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When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

history test sucks. . . explain how did the league of nations failed in collective security. . . . i dun even noe wad the hell is collective security. so i ended up writing an intro about league of nations and juz flung wadeva failure the league had on to the paper. . . when our klas took the question paper. . . all the oh shits and oh my god and be heard. . . tat edwin ho scared the hell out of me. nearly crashed into him la. . .siao. . . maths was ok la. . . had loads of help from karina =D. . . if tat bloody t.k comes near me, i will smack him wif my file. . .as wad daph had said, i practically clung on to her when i saw him wif mrs seah. . . was hiding behind daph la. . .

went to j8 wif jo, daph and mx. . . ate at sakae. . . so bloody ex la. . . was lyk going o_0 when i saw the price. . . anywayz, saw my junior at j8. . . she is sec one. . . she was waving lyk siao and say tat i pawn cca yesterday when i wasn't suppose to be there. . . actually i was suppose to help jing zhi but had to do my ic. . . the thumb print thing was so cool. . . anywayz. . . was walking around. . . and bought my josh groban cd. . . he is damn good la. . . heard it on ms poore's laptop. . .my dad was sayin tat he was shock tat i listen to this type of music, he say mostly onli adults listen. . . wadeva, juz implyin tat i am old la. . . took neoprints!!! finally got one wif mx. . . she damn hard to take pic of her la. . . always avoiding the cam. . . dunno wad hw is there. . . dun care la. . . today is stressful day. . .

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top ten reasons why i love tanleiping so much

10) she is the sweetest person i noe (lyk duh)
9) she was my partner last year (everyone noes tat u muz love ur partner)
8) she is the onli person tat can make me reply her letters asap (i usually take a month or a year to reply)
7) she is super super smart (even if she doesn't noe it)
6) she is one of the few ppl tat has taste in guys (others juz wun admit they haf no taste)
5) my klas is not realli tat fun without her (missin her loads)
4) she makes assemblies look fun (i actually look forward to assemblies)
3) she makes my sec two life very fun and nice (i LOVE my sec two klas)
2) she understands me (muz love her loads for tat)
1) she is the onli one tat noes how i feel about t.k (she is the most sympathetic person i noe who pitied me. . . the rest were all lyk so lucky!!!)

haha. . . anywayz. . . i will love tan lei ping forever and ever. . . even death shall not part us.

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spent the whole yesterday and today sewing hearts for mi sis cos she want to give to her frenz for vdae. . . shit. . . i had to ask my maid how to spell sewing. . . god, i am not in the right mind today. . . i admire my sis for wanting to handmake the gifts but in the end, it turns out tat mi sis sewing sucks and mi and my maid had to make most of the hearts. . . urgh. . . but ok la. . . at least kill time. . . today i reali not payin attention to the things i do la. . . was thinkin bout loads of thing and my mind was not on track. . . ended up poking my finger half the time i was sewing. dropped a big scissors on the floor and thank god the marble nv crack or mi dad will kill me when he gets back from msia. . . washed my face wif my specs on. . . tried to on the com wif out oning the main switch. . . had to stop sewing half way cos i actually poked the needle through my skin. . . oh man, i am becoming clumsy. . . muz stop tinkin or i will end up lyk my mum. . . not tat there is anything bad about my mum but she is realli blur. . .

i am onli doing my hw later when my brain is clear or i tink i will end up doing the wrong questions or read the question wrongly. dunno wad is wrong wif mi today. . . my finger is sore from prickin and sewing. . . sigh. . . muz either be someone cursing me or this is juz isn't my day. . .

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happie birthday my beloved daph

lolz. . . sabo her thrice today i think. . . hu ask her to sabo me on my bdae! first was durin mr ho's lesson then the whole klas sang bdae song. . . she was so shy la! imagine seeing a SHY daph teh! very hard to believe la. . . haha. . . after tat, durin recess, sabo her again!!! she was on duty la then saw tym. . . told tym tat it was her bdae then tym say going to give her a treat, onli give his the receipt and then he pay! oh yeah! he still owe me, ivy, daph, jo and fang a treat! then went back to klas and wif the help of ruobin, caryn and ber, we wrote a huge happie birthday on the board. . . but then tat pok came back late and by the time she came back, wang jian was in klas. . . but nvm. . . at least gave her a scare again cos when she juz stepped into klas we sang again. . . so fun!!! haha. . . finally return her the 'favour' do once return thrice. . . thank god she nv kill me. . . juz remembered doing this cos last time durin pri six i also got the same. . . except tat time was jiin drag me to the toilet and it was durin recess time. . .

had to teach the sec ones the specs durin cca. . . so it was me, jingzhi and mel. . . got one sec one damn rude one la. . . but then, she got the hardest test so i didn't mind. . . very fun to zhen them. . . after tat had to stay back until nine cos got av duty. . . but dun mind la. . . anywayz, my sis also haf to stay back got caipo ask her to help out. .. haha. . . i nv hai my sis la. . . onli tell caipo tat she is my sis onli. . . no harm wad. . . how am i suppose to noe tat caipo will make my sis the monitor wad. . . not lyk i got so much power. . . so dunno when can mi sis stop blamin me. . . lolz, not tat i mind. . .

i ate a freakin fly!!! i was wif jingzhi tokin to mrs ang in the hall durin the sec two meet the parents and then all of a sudden, a bloody fly flew into my mouth. . . and i bit on it before i noticed. . . after tat, i sorta spat it out on the floor and when i wiped my mouth, got wings on my hand. . . wadeva, so gross! and when i look down at the floor, the fly was still moving!!! but anywayz i killed it wif my shoe. . . lucky got no taste or i will scream my head off. . . so disgusting. . . and when i got home, my contacts split. . . lucky didn't split in school. . . or i will juz die. . .

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happie birthday jiin!!! love ya loads

haha. . . finally jiin is same age as me!!! lolz. . . at least now i not older than her anymore. . . haha. . . today had the sec one orientation. . . quite fun la. . . all the sec ones very cute!!! finally memorise all their names already. played partner wacko and all the other lame games la. . . was very tired by the time got back and still haf lots of hw. . . lolz. . . miss sec two life now. . . my sis beta appreciate it or i will kill her.

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i am cranky and bored today. was harrassin daph and jo the entire day due to the fact tat i was rottin at home as well as i wanted to escape hw. . . haf to do maths, history, geog and chinese!!! tried to kill time by writing jiin a long comment. tat horrible gal nv tag my board! will attack her when she comes back during chinese new year. . . sort of finished history already. for a 13 mark essay, i surely crapped alot. . . god, i am super moody and sort of pmsin. . . urgh. . . bored as hell and somemore dunno wad topic to write for chinese compo!!! wtf. . . very moody no. . . dunno wad to do. . . i tink mi sis has a bf again. -shrug- can't be bothered anymore. at least there is someone wif a love life. jo thinks i need to find a bf to kill my boredom. . . i swear i am going to kill her. . . nuthin can be beta than prince william. . .which is a weird fantasy as he is lyk half a world away from mi and even if i do go there, i prob would not even get close to him due to all the body guards and all. . . god, i am bored tat i am crappin shit .

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oh god! my darlin partner lei lei has t.k for maths!!! and he is teachin her graphs!!! lei lei, dun b sad! at least got mi to suffer wif u! lei's hands were lyk freakin cold after maths lesson la. somehow i tink she is the less fortunate of us both. physics lyk three times a week. maths is every day. lei so poor thing! he is a lousy teacher la! he lyk carry air con wif him lyk tat -quoted by winnie soh- i had to wear a sweater for half an hour la. so cold! and karina said tat it was hot! t.k got nuthin beta to do! does he haf to come back to st.nicks and haunt mi and my darlin lei? i was hafin geo lesson then i juz turn to look at lei's klas which was opp mine and then, i saw tat idiot walkin towards lei's klas! i was going omg, when he entered lei's klas la. so sad!

haf av duty durin the sec three meet the parents session today. went back home to bath and change to my specs. daphne teh! u owe mi a treat!!! was so tired by the time i walked back to school. . . was kind of slackin in the av room and luffin with jingzhi and marina lyk siao when winnie and christiana took over the duty. . . so tired. . . i hate triple jump. i hate to jump!!! my leg so pain now. . . sufferin from the after effects of mornin jog as well as p.e. . .

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why today dun haf assembly in the hall??? i muz b the onli one tat is crazy enuff to want assembly today? i will do anything, anything to get out of tf's lesson!!! plus durin assembly, i get to sit wif my darlin lei and yuting and kaili!!! sigh. . . hw for this weeks is chinese compo and history assignment. . . dunno when i want to do cos hand in on mon! so i very lazy. . .i very suay! got t.k to teach my klas physics!!! when will i ever b spared of tat idiot's lousy teachin? lei and i say tat he failed his teachin lisence tats why still a trainee! lousy pok! when he was in klas yesterday, i was so cold tat i had to borrow daph's sweater!!! and it was before a very hot day!!!. . .

wang jian's lesson was boring. . . i very scare i fail chinese leh. . . durin his period i was writin a letter to lei lei. . . wa. i hate when his lesson got three periods, the feelin is lyk eternalty!!! jo gave me a beach ball!!! was rollin around every way in klas and it even rolled into the balconey!!! going to ask daph to blow it up cos i very lousy at blowin balls and floats. tomorrow muz borrow her sweater again, or i will freeze to death. why can't he juz stay out of sngs? he got some kind of illness i tink. which guy trainee will go to an all girls school twice?

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sue-anne received DEVASTATING news on her birthday. oh horror. you know how devastating is devastating? SHE WAS SHIVERING. under the hot and sweltering sun during assembly. i was sweating til the area around me nearly flooded with sweat but sueanneteo was SHIVERING because it was so devastating and SHE HAD TO WEAR A JACKET. oh horror. and if you're wondering, and i know you are cos no one can SHIVER during today's assembly, only ONE irritating, idiotic, pea-sized-brain person could shake her up like she was on a pogo stick.

oh yes. yes yes yes. that person's back ): oh horror. sueanne my greatest partner in history and i were like IN SHOCK after we erm, received the news. our mouths were as huge as watermelons, i tell you. we were all HOPING and HOPING that we won't you know, suay suay kena that person. nahh i don't think we did. lets hope the secthrees are free from that person cos. well, lets just say that person isn't exactly the fairest guy you know. he makes huanglaoshi looks like a saint. and THAT, is a miracle, as we all know.

love, lei x

took the about from lei's blog. . . omg, i love my darlin lesbian partner lei to bitts. she is lyk the onli one tat noes how i feel about tat bloody t.k. . .was luffin lyk siao when i read it. . . howeva. . . i am going to get him for physics in two weeks time. . . darlin lei, please pray for me and hope i dun go hysterical durin his lesson. can't remember if i post tat t.k came back but if i didn't, i was tryin not to spoil my day. . .lei rocks my world!

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from today onwards, i am 15. feelin very old now. . . thanks to all those ppl tat smsed me, wished me happie birthday and thanks for ur prezzies!!! i tink the earliest to wish me is munxin at lyk 12.06 a.m, then second was my mum at 1.30 a.m. haha. . . couldn't sleep last nite. . . oh god. . . i can kill daph la. . . she asked the klas to sing happie birthday. . . i was lyk so paiseh la. . . embarrassin la. . . dunno why but i feel very weird. . . will kill her soon. . .

today lessons was ok la. . . not very heavy. . . got maths hw. . . stuck at question 16 for about an hour liao. . . keep on makin mistakes!!! i am so not cut out to do hw on my bdae. . .

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jie ning is so sweet! i miss her loads la. . . no one left to complain about egg wif me anymore, besides shu. . . sobsob. i bet egg is missin her loads cos she is his beloved treasurer and maths genius. -no sarcasm intended cos it is the truth- i bet ning will probably want to kill me now after she read the above line.

went to prego to celebrate mi bdae early la. . . mi mum probably takin haf day tomorrow but mi dad cannot cos got audits. =( mi mum sayin buyin the cake from gelare instead of swensens cos wanna try something new. i dun mind except it MUST be an ice cream cake. god i tink i am growin fat on my bdae and i juz lost weight la. -pinches cheek- i tink i am gainin back the weight tat i lost? which will totally suck cos i spent time tryin to lose it!

finally finished english! hope shu is correct or i will seriously do her bodily harm. -cracks knuckles- now tryin to do geo. tryin to draw a diagram tat does not look lyk the book. and tryin not to plagarize the book. it is damn hard! sigh. . . dunno how to draw and my art sucks! ms tan said tat by the end of this year we would b able to draw mountains tat look lyk mountains and rivers tat look lyk rivers. wow. . . tat is so interestin! bought an octopus toy. actually not reali a toy but suppose to clip something. suppose to buy it for ppl tat i owe prezzies. . . lucky bought alot of things so can switch. . . all so nice. . . can i keep all?

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oh shit. . . i dunno how to do english hw for the 15 sentences. got lyk diff instructions from DIFFERENT ppl. . . had cca fair today. very tired. . . was told tat i looked lyk hell due to not enough sleep. . . hmm. . .haf to finish all my hw today cos i do not plan to do it tomorrow and not on MONDAY! fang came back today, haha. . . was huggin her lyk siao. . . my eyes very pain. . . wore contacts for lyk 15 hours yesterday when max is 12. . . if i go blind it is mine fault.

i am feelin very lost now. . . dunno wad to do. . . muz revise geo or else i dunno wad on earth is tsw tokin about. last thing on my mind now is about how should i solve the most difficult problem i haf ever faced in my life. i mean i haf known her for a long time but then i REALLY dun lyk ppl to stick to me, esp her. it is not tat i am anti-social or anything but it is realli irritatin. . . i didn't noe tat most ppl haf the same opinion as me but they juz didn't tell me. i realli dunno wad to do. . .

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HAPPIE BIRTHDAY FLO

readin my first day of school post so tat i can write my freakin journal for bloody mrs francis. . . was tinkin about juz copy and paste the post but then when i told daph, she was lyk O_O. ok fine. my post has all the 'bad'words so will haf to re-edit it abit. had history and was drawin stick ppl to elaborate the hungary-german thingy and ended up drawin damn ugly stick ppl. maths had to play wif sqs and rectangles. karina had to draw alot of them. science was shit. i hate teachers tat keep scores of grps and mrs ang happen to b one of them la. makes mi feel lyk in pri school.

chinese was a typical sleepin lesson la. feelin very bad now cos wang jian was abit poor thing la, no one listen to him. daph sat wif mi durin chinese! haha. . .but then onli chinese la cos karina haf to change klasroom. assembly totally kind of rox even though it was boring. lei and i pulled kai and ting to sit wif us la even though they were in diligence. unfortunately we were kind of sittin close to the teachers so cannot realli tok much. was kind of lyk mumblin and lip readin.

forgot to add yesterday tat devina is my fishball!!! haha. and i am satay stick. . . lol. . . cca had to pin posters and i am on duty tomorrow from 6.30 - 9.30p.m for sec ones. dun mind realli la cos mi sis, marti and jingzhi is doing duty wif mi. . .stayin in school the whole time. . . hafin piano first then help winnie to move things! can't wait for mon cos flo keep on tellin me this whole week tat the prezzie she bought for me is very funni so i will luff at it. she wants to see my reaction so i hope i shall not be too shock.

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happie bdae darlin ning!

had lessons today. fuck. juz pasted the msg to jiin on my post and haf to rewrite. i am such a doofus. teachers were nice today but onli becos they were kind enough not to reveal their claws on the first day of school. lol. . . past three days lyk write reflections and targets. muz photocopy and use the same for next year. our form teacher is ridiculously makin us feel lyk kindergarten students la. write journal. pen picture. sit accordin to index. no in the HALL. for goodness sake! i can't stand her la. thank god there is no english for the next two days. can't stand her.

i am officially going to b broke due to the buying of files and excercise books and somemore haf to buy the human geo text book. i haf a feelin tat i am going to regret takin pure geog.

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sheez. . . forgot to write new year resolutions. . . anyway, three days after the new year is also a new year. . .

toni's new year resolutions for 2005

1) get at least five A1s
2) excercise!
3) do not fight wif zoe for more than once a day
4) finish hw before play
5) finish hw before play and do not copy!
6) keep my room in a neat state for lyk least two hours
7) stop coming online lyk practically every day
8) try to achieve something before year end
9) stop complaining about how much 2005 sucks
10) try not to call every one i see a fish ball

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the first day of school was rather ok la. . . it was lyk a sleepin session though. . . teachers crappin thru stuff tat they repeat every single day. went to my klas in the morn and the first thing i did before i even put my bag down was to hug winnie soh lyk siao. . . haha. . . she happened to be in my klas despite her being in truth. . . anyway, was walkin around wif daph and jo tryin to find ppl tat we knew. . . lol. . . found out tat flo's klas is quite far. she cut her hair la and now, it is shorter than mine. . .

hall assembly wanted to sleep. . . shall not elaborate on wad we did there cos i freakin do not remember a single thing. anyway, went back to klas and then mrs francis? allocated seats again and i am sitting next to erm. . . karina? so anyway, practically all six of us are old gals. then played a damn lame game. . . sometimes i tink our form teacher thinks tat we are pri three instead of sec three la. . . the game was lyk she paste a paper on everyone's back and on the paper is written lyk an object, a person or an event. and we are suppose to ask every one a yes or no question. main aim, interact wif everyone. but i dun see the point cos the person would onli ans a yes or no. . . a one word conversation. wow, tat is so interest!

second game was to use onli sign language and stand accordin to bdaes. which is weird cos later in the hall, they asked us to do it again, except, can tok and dun need accordin to day but month. . . overall, fine, ok, wadeva. . .

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i was suppose to welcome 2005 wif a smile and instead i stare at it wif a scowl. . . i totally hate this year. i hate being fifteen. i hate my form teacher. i hate where my klas is located. i totally miss 2 truth 04. it is lyk the best klas ever and the most spacious. i hate the fact tat three grace is rather open and u cannot blast music unlyk in two truth where u can blast music and no one there gives a damn. i hate the fact tat if we make noise there, the teachers can hear and scold u. i hate our school new colour. i hate most of the teachers. i hate the fact tat i haven finished my hw. and i hate 2005 even more, due to the fact that i totally noe tat this year will suck. . .

was suppose to welcome 2005 on tv wif the countdown and all but due to tsunami it is off. . . it is so wadeva la. . .not tat i dun pity the ppl but i tink it is rather lyk noah's ark and it is fate. ended up watchin friends and didn't even noticed tat 2005 had arrived. wadeva. . . and today, found out tat the dog tat i managed to persuade my aunt not to kill had killed another dog. . . so i was lyk a dog killer. life is so ironic. u spare the life of one, u kill another life.

was supposed to watch kung fu hustle wif mi parents today. but unfortunately, my dad which haven stepped in a cinema for lyk four bloody years say tat we will make it in time to buy tickets at 3.30 when the show starts tat four. so practically there was no seats and the next show at five. all the seats tat they could gif us was lyk six rows from the freakin screen. i was so pissed off and didn't watch at all la. . . i will so not spoil my eyes due to my dad's stubborness and wad is more, it totally rained for the past two days la. . . wad a nice new year. . . i tink god is tellin me tat my entire year will b in gloom. . .

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