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When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

in about eight hours time, i will be on the plane. i am so nervous. man, hafta calm down or else, gonna be sick again. every time it is either my stomach damn pain or i will haf a fever. the last time i went to japan, i had both and it was damn sucky. onli when i reached there, then i was fine. i tink now at this time, daph, ivy, shu, qin and jo will be in malaysia. sigh. . . miss every one already. oh shit. having preflight jitters. and i normally thot tat this is normally for brides such as prewedding jitters. sigh. . . .

packed everythink already. . . i tink. beta go and double check. going to hurl everything out soon. dunno why am i so emotional. i think tat i am going to tie up my hair although it is not tat long. i feel very lousy.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

in about eight hours time, i will be on the plane. i am so nervous. man, hafta calm down or else, gonna be sick again. every time it is either my stomach damn pain or i will haf a fever. the last time i went to japan, i had both and it was damn sucky. onli when i reached there, then i was fine. i tink now at this time, daph, ivy, shu, qin and jo will be in malaysia. sigh. . . miss every one already. oh shit. having preflight jitters. and i normally thot tat this is normally for brides such as prewedding jitters. sigh. . . .

packed everythink already. . . i tink. beta go and double check. going to hurl everything out soon. dunno why am i so emotional. i think tat i am going to tie up my hair although it is not tat long. i feel very lousy.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

the outing at TJC was very boring. i didn understand all of the science projects. i think i went to one lyk tat during pri 5 / 6. but at tat time, flo and jiin were interested in them. so aneway. . . copied all the answers for the spastic ws. i love pei pei to bits. she sewed for me this damn cute heart cushion. except that i hung my key chain on it until the ribbon came out and i whacked ivy with it and the cotton came out. haha. so aneway. . . now i am trying to savage it or else pei will kill me.

bloody shit lor. got stalked by a stalker. why doesn't she understand tat we dun wanna hang out with her. realli lor. i haven quite forgiven her for pushing me aside juz to follow daph. lucky she did not follow this time or she will get a black eye. or get trampled on. saw this damn cute thingy tat u hafta hit the ball and the ball go up and . . . dunno how to explain it. was looking at that thing for quite a while. fang, daph, jo and i had to run away through exhibitions juz to get away from. . .so damn tired by the time we shook her off.

went to the canteen to sit and we were quite bad i tink. pratically squeeze five chairs to a table so tat . . . erm. forget it. pei is damn cool lor. told . . . straight to the face that we dun wan her to follow but she nv listen. dun noe wad it is with people tat dun understand english, next time i shall try in teochew, hainanese, jap and cantonese. see whther she will listen onot. hu ask daph to be so sweet, until attract so many bees. then later fang and beatz came and we squeezed seven to a bloody small table. but then, the tables were cool. did not eat at all lor, the rest ate. thot that later going to eat but then shuming told me later that not eating. sigh. saw qin. she is so cute lor. i lyk terrorizing her. going to miss alot of pple duing the hols. leavin for aust in two days time.

took photos with jo and daph at the statue tat jo insisted was angels??? i was very happi. haha. on the way back to sch. daph, jo and ivy were all sleepin. i tried sleepin but then. . . i can't freakin sleep when i am sitting. going to haf a prob when i sit on the plane. dunno why is it a night flight!!! so not fun one. daph sleep very funni. jo and i took photos of her sleeping. thinkin of using it to blackmail except that she kind of posed for us to talk. she is so cute!!! alot of pple damn cute lor. going to miss them loads and loads and loads.

changed in class then had to wait and shu, angel and wedy. shu is so horrible, go and pinch me until i got a bruise lor. muz pray tat it fades or else i am going to kill her. she has no sense of direction lor. told her to stop at somerset and we got of at orchard. had to walk damn far to reach orchard cinema. but got my revenge. shu is scare of heights so we made her take the escalator all the way up and it it kind of high. haha. bought tickets and then went to shop around. there haf many nice shops lor. took neoprints and had to retake about three times until the time up. angel brought rings for each of us. so sweet. today was her bdae though. gonna hafta buy lots of presents for daph, jo, ivy, shu, wedy, angel, winnie, xinying, flo , qin, pei, siew, kai, fang, lei, beat, lei, chers, ven, sharppi, my angel and . . .a lot more i think. haven finish writing the list yet.

bought a monkey for my sis at more than words, reminded me so much lyk her so. . . haha. the movie rox lyk hell. so funni. esp the ending. the cat is so cute.love it. after the movie. wedy and shu had to leave so me and angel went to taka to walk. brought books at kino. then later angel went back so i called my mum to meet her at her office. took the train from orchard to tampanies. it is so far lor. lyk about 45 minutes? went into the building and the security guy looked at me as though i am a criminal. wanted to sock him but then told him that i was looking for my mum. the security was damn high lor. had to call her in order for me to go into her office.

went to the shoppin mall and took back dinner from pasta mania. nv try before but it was good. then my dad fetched us back home. decided that i am going to bring macbeth and shui hu zhuan to aust and force myself to read them. this way. i can study. but i wun enjoy it.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

all i can sae is that the prize award ceremony was a complete crap waste of time. we juz sat there lyk art pieces and stand and bow. so bloody. . . missed history somemore!!! it is lyk the last lesson before the exam and i totally missed it. stupid rehearsal. if i flunk history, it will be all the school's fault. wtf. they didn't even give out the certs DURING the award ceremony. it is lyk after the whole thing when everyone is dismissed then they give out. this is realli wad i call, a complete waste of my precious time. time is now my enemy. . . have onli lyk four freakin days to memorise my hist. chaps. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. but at least i left chap 14.

music is gettin more and more and more borin. playin with the stupid keyboard thats reacting so slowly. was sleepin during tat time. art is rather. . . erm. foo kept showing us nude statues of art and asking why is that man a man. . . took 20 mins before someone said the CORRECT answer. at least when he asked why that woman was a woman, did not take tat long. kai, xuan, wen and i went crazy on the way to the hall. . . like maniacs. haha.

i haf to record something. . . 1st time in this past two years, flo came out the same time as me!!! normally i wait for her. the teacher is always so naggy. got an ice cream man outside the gate and she tempted me to buy one. so horrible!!! not suppose to do so lor. muz not go anewhere with food with flo. but the ice cream was damn nice haha. slackin already now. . . going to die on mon and fri. oh yeah!!! tomorrow got dance test. wtf. pray tat dun fail. or else have to retest.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

morning jog was more lyk lyk morning walk. stupid weather. it didn't rain at all i think and had to run the new extension. everyone was lyk crowding at the stairs and running onli at the 2nd and 3rd floor. mrs tan was chao pissed off and from next week onwards, hafta run the new extension. haf to fun the stairs and dun they noe that u burn more energy by walkin up and down the stairs?

mrs kuek was also not in a good mood. started scoldin us on our behavior on buses and talkin too loud. ??? then she went to lecture us on vandalism and passin remarks about our friends. i was not realli listenin la. crazy beatrice, go and unhook my bra in the middle of the talk!!! so bloody hard to hook it back. . . lucky beatz and mong could do it. or else i would look damn weird with an unhook bra. next time i am goin to strip beatz lor.

maths i am beginning to understand liao. . . although i got alot of assignments hafta hand in. tym is pmsin. nothin wrong then go and scold us. wa lau. i feel damn yuan wang lor. he complain our klas is dirty and he nv look at daph, beatz and mine row. it is spotless lor. dunno how to give praise when it is needed.

had an english narrative test. the topics were so abstract lor. lyk very general. faces, masks, friendship, falling leaves, shame, words and dunno wad. wrote on fallin leaves, reminds me so much of chinese cinderella. ms poon mark damn fast lor. . . did not too bad. at least got an A1 , got at least two marks higher than chem. this yr science marks improvin but then maths going down liao. . . very the wad lor. i realised something, i totally detest, hate, dislike people i dun lyk to stick to me.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

is there aneway that my life could get more screwed up? physics totally sucked. was going omg when i saw the bloody paper. it is so not fair. flo's paper was only five pages while our's were lyk seven pages long!!! who gives a damn whether light travels straight or bent, as long as i am not transparent and it does not pass through me it is none of my business liao. History is in less than a week away and i haven study anething except that spastic world war two and stupid self government. who cares whether it is adolf hitler or the japanese that started the war. History realli has no meaning and i thot that we were suppose to look forward to the future!!!

watched troy on sunday. brad pitt has a nice butt and a dropdead gorgeous body. could not stop staring at his. . . forget it. the show is damn nice. orlando bloom acted lyk a wimp though. and the guy that played hector. . . is so bloody good looking and nice butt as well. thinking about going to watch it again. for the sake of brad's butt. going to buy the cd. that is definitely a must!

sending in my njc form. . . jiayun helpin me. she is so nice!!! thot about the form and this is wad i came up with, the hidden meaning:
1) personal info
if u cannot fill in this form, u can forget about joining, dun
come and try ur luck cos i noe that ur parents will help u.
2) parent's form
To check that u are not a spastic alien from outer space and
ur parents agree with u that although ur chances are slim, at
least u can read instructions.
3) personal statement
whether u have a brain or not this is wad we are testing u.
write anything stupid and ur form will be in dustbin. write
anything bad about school and u can say bye bye. praise the njc
and at least u have brains and taste
4) reference form
if nobody agrees with u, juz drop dead. wad are u thinking of
trying to apply. testing the referee, to see whether the people
u ask actually have an IQ or is some kind of brain block idiot.

it is lyk every week we have an english test. tomorrow is narrative essay which is so freakin stupid. want to get a good compo, go and read a book. alway end up with horrible marks and waste alot of my paper and ink.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

suppose to be studying for my chinese but now i seriously dun give a damn anemore. . . i was in a terrific mood until someone pissed me off. it happened during history lesson somemore, after i got back my paper. realli damn. . . anyway, kind of let out my anger by complaining to flo. she is so nice!!! at least she understands, cos she hates whiny people as well. very sad that this june cannot go out with her. the time clashes very nicely. two weeks she cannot and it is the two weeks that i can. haha

flo forgot to bring back her chinese things so dunno how is she going to study. but i think she can manage la. finally talk to my dad who i ignored for five days. go and take my money somemore or get me pissed off, you can forget about me talking to you ever again. he went to take $8-10 from my wallet cos he sae my wallet very heavy T_T. in the end, he had to return me $20, four comics and some vcds for me to talk to him again. . . it is some type of peace offering. my sis sae that i went overboard but i dun realli care cos i hate people touching my things. esp. . . my television. touch or move it in any single way and u will get screamed at. a lot of people haf already been warned or die.

i seriously dun lyk mrs tian, i mean wad is her problem. want us to finish a essay within 10 minutes and somemore cannot finish muz hand in at 8a.m the morning the next day. ivy very poor thing. . . become the e.lit rep. going to ask caipo to sign my reference. very risky but at lest beta than egg. he is so damn bias. i hate him lyk siao

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world