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When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

i will never be part of your life. so just forget it.

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annoyance level is sky high. thank god flo is online. kind of like pouring stuff to her. flo is super direct and down to earth and she won't beat around the bush. that is what i really need now. shld take her advice.

i wish my eyes had a filter system. just read what i want to read. so sad that i don't have. i tink i will run to hc everyday after school. need alot of pouring out to be done.

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what the hell am i doing? i read my private blog and read the post dated oct 2. and SHIT IT ALL. gosh. no wonder it wasn't successful. it was only one month then. . . gah.

seriously, my emotions and feelings are all confused. it is still confused now. bleh. next time, think before doing anything serious. cause the results will be negative. a hundred percent negative. stun. seriously stunned by my tat post. i knew what i did in the beginning will always haunt me

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still stuck on physics. i have no idea how many times have i typed this over and over and over again. okay, i was distracted by youtube.

was doing hw and watching a shot at love tila tequila. about a bisexual bacholarette and 16 guys and 16 lesbian fighting for her. just watched the finale. lol. ended up with a guy named bobby and a girl named dani and i am so not into lesbians and stuff but damn, why did she end up wif bobby? dani is damn sweet and stuff.

listening to emo songs just rocks. the lyrics is just something that you can relate to. isn't it good? need to discuss bday dinner wif flo and jiin. gosh, i love them both and i always found it super cool that we are born like within two weeks of each other.

I gave my all for you
now my heart's in two
and I can't find the other half

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gah. physics suck. doing work energy power now and seriously, i have no recollection of the topic. what sucks now is i cannot locate my mp3. shit. where is my mp3.

listening to emo songs now. nice. oh yeah, i find that i have a growing irritation towards those that say that they know me very well when in my mind i am just thinking, they don't even have a clue.

sigh, losing stuff makes me annoyed.

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i just walked into my parents room and there it was. now i am happy. dumb.

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online chatting is getting more and more boring. have you ever wondered why? and i going to sleep earlier and earlier.

now physics hw officially sucks since i finished my chem. damn it. i shall be in the mood whereby i shall not CARE about anything else.

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my muscles ache like hell. bleh. woke up like twenty minutes ago? crazy. but super nice to sleep in. cries. i don't want school to start. did like a hundred sit ups just now. whee. i like to sweat. super funny.

doing reaction kinetics now. i hate this topic. chiong chem finish then start on physics. so screwed. tml going xiang's house to play. gah. daphne the donkey went to sprain her leg! get well soon can? i bet she laughed at me when i sprained my leg that is why she like tat. then on the 31st going out wif 3/5 pw group again.

shall mug. feeling so happy now. so freaking happy. i am finally free XD

i am better off without you
more than you, more than you know

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gah. everyone is telling me to forget it. i am wasting my bloody time. and seriously, i also think so.

i hope what i wrote on the post it will last forever. seriously. may it last forever so that i will look back and laugh.

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i won't be surprised if flo knows me the best. so funny. my status was offline for msn and she just chat with me and ask me if i was there. . . stun. XDDD did some chem hw but my muscles aching.

now watching this hk series on youtube. 舞动全城. quite nice. XDDD

i want to laugh. people are making me laugh these few days. flo asking me what to buy for jiin's bday and guess wad, flo's bday is EARLIER than either mine or jiin's bday. gosh. die die. flo is harder to buy. . how how?

gah. flo says he is. . . . . . . . .. . . . cries. i know! not as if i don't know. bleh. zi tao ku chi is what she said. haha. i always have flo to drag me back onto the ground.


[sue anne] you will never ever give me what i want says:
i feeling stupid now
$_$ says:
well
$_$ says:
being stupid once in a while is ok
[sue anne] you will never ever give me what i want says:
now i feel stupid all the time

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haha. FINALLY! i think he is one of my friends that LASTLY turn 17! fellow pw mate and playing buddy XDDD maths pro and stuff. hope you had fun today XDDD.

woke up at an ungodly hour of 8.05am. started doing sit ups and stuff. don't ask me why i was doing that. it is a damn stupid reason one. haha.

then yl came at 9.30am. then boon jin came. was playing daidee on my bed. i didn't lose that badly XDDD finally my sis woke up and it was bridge time. kind of rusty since quite long never play. but it was fun! like mostly play until the last card.

the fedex team consisting of boon jin and yl brought the mahjong table up and we started playing mahjong while watching vcds.

shows that we watched:

1. white chicks 2. cruel intentions 3. deuce gigolo 4. hot chicks

was doing the same thing we did last time. winner decide the next game. played mahjong and then monopoly. gosh, our luck is like super super bad and boon jin luck was like super good? he owned the all the purple, all the blue, all the red and all the dark blue districts. . . .dotz. lucky we didn't play until the end cause we were quite sian diao when he owned mostly the entire board. haha

ate lunch before tat. kfc XDD haha. it is always either kfc or pizza hut. weird weird. then we had a surprise for boon jin.

boy is that guy dense. we were like going in and out of the room to prepare the cake and he didn't suspect a thing la. like lighted the candles downstairs and brought the cake up and he was quite stunned diao. like totally STONE AND STUFF.

then he cut the cake. could have finished if each took two slices but it was too much. quite nice XD. then we played daidee and bridge until the end. it was fun XD

now super tired and sleepy. sch started next wednesday. literally sian diao. have to finish hw by this sunday? i am so not doing hw on the new year. i quite believe that if you do hw on the new year, the following new year, you will do the same again. i don't want XD

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i feel like a freaking fool. damn it. i feel like the biggest fool on this earth. and what is damn funny is that i cannot stop myself. and guess what? you will never find out why. sigh.

i think jiin is just going to kill me all over again. i think we have been through this talk. sigh. fool for you.

p.s i love you ♥
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tiring. shopping is TIRING.
woke up at 11am today. sigh. pig. but i think just nice eight hours of sleep. i slept horridly early today. did some chem but still. . .

was chatting with yl online. gah. GOSH. I WANNA FREAKING LAUGH. I REALLY WANT TO LAUGH. as i am typing this post. gah. laughing like shit. GOSH. SHIT LAUGHING NOW.

ok, ignore that laughing paragraph. but it is realli realli realli funny. bleh. went out to meet my sis and jean san at amk hub. whee. jean san treated us to ichiban sushi. was so full. then walked around and went ntuc. saw some nj ppl but i was just running away from them. haha.

took mrt to bishan XDDDDD. i say here first, I HATE SHOPPING FOR GUYS. seriously. i really hate shopping for guys. cause number 1, there is a limited number of stuff you can buy for a guy. number 2, their taste are very weird. number 3, your taste is probably much better than theirs but they die die won't admit it.

walked around abit and like the shops change abit. gosh. i haven been there since. . . forget it. rmbed something annoying. yup. now i am annoyed about it. bought something else also. dyl, you owe me a HUGE DINNER.

took taxi back cause. . . dyl you owe me AGAIN. need to chiong hw hw hw. need to return boon jin his hw. X((( don't need to slp liao. whee. i am happy.

nicholas is super super super sweet. he bought me a present XD gah. bday present. he say i bankrupt him - __-;; i have no idea what he bought but i suspect it is. . . haha. shall not ruin my bday surprise. gosh, i want a balloon for my bday! it is super silly i know but i wanna have fun!

p.s i love you ♥
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yes i am awake at this weird hour. gah. all i can say is chem sucks. X((
have a headache coming up. i shld get to sleep soon.

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gah. guys are despo. was playing o2jam while doing chemistry.
got this guy suddenly talk about frenster and which country he was from.
gah. went to see his frenster. god. . . not so bad la. passable.
from selangor. he say very far from spore. . . he obvious dunno his distance.
weird guy. he said he going off then he say what do you have to say to me?
then i was like nice to meet you? then he say no. . . say miss. funny.
lol. flirting without strings attached. bleh.
maybe because you cannot see the person that is why you can say things freely.
weird.

lol. my mum came to the room and she was watching me o2jam on the laptop the album one. and she was laughin and was mimicking what my character was. it took her awhile to realise that it was a keyboard. lol. i love my mum loads. XDDDD

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bleh. drama this morning. quarrelled with my mum and it was quite bad. cried but after that things were ok between us. . . i am NOT STUBBORN. felt quite bad cause i never quarrel with my mum one. it is usually my sis.

the wonders of makeup. seriously la. my eyes were like red and stuff yet like put concealer, eyeliner and stuff. i look perfectly normal. just that my eyes were like reduced in size. drats.

went to eat lunch at prego XDDDDDD smile. it is at swissotel or at fairmont hotel since the name changed. then went shopping at robinson. was not very in a mood for shopping and not even for shoes.

tried on dresses for alicia's wedding which is on the 5th jan. gah. there was this very very pretty dark green dress which was super super pretty that it could be my prom dress next year. but the price was 469 dollars. as if i will invest that much in a dress.

walked abit more then went home. was super tired. slept for a while. late nights on the computer can kill. when school reopen i guess cannot already.

i miss my dad very badly. seriously. i am very close to both my parents but slightly closer to my dad. he is coming back end of january but he is going to miss my birthday. he say just ask my mum to buy me present. if only he knew what i wanted.

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it is endearing isn't it to have people ask you why you are not slping yet at like 12 am. it really shows how much they care. haha. gah, i am a sucker for small actions.

my kor, brendan aka neighbour chattin with me now. sweet sweet guy. can just leap over the fence to shout at him. gosh i want to laugh. his dp is a pic of him with a cheesy grin. haha. funny.

seriously. sincerity counts alot for me.

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whee. xmas!

went to my grandma's house. seriously, it was like every ordinary sunday. haha. got presents!

total:
1 josh groban cd
2 shirts
one pair of earrings
1 model of ship
one bracelet
one necklace
one grand piano musical box XDDD
one adobe photoshop cs3
one pair of shoes
etc

gah, got alot of jewelry. the bracelet is like super pretty. gosh. like ahhhh. pretty bracelet. haha. i love bracelets la. XDDD. spent the day playing mahjong, playing daidee, playing add ten. went to play wif my eight year old cousin and my 5 year old cousin. gosh, they are so cute.

gah. my 12 year old cousin and 11 year old cousin are so smart la. they can customize their frenster layout. . . and i didn't even know such a thing existed. gah. . . shit. no more IT savy.

one thing which was a total turn off. my freaking asshole of a 19 year old cousin. gah. i dunno why he likes to annoy me but i sat next to him for dinner then he kept making those stupid comments tat i told him in the face 'do you want me to slap you?' then i went to move a sit and let my grandma sit between us. gosh. idiot. asshole.

and he still wants me to lend him vcd. go die. i really don't believe my sis when she said that he liked me before. it is like I AM YOUR FREAKING COUSIN! although there was a period of time tat i didn't go my grandma's house before just to avoid him. thank god he has a gf now. thank god.

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it must be the stupid holiday mood. god. can't believe that i blurted it out to nicholas and my sis. OMG. stun. lucky they won't say anything. gosh.shit. shit.shit. . . die. i shld go and sleep seriously.

gah. playful moods will just get me killed. seriously.

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count down wif boon jin, yl and brendan. conference on phone and stuff. it was kind of fun. haha. gosh. the tan brothers just spam my tagboard like nuts.

i would like to wish jiin, flo, boon jin, yl, brendan, yun, ting, jun, usarin, the backrowers: daphne, xiang, sharon, meiling, S.W.A.T: shuming, wedy, angelique, joann a merry xmas!

p.s i love you ♥
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i'll be your dream
i'll be your wish
i'll be your fantasy

this song is stuck in my head. bleh XD

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shall attempt to go sleep now. funny. stayed online for so long.

had a brief chat with jun. stupid guy. like take one hour to reply my chat. sigh. but kind of used to it cause he is always not at the com or doing some other crazy stuff. kfc date! my time is like running out. i tink after school some day? gah. he psed me online to slp. haha.

sleep tight. sweet dreams XD

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woke up around 6.30pm with screams coming from downstairs. gah. my sis frens are so freaking noisy. even until now, they are still noisy.

super annoyed with my sis la. i hate it when she is so bloody rude in front of her frens to me. and really, this time she has no right to be rude. i mean it is not fair for the rest of her frens to wait like one and a half hour for another person just becos that person is late. i mean, they are hungry but it is obvious that they are only waiting just to be polite. and the food was getting cold. asshole leh.

shall not bother about her. waste of time seriously. playing o2jam now. sigh. dunno what to do. i know i must do my hw but yet. . . gah.

there is always another tml. i guess.

i am not willing to commit myself yet. sorry. really don't plan on commiting myself to someone that i hardly know. no thank you. sigh. why do these problems keep surfacing?!

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it is like taking a knife and stabbing it into an already bleeding wound. that is how i feel about it so far. diggin up a just buried grave.

flo's bday is coming in about two weeks! how how how? combine celebrate for her, me and jiin or wad? gah. just too many things on my mind now. ti rof uoy emalb i.

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i am confused. can people just not pretend anymore? i am really confused. i don't know who is doing what or who is saying what or what happened. and to be honest, i am reaching a stage whereby i don't give a damn about what is being done.

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haha. a quote tat nicholas told me online. funny.


I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch and you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid,
you play, you have no responsibilities. You become a little baby, you go back into the womb, spend your last nine months floating... and you finish off as an orgasm.
- George Carlin

haha. he is practically promoting this book to me 'a year in the merde'. and he swears that he doesn't read and yet, he finds this book very funny. haha.

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gah. yesterday was just a complete mess. people were pissed off, upset, confused etc etc. is the issue at hand resolved yet? i have no idea. was seriously nerve wrecked. cried like shit first then went to see how to resolve it. saying the truth always helps right?

i don't want it to spread. i mean like too many people know about it already. 4 is alot. alot alot. it is in the past already. it is over. it kind of affects alot of people and i don't want it to happen. it was done, it was over. don't want to dig up the past already since the new year is coming. i hope i don't have to tell anymore people or even explain why i . . . .

super tired now. was packing the room again. threw away like 7 garbage bags of stuff. mostly worksheets and stuff. i realise that my sis and my bag collection is enough to fill the ink shop in amk hub. really.

hw is just lying there rotting. sigh, was suppose to do it yesterday but that thing occupied me most of the time and by then, had no mood to do it. o2jam was also at fault. haha.

if everyone in this world was the same, then wouldn't the world be a boring place? i threw away the red lock on my bag. i had to. it doesn't mean anything to me. the lock combination 901 also means nothing to mean already. spring cleaning XD

i just want things to be normal and the same. changes are good but not during this period. unsureness just makes me wary.

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super tired now. just finished o2jamming.

i forgot to mention on the mrt that i saw this super cute baby. it is a boy i think but super cute. eyes big big one. the eyes are very dark. then keep staring at me and then when he smile. . . gosh, so cute!!!

yes, i am a baby lover. maybe the innocence that they have is somewhat inspiring or the fact that they don't have to worry about what happens next is somewhat quite peaceful thinking.

oh yeah, i forgot to mention. guys or girls should not have small eyes. whoever said that small eyes are the in thing now ought to shoot themselves. i am not saying all small eyes. those like single eyelid and look like slits. sexy? no. it just makes it hard to make eye contact with the person.

why the sudden topic? cause i realise that most people that i dislike, happen to have small eyes. generalising? maybe.

have to curb the number of times i go out already, especially next year. gosh. i realise that i am outside alot. then come back so late somemore. i want my dad back in spore. miss someone restricting me. X'(

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woke up when my alarm rang and the room was horridly dark. i was thinking, die surely rain. so i hurried in dressing and bathing only to find that it was already raining heavily. gah. went to msg boon jin and yl about dist from bus stop or from mrt. . . and guess wad, both took so long to reply tat i left my house at like 9.35am.

met boon jin at farrer park mrt at like 10.15?! not my fault! lol. seriously never travel that part of the mrt before. furthest i go is little india. beyond that is never step before. it was raining. and boon jin, being the ungentleman he is, didn't open his umbrella and allowed me to use my sweater as a RAINCOAT.

gah, he nearly make me ring the wrong doorbell and THERE IS A DOOR BELL. still say i don't know how to use the lift. yl's dad opened the door then yl's big head appeared.

haha, his house reminds me of my grandma's house. shall go my grandma's house on sunday XD mugging session started. bleh, yl's file never file properly one. haha. i think my files are in a worser condition but never mind! mugging session. maths and maths and maths. can just die. i hate ap gp. really hate ap gp.

i feel so bloated now. his house like eat this dessert and then eat sushi and then eat hokkien mee and then eat ice cream? bleh. ok. i know i am noisy and stuff and both of them probably NEVER want to do hw with me but XP. saw yl make the sushi. both he and boon jin likes vinegar. they like to chi cu! i don't like cu that much.

yl is a lousy knife user. haha. should have taken pics of the sushi which he cut. super funny one. then he is very bias! like take the nicer pieces for my sister. unfair la. anyway, he forgot to put tuna for her for some so AHA! take tat. haha. super full la. . . XD

mug. my maths suck to the core now. can hardly do la. die. next year will die. stupid boon jin finished like his aq already. lol. shall not imagine how much hw i left.

boon jin finished his aq and started bugging us la. play daidee. then we gave in to temptation. whee! i win! horrible la that PIG. got two royal flushes in one hand. i swear that he cheated! then yl brought his laptop and then o2jam! haha. ee. he don't have the v3 song. must go send him if i can find.

boon jin nearly ps us for dinner. the word is NEARLY. XD. walked to eat zu chao. i can't spell it nor pronounce it. yl ordered fried rice then i took hokkien mee! haha. then three of us shared. boon jin didn't want to eat HOR. DIDN'T WANT TO EAT STILL EAT.

were talking about marriage proposals. boon jin has the most unromantic proposals. yl's has the sickest proposals and i think i have the most unrealistic proposals. but yl's one is really. i would reject and then make him impotent for the rest of his life.

took mrt home. some idiot said that mrt not crowded. yeah. only on the north east line rite? the red line was horridly packed that didn't even know if can go in. super tired by then.

brought the sushi home from my sis. her response was 'tell yl that i love him'. YL YOU ARE FREAKING DEAD. -sharpens knife-. we are good friends rite? . . . rawr.

told my sis tat they say that i was overprotective. she just laughed. haha. to get to my sis. have to get pass my dad than me. and she said i was harder to impress. haha. oh yeah. my dad is also super super overprotective. boon jin said that my dad scrutinized him when my dad fetched him to my house. LOL. SO FUNNY.

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i take back whatever nice things i said about minghan. as in my uncle's nephew. he is a bloody @##$^$#$^#@#%$%#. gah. seriously. GET THE HELL AWAY FROM MY SIS. asshole. pretend to be quiet and stuff during the tour but yet have motives one.

it proves that you cannot judge a person by the way he acts. seriously. don't know what on earth he will be hiding. gah. seriously, if i see him again. i will scold him. idiot. you have no idea that it is also a form of incest. although not direct but it is still incest. stupid.

went out with my mummy today. she drove to amk hub. super funny. this is like the second time i sit in her car only? she last time even offered to drive boon jin, yl and i to thomson. luckily, we said no. haha. but she improved alot already. i am still in one piece.

eat lunch then went to search for phones. it is like out of the three phones in the house, only one is working? ridiculous. went shopping for stuff at ntuc. met my junior caroline there. haha. i think she this year sec 2? not very sure.

super tired. hw is rotting in one corner. sch is opening in about two weeks. so dead and screwed. die.

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i really ought to learn how to stop. i can't keep running to you each time i have a problem or if something happens. i am afraid taht it would stir up old feelings and i don't want that to happen.

how how how? pathetic.

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woke up at 10.15 then went with my sis to kk hospital to meet ah sis. on the way, went to visit peixuan at the ward. i think she looks better already. but still on drip. tomorrow will be visiting her again with my aunt. GET WELL SOON K!

went with ah sis and her colleage to the esplanade. ate lunch at my humble house. super nice. my sis had chicken rice while i had something claypot. then went to the cookie musuem for tea.

it was like victorian style. each person had their own pot of tea. and each pot cost 20 dollars. sigh. my sis had cappucino. i took the tea called a bed of roses which consisted of roses and marigold. the other two took peony garden. the names are super nice and it has the nicest menu i have ever since. the wordings were very pretty, the names of their teas and cakes were lovely. like have this lavender cake called lady elizabeth.

sat down and share one bailey irish cake. seriously, i had no idea how much it cost. my sis then told me later that one stupid piece of cake which is the size of my hand cost 138 dollars. and it is only ONE SLICE. gah. a perfect waste of money. lucky only ordered one. it is a waste of money.

the ambience of the place was really very nice. was like having tea in the past when there were still dukes and earls that sort of thing. tried some cookies there. bought two tins of cookies. one tin was called 'frog & princess' while the other was called 'pretty in pink'. bleh. each tin cost 30 dollars.

seriously, i can almost imagine how the people in the past lived. frivilously without a single thought for money. just sit there and drink tea and have cakes. one experience was enough for me. perfect waste of money. and her colleage treated. if you have the money, seriously, just go and try the cookie museum. it is very nice.

then her colleage went back so the three of us walked around raffles city. bumped into one of my sis's fren there. benjamin i think. gah, he msged my sis tat i stared/glared at him. which i have no idea if i did. tend to get that way when my sis's frens are guys.

then took mrt down to novena square. walked around somemore then went to the donut factory there. i didn't know they opened one shop there and you can sit down and have tea and stuff. had tea ONCE AGAIN. ok, hot chocolate. i was never a coffee and tea person. ate one donut and brought home the rest.

went home after that. it was a entirely lazy day. sigh.

playing o2jam. but it is getting boring. cause my music is the same. boring. think i shall stop playing it already. it is not even that fun. my hw is left in the dust rotting. i am so freaking dead.

oh yeah. my aunts ordered adobe photoshop cs3 for my xmas and bday. the price is xxx. i will be so dead when my mum finds out. but FINALLY. so happy. ok, i am a spendthrift. no money already.

realised that my lifestyle is quite different from others. more freedom, more ability to buy things. spoilt rotten. it is quite sick once you think about it. and once again, someone said that i was stubborn today. GAH. I AM NOT STUBBORN!

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SHANGHAI

Day 1
left spore at around 1am. crazy time to fly and honestly, the movies on the plane kind of sucked. reached china airport around 6am. saw my dad before even walking out of the arrival hall XD there was a driver to fetch us to my dad's apartment. his apartment was really nice. really suited him. went to take a short nap before going out.



took a ferry across. cause my dad lived in Putong and we took the ferry to Puxi. gah. the streets of shanghai is horrible. it is like you fear for your life when you cross it. my dad took us to his tailor. my sis and i went to make winter coats. although i have no idea why we made in since we are living in spore but it may come in handy.

my dad then took us to this street of shopping. i have forgotten what it is called already. there were like so many stores and china's imitation is really fantastic. i saw this prada wallet and it came wif the box and the freaking warranty. walked around somemore to find that it was the same place that the tour guide brought us long ago. i think i went there six five years ago? not very sure.

went to carrefour. there was alot of places to eat. but then the carrefour is quite pathetically small. alot of the restaurants there are also found in spore. like ajisen ramen, starbucks etc

then for dinner, we went to this steamboat place. each of us had our own steamboat. then something weird happened. i was looking outside the window thinking since the traffic so bad, why don't really have accidents. guess wad? i saw a car ramming into the back of another car and the driver was so pissed and came out to scold. lol. walked back to the apartment. the nights are freezing.

Day 2
went to zhengda guangchang. turns out to be like a shopping area in spore. actually, if you go to shopping mall in shanghai, it is about the same as spore and the price also the same so no point going. will be a waste of time. went to a condominium to eat lunch. there was a restaurant inside. then went to paulaner near the river side for tea. was like eating creme brulee and hot chocolate. we were pigging out on fries and sausages XD the weather is weird. like by the hour you can feel the temperature dropping. we sat there for like two hours and see the sun setting.








shanghai's night view is very pretty. i think it is because of the land area. you can see the lights of the buildings from a great distance away. we went to walk along the water's age and stuff. but it was really very very cold. had to fight for taxi. shanghai ppl really know how to fight for cabs. it is like the passenger haven even exited from the cab, they will just sit inside.

Day 3
went to another shopping mall. i totally forgot the name. went to make a handphone strap with my initials on it. really very cheap. like 4 dollars? in spore it is like 10 bucks or more. went to this japanese restaurant and eat teppanyaki. the food is seriously very nice. like had cod fish and stuff. then went outside to sit by the fountain.




then went back to paulener again. haha. really like the place alot. like sitting down. i mean like time is a luxury. to be able to sit down and relax and watch the world pass you by is a privilege. i mean how many people are able to relax?

Day 4
waited for my dad's colleague and family to join us for lunch. in the meantime, we went to see the stalls lined outside the shopping centre. gah. they were selling puppies and it is absolutely animal cruelty. it is like alot of puppies being squeezed in one box? and their ears were scotched taped together and when they were removed, the puppies will cry? gah. but the puppies were so cute. cannot bring them back though. went to eat lunch at this restaurant. i was absolutely sick of tim sum by then. seriously sick of tim sum.

continued walking around and went back to puxi to collect our coats. but there was something wrong wif mine so left it there. my dad's colleague brought it back to spore already. didn't join my parents and sis for dinner. had a super bad sore throat. i felt very bad. cause it was the last night i had with my dad and i only stayed in the apartment sleeping. but luckily, they came back early.

Day 5
the day to leave shanghai. didn't really spent many days there. reached the airport at 8.30am. sigh, really wish my dad would come back with us. he will be coming back to spore like around end of jan. can't wait for him to come back.


CRUISE

Day 1
reached harbour front at twelve plus and waited for to be admitted into the ship. there were about fourteen people going to cruise from my family. my mum, sis, me, uncle song, li heng, uncle bor, auntie kristy, ryan, faith, their maid, auntie wee lee, pei xuan, auntie jean and my grandmother. haha. super alot of people.

boarded the ship and went to see the rooms. my mum, sis and i share a room. the balcony room. the view was very nice. went to check out the rooms on the ship. had a mahjong room, the entertainment room. the library, the spa, the arcade. even before the ship took off, my cousins were already glued to the arcade. ate lunch and then went to see entertainment.

at night, ate buffet for dinner then went to see a live dancing performance. it was very entertaining. was walking around the ship. gah, from one end to the other it was terribly far. stayed up at the entertaining room playing carrom. i have lousy aim

Day 2,
woke up late so ate a light fare. was playing cards again at the room while waiting to go to penang. took a small boat there. haha. the waves were quite rough, was bobbing up and down. went to take a cab to a shopping centre. once again, i found myself fearing for my life when crossing the road.

walked around the shopping centre. went shopping for two shirts and a skirt. i love shopping in penang. ate chicken rice while the rest ate wanton mee and penang laksa. i could cheerfully kill my cousin li heng for his excessive nagging and chattering. he is only 9 i guess.

went back to the harbour to board the ship. went to put my cousins peixuan and li heng to sleep then my aunt, sis and i sneaked down to grab a milkshake. it was around 12am plus. the rest were at the casino and stuff. then my uncle and aunt came out and started talking about sneaking me into the casino and stuff. super funny. one idea was to use a shawl to wrap around my head like an indian and then walk inside. another is to walk in with my uncle and my five year old cousin faith, pretending that she is my child. then when the security stop us and say children not allowed, i would be exclaiming loudly saying that' oh no, children are not allowed?' then go shouting for the maid to bring my 'daughter' away while i walked in. was laughing so loudly.

Day 3
took the boat to penang. again, fear from my life. took the tutu. i have no idea how to spell it but tat is how it is pronounced. went to this shopping centre and my cousins ate burger king for breakfast. went to walk around and my cousin went to cut her hair. haha. spent time talking to my cousin ryan who is eight. seriously, i have hardly said a word to him all my life but i went to talk to him and he is a bright boy only a little obsessed with computer games. can't be helped. he has a
playstation, a xbox and a computer. he is a game freak.

went to a restaurant to eat. the food was good. had like pineapple rice, tom yam soup etc. nice nice XD went to walk around again but the shopping there was not as good as penang. again, alot of imitation and stuff. faith went have her hair braided. super cute. seriously, out of all my cousins, she is a prettiest. ok. maybe cute.

went to dress for dinner. went to this jap restaurant. the food was good once again. went to change out of the dress and then me and my sis sneaked down again. ordered cocktail. we looked 18 i guess. then my aunt dragged me into the casino. the guard didn't say anything. he even smiled at me. i went to look for my mum. haha. she was surprised. quite smoky there.

the ship was rocking back and forth due to high speed. me and my sis went to the karaoke area to listen to ppl sing. there was this old man tat sang while christmas very well. the last two days went to the steam bath and jacuzzi. it was very very nice.

Day 4

it was the last day and a free and easy one. went to entertainment room to play again then went to jacuzzi. it was then when i saw this angmoh guy again. kept seeing him on the cruise. super good looking. my cousins were like splashing around. it is like when you tell them don't splash me cause you don't want to get your hair wet, they will go and do it. and it is like less than ten minutes that my hair was drenched. can kill the little monsters. haha.

was like telling my cousin ryan about titanic. he was pretty scared. on the first day, there was this drill thing and he was super adament to go. and when he went, he went to follow the rules very closely. haha. he is a rule follower. super cute at this age. he is like a teddy bear. super nice to hug and stuff.

reached spore at 8 plus. by the time got home it was like 9? was super tired. but it was fun.


HONG KONG

Day 1
reached the airport at 6.15am. i have no idea why my flights are all at weird timings and stuff. there were about ten ppl going for this trip. my mum, sis, me, auntie jean, uncle gee, his nephew minghan, uncle david, auntie weelee, peixuan and jiayi. had to wait to check in. i love the new airport system. the one tat you just insert your passport and use your thumbprint to get in. super cool.




sat down for breakfast but i didn't eat anything. didn't want to risk throwing up on the plane. reached hongkong around 11am. had to wait for the guide to bring us to the hotel. boarded the bus. the first sight that i saw when the bus was turning was this guy holding a huge bouquet of flowers and he was crying while talking to his girl and the girl appeared pissed off and was running her hands through her hair and stuff. the couple's quarrel ba. but at first i thought that they were acting some scene.

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this is my 500th post!

haven packed yet, although i have already sorted out what i will bring and stuff. gosh. i am just in love with josh groban's voice. spent the last one hour listening to him on youtube. he reminds me of ms poore. my sec 3 and 4 maths teacher ms poore. i miss st nicks alot. going to the fun fair next year. need to go back soon.

i like xmas songs. like those that the singers can belt it out one. like 'O Holy Night' and 'Away in the manger'. super nice. especially 'O Holy Night' now is like the xmas season. i will play nothing but xmas songs and just sit down stairs and stare at the xmas tree.

this will be the first xmas without my dad. feels kind of lonely and stuff. also will be the first birthday without him. silly is it not? to grow until 18 years and still be so sentimental. i really dread my birthday. it really seems no point in celebrating it isn't it?

if you ask me to choose between true love or my family. sorry, but i have to give up that true love. if there are no restrictions, i will place them on myself ba. i am not that wild as some people may think.

celine dion's 'it's all coming back to me now' really reminds me of some things. and i have the urge to just throw away my com each time i see couple pics. like GREAT BE HAPPY. but don't share the happiness! i don't want it.

ok, i am being quite unfair cause if i had the love of my life with me, i will paste pics of him everywhere that kind of stuff. but i could also be super secretive about it and don't tell people. wadever rocks my boat

in the midst of packing now. super messy again. i want ORDER IN MY LIFE

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haven packed yet. but not really in a hurry to pack. leaving spore tml at 8am. be in airport at 6am to check in. they really want my life. packing is a chore.

boon jin left already at 4am i think. when he returns, i am so going to scream at him. because, number 1, i was asleep already when his sms woke me up. and number 2, he is most probably not being able to meet me in hk. idiot guy.

oh yeah, reason number 3, he left his buddy yl in spore. and poor yl is lonely, desolant without his partner and is msging me to relieve his sorrows. super funny. dont' understand why people msg me at like 9 to 11am. or within this time period when during holidays, i most likely wake up after 11am.

must rmb to buy laopo bing for jun. and something else ba. depends on whether i have the time to walk around. my dad already emailed me the places to go cause he is very familiar with hong kong. funny. have no idea if i should bring my brown coat. super pretty one. had it made in shanghai.

now currently replying emails since i most probably won't be available until sunday and by then, i not sure if i going out to meet the two troublesome guys. i have no idea what time i am coming back on saturday. if i rmb correct, i am either reaching spore at 7.50pm or leaving there at 7.50pm. there is a huge difference. ok, called my aunt, leaving hk at 7 plus. so reach spore at 11 something. anyone want to fetch? haha.

gosh, i want to laugh so badly. daph is chatting with me now. and for orientation, she is in the mass dance comm. and guess wad, in the entire com, there are only two lignum people. she and jun. MUAHAHA. gosh, if she and jun dance together, should be very enthu rite? cause both of them are generally very enthu people. i danced with both of them before. daph in st nicks, and jun during dance party and first three months.

HAHA. i was telling daph say tat sji guys are quite good catches. like trent, benjamin. err. . . zhaodong? then she say i should have been at ijtp. then i say no thank you. i already have a xin shang ren. then guess wad she said? she said 'which is me right?' HAHA. gosh, she so thick skin. daphne teh, you have got to learn to let me go! she is so going to kill me =X

i think she cannot rmb when i leaving spore and stuff. but after this trip, i doubt i will be going anywhere unless during march going to japan and stuff. i hardly touched my hw. screwed over. shall take next week to pia. no one shall disturb me unless you have valid reason such as kfc date or mugging stuff.

was reading some stuff that my former classmate huichi send me. it is about horoscope and stuff. shall only highlight those that includes me. which is capricorn. i think i forwarded the email to some people.

Q 1：什麼星座的人最情緒化？
第12名 魔羯座 364 票 4%
(in other words, the last one. YES! i am NOT EMOTIONAL!)

Q 2：什麼星座的人最有異性緣？
第11名 魔羯座 249 票 3%
(second from the last. does that mean tat boon jin, yl and jun are all girls? grins)

Q 3：哪個星座的女生最難追？
第 3名 魔羯座 862 票 8%
(coughs. i have no clue or idea whether this is true onot)

Q 4：哪個星座的人神經最大條？
第 8名 魔羯座 305 票 6%
(i guess it means do things senselessly is it?)

Q 5：哪個星座的人說話最毒？
第 6名 魔羯座 674 票 6%
(whee. at least not the first!)

Q 6：什麼星座的人最不喜歡受拘束？
第11名 魔羯座 211 票 2%
(this one, i conclude is crap. my freedom X( )

Q 7：什麼星座的人最專情？
第 1名 魔羯座 2,366 票
(ok, i am the most faithful. in other words, people will cheat on me)

Q 8：哪個星座的人最懶惰？
第11名 魔羯座 201 票 4%
(this is for boon jin and yl! i am not a PIG!)

Q 9：哪個星座的人最癡情？
第 4名 魔羯座 1,023 票 10%
(why is it, in terms of love. . . capricorns are useless?)

Q10：哪個星座的人最愛吃醋？
第 7名 魔羯座 246 票 4%
(this is for all those ppl tat keep saying tat i jealous!)

Q11：哪個星座的人最獨立？
第 2名 魔羯座 605 票 14%
(the background song of 'INDEPENDENT WOMEN' plays on)

Q12：哪個星座的人最愛睡？
第11名 魔羯座 415 票 5%
(AHA! XP. prove again tat ppl's inference sucks. my ppl, i mean e guys in my pw group)

Q13：哪個星座的人最易犯桃花？
第 9名 魔羯座 404 票 3%
(i don't fall in love tat easily i guess)

Q14：哪個星座的人最沒有安全感？
第10名 魔羯座 339 票 4%
(i am a secure feeling person XD)

Q15：哪個星座的人得失心最重？
第 4名 魔羯座 440 票
(gosh. this means sort of self consoling. cannot let go.)

Q16：哪個星座的人最幽默？
第10名 魔羯座 217 票 3%
(turns out, i have no sense of humour)

Q17：哪個星座的人最不容易說出內心的話？
第 3名 魔羯座 594 票 11%
(this is quite true. . . .)

Q18：哪個星座的人最愛腳踏兩條船？
第11名 魔羯座 143 票 2%
(once again, i am a faithful person)

Q19：哪個星座的人最夠朋友？
第10名 魔羯座 370 票 4%
(ACCORDING TO THIS, i am a lousy fren)

Q20：哪個星座的男生最被動？
2名 魔羯座 770 票 13%
(coughs, boon jin gets touched alot)

Q21：哪個星座的人最喜歡流浪？
第 8名 魔羯座 151 票 4%
(YUP. i like to stay put)

Q22：哪個星座的人最重視朋友？
3名 魔羯座 1,081 票 13%
(friends are impt. . . hmm)

Q23：哪個星座的人最不喜歡上課？
第12名 魔羯座 199 票 3%
(gosh, i am a mugger?!)

Q24：哪個星座男生最容易落淚？
第10名 魔羯座 187 票 4%
(that explains why he is insensitive and heartless)

Q25：哪個星座的人最悲觀？
第 4名 魔羯座 568 票 13%
(ok. i am abit depressing at times)

Q26：哪個星座的人最八卦？
第 4名 魔羯座 356 票 9%
(this is total nonsense!)

Q27：哪個星座最會表現'曖昧不明'的關係？
第10名 魔羯座 270 票 4%
(i have clear relationships!)

Q28：哪個星座的人長的最好看？
第12名 魔羯座 308 票 4%
(this is total bullshit!)

Q29：哪個星座的人最有魅力？
第 7名 魔羯座 558 票 7%
(not the best looking but have charm?!)

Q30：哪個星座的人最臭屁？
第 9名 魔羯座 245 票 3%
(at least i am humble and modest!)

super funny. this is like totally super funny. daph sent me another one. but more zhun one. i asked her if i was stubborn cause naturally you cannot trust what boon jin and yl say cause they are. . . UNRELIABLE. daph says sometimes, like if i hate someone i will hate that person to the core. HAHA. that was like last year? so long ago. so far, in nj, don't have anyone that realli turned me off yet. i hope don't have. cause i can love with a great passion and i can hate with a greater passion.

haven packed yet. i have no idea what i am waiting for. for the sky to drop ba.

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super tired now. i think won't stay online for long today.
went to my grandma's house for lunch and dinner. was taught to play runescape by my 8 year old cousin. gosh. i totally don't know what the game is about. just blindly follow his move.
don't feel like blogging now. no mood ba.
seriously, just forget. there is no point at all.
so i should not waste my time.
flo was right. i really need to get away. i need a break.

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p.s i love you ♥
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rawr. annoyed. annoyed. super annoyed. damn annoyed.
i am NOT STUBBORN! maybe i am but i am NOT THAT STUBBORN.
insensitive stupid pig. idiot.
just forget it!

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i just woke up like ten minutes ago. can't be helped. i was online until 3.55am yesterday. was suppose to like get off around 1 plus am but was chatting with jun and to be honest i was quite stunned.

gah, sorry jun. i think i was living in my own world since the first three months. i really didn't know that those things were happening. amazing is it not that even until now, the friendship that i have with jun is still being under the lime light. and i DON'T LIKE the way i am being portrayed.

funn how things such as hanging out with your fren can be so normal to you and yet be someone else's gossip news. is that how scandals start? was seriously annoyed when he told me and he KEPT IT from me for so long. rawr. he said i was the main cast that is why i didn't know alot.

lol. ok i admit. i have a selected group of friends only at nj. and i am living in my world most of the time. or i just ignore whatever people say. i wonder now, do some people wonder who i am? interesting is it not? sorry, my list of friends are full already. you can only get in if one of them dies. which will be never.

anyway, i won't care about what people say. i will still hang out with whoever i like. isn't that freedom of choice? so the only advice is to ignore and live your own life. it may seem very self centred but if you try to avoid people talking, won't you be sacrificing your own friendship and stuff? and no matter what you do, people will still talk. so just bear the truth in your mind and laugh at their ignorance and childishness ba.

interesting convo topic which lasted for an hour and a half. to be honest. i really did not know anything about it. no one told me anything about it. i felt left in the dark. but who cares, those stuff happened in the beginning of the year and it is really ridiculous that they are still harping on it now when the year is about to end. sigh. i am skeptical about human nature now.

that convo really help keep my mind off things. shocking, stun, stupidified. haha. i mean what ever happens between jun and i isn't it our own business? funny that many people should know even if i never tell. but jun is famous in nj. so that can't really be helped. people's source of entertainment comes in really weird ways. and nj is a mugger school, what else is left to be said? it is clear isn't it?

i think i said before, i appreciate my own freedom. although there maybe some restrictions from my parents and stuff but i really enjoy my freedom. i refuse to be tied down in many ways. no obligations and commitments unless i choose to have them. it is the same for jun. and for all those who still don't get it, i don't like jun more than a close friend. but it is difficult for some people to perceive it that way i guess. who can blame them, it is still a very traditional society despite all those modern furnishings.

i really wonder who in the future will be able to tie me down. curious. who is able to handle my impulsive and stubborn behaviour? i need someone to keep me in line. interesting is it not? my sis says it takes an extremely patient guy. and no, it will not be aaron. jiin is anyhow putting thots in my head. rawr. i guess alot of things have to be said clearly between people. who knows what they are thinking in the first place.

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jun's 1001 excuses to reject someone:

. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
you are giving too much.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
you can find a better guy.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
you have a bright future.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
you can live better without me.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
we are just friends.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
see how things work out next time.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
blah blah.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
you are just too good, i'm incompatible to you.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
blah blah
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
err..
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
i don't want to hurt you badly next time.
jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
oh wait.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
still got.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
i can't forget my ex.
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
i don't want you to be her substitute.

haha. he got alot of experience i think. gah, he went to send me that song. idiot. he is really a bai chi! why that song?

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i feel much better now. chatting with jun can just work wonders la. haha. maybe cause similar thinking and stuff. he win liao. seriously.

. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
ask you,
[sue anne] 越想抓住的东西会飘得越远 says:
?
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
to love something is to see that person happy, and not to own him right?
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
that's what everyone says right?
[sue anne] 越想抓住的东西会飘得越远 says:
yeah
[sue anne] 越想抓住的东西会飘得越远 says:
but do u agree?
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
then are you marrying with a person you don't really love?
[sue anne] 越想抓住的东西会飘得越远 says:
haha
[sue anne] 越想抓住的东西会飘得越远 says:
smart question
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
so the conclusion is
. jw (｡◕‿◕｡) 以疯看人，看事，看世界 ` (^^,) says:
that sentence is bullshit.

his logic is like . . . crap but i can't help but to agree with him. haha. just tell him things and then get them sorted. funny but i thot of whatever he said but then sometimes, you will just feel better coming out of someone else's mouth.

i really should publish whatever i chat with jun. cause, there is hardly any crap. just pure thinking. haha. i am not making any sense.

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the aircon is off, the fan is off. and i am wearing my sweater. why? cause i am feeling cold. why? i don't know. or maybe for reasons that i don't want to write down.

jiin is flying off tml. have a pleasant trip! i tink i will miss her terribly.

thinking things through won't resolve anything. it won't make me happy either. love is selfish. there is no way that you can be happy seeing someone else happy. that is what my sis told me. maybe it is truth.

maybe all along, people have been deceiving themselves that if their love ones are happy then they are happy. sorry, but i don't think that the love works this way. it doesn't. i really don't think that it does.

if i knew that this was going to happen, why can't i accept it now? weird isn't it? people often think of different scenarios which things will happen and then think of the worst and yet, when it happens, they will just be in a state of shock. like what i am feeling right now.

now i am just waiting for numbness to go settle in. i can't for it to settle in. cos by then, i won't feel anything already. just smile and pretend everything is alright.

and i just wasted one sms to tell a person who has been msging me about stuff that he has been msging the wrong person all along.

p.s i love you ♥
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slept at around 1am last nite. must stop sleeping late. nearly couldn't wake up today.

woke up and started banging away on the piano. out of practice. sigh. super super out of practise. played until boon jin and yl came.

so the usual. the guys dragged the mahjong table up. we played daidee until my sis was ready then it was bridge time XD haha. keep partnering with boon jin. and that is why, keep losing. got once i quite stubborn don't want to play diamonds and then anyhow call for no trump. whee.

then was playing bridge until we decided that we wanted to play mahjong. haha. played like one game then we went to play monopoly. it sucks! like i throw dice and already the smallest number possible. and then boon jin super lucky. went super fast and keep buying properties. i was actually quite screwed cos went one round and only bought like one property?

then the ganging up began. at first was boon jin and yl that bought houses for the super ex one. then me, my sis and yl went to buy together. then my sis and boon jin collaborated. then me and boon jin collaborated for two districts. so overall, like boon jin didn't have to worry?

but very funny. yl kept stepping on mine and boon jin's properties so it is like 8 thousand over? and then each time keep stepping. actually it was me who was going to die. cos like left two thousand in the drawer? but then i dong shan zai qi. then yl bankrupt. . .then boon jin won for like the first time in his life?

but they were insisting of watching movies tat were. . .er. . . how to say? i never in my life watch those shows before. and boon jin's face was like grimacing at some parts? innocent boy. then we started this thing that who ever won any game, get to choose a new game. so it was bridge then mahjong then yl decided to be smart and choose twister.

then my sis started spinning first and gosh. . . all i can say was. . . my legs hurt, we three were in like some kind of weird position. then next was my turn to spin. . . at that time, brendan came over to borrow the laptop to use for a while. boon jin and my sis was in a position that after brendan left, he came to msg me that that was disgusting. HAHA. and guess what, i cheated. i never even spin the thing at all.

then yl's turn to spin and then boon jin's turn to spin. all very innocent one. then after tat, we played mahjong and bridge somemore.

then we three went to eat prata house for dinner. stupid boon jin made us jay walk and climb over the fence. my shorts were wet from the rain water. then sat down and ate and gossip. haha, like tradition to after playing to go prata house to eat.

super full by then. then boon jin and i took bus back. now i super tired. but today was fun. haha. but not many days to play. need to do hw and stuff and need to practise for next year a levels. i am going to do something next year. don't care. shall not make the mistake i did for this year's common test. that was the suckiest results i ever got. so disappointing.

shall go mug tml. . . next year like have to stay back after school to mug already. cannot mug at home one. distracting. haha. i wonder if this year going with brendan to his xmas party again at expo. went last year and it was fun XD haha. like alot of singing and stuff.

shall sleep early i hope. going online is distracting me from my sleep. need to pack stuff for hk. i want a sweater. boon jin! haha. don't trust him to buy me a bag. anyway, i like things with my initials or name on it. so HINT XD

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world