 for my comics, but i seriously doubt that she is willing to spend $79.90 on one disc. . . maybe i will ask my cuz. . . see whether he is interested into making one webpage with me. . . however, i doubt that he knows wad to do. . .

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world