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When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

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just came back like 15 minutes ago. haha.

the show is nice. although there was this irritating girl who kept exclaiming at the exciting parts. some part quite touching also.

ate pepper lunch for dinner. i will never try new things again. and i got psed cos i thot that that person is going to try something new. ee. . ps me.

tired now but going to read up some stuff.

i am going to murder my sis soon. if she doesn't shut up about the leaves thing and she is so going to blog about it. GAH.

oh yeah, i forgot today was leap year. . .

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i was actually planning to go to sch early today. like reach there at 7.15am. i thought i could. then had this huge massive jam at bukit timah road and the bus actually stopped there for 5 minutes without moving. it was ridiculous. it was so bad that hc ppl had to alight at coro to walk to school. there were nj people alighting at hc and the bus stop further down to walk to sch. lucky, reached there at like 7.35?

assembly in the hall. went for econs lecture. and then crashed lt1 maths lecture although mr lum is not exactly that good but better than whatever lecturer i was suppose to have in lt5. was sitting with joson the entire day. very funny. i was laughing during maths lecture. funny.

chem tutorial mr wee had to invigilate chem spa so bridge with boon jin, joson and teddy. gah. partner joson is like lose like mad.

maths tutorial was just ok. the usual. then went to canteen. bought caifan. seriously, this is like the 2nd time i have eaten from that store since i have been in nj. funny. then sat with andrew, grace, cuilin and liu chang. funny.

silly conversations are really fun and heart-warming. today was probably the best day i had the entire week. andrew was like complaining why the yong tao foo stall never open and i was like 'she probably went honey mooning with her husband' then he was like 'huh?! so old already still honey moon'. then i gave him this diao face and say 'when i fifty i still wanna go honey moon with my husband even if we married like years ago.' then i added 'my children will have to pay for it though.' funny

grace let me try the indian store the chicken. wa. . . going crazy over the indian food although it was spicy. then me and andrew went for a rendezvous at the round table to study due to fans in nj not doing what they are suppose to which is . . . fanning. we had to use tissues to wipe the tables. orange ugly table tops which were horridly dirty. haha.

did maths for a while then jeffrey came. waited for sara to walk out with me then saw uncle trick! gah! he made me walk all the way from canteen extension to amphitheatre! he owes me like over a hundred walking steps!

took 74 to amk hub. irony. the day which i can finally take all the way to amk. T.T went to buy movie tickets. gah. so hard to decide then finally bought two tickets for water horse at 7.15pm. COUPLE SEATS! haha. but then ex ex ex X(

now currently waiting for that person to be free so we can meet up and eat dinner and watch water horse!!!

JEALOUS
–adjective
1. feeling resentment against someone because of that person's rivalry, success, or advantages (often fol. by of): He was jealous of his rich brother.
2. feeling resentment because of another's success, advantage, etc. (often fol. by of): He was jealous of his brother's wealth.
3. characterized by or proceeding from suspicious fears or envious resentment: a jealous rage; jealous intrigues.
4. Inclined to or troubled by suspicions or fears of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims: a jealous husband.
5. solicitous or vigilant in maintaining or guarding something: The American people are jealous of their freedom.
6. Bible. intolerant of unfaithfulness or rivalry: The Lord is a jealous God.

as you can see, there are about six or more meaning of jealous so if people say that i am jealous, i will just ask them, which one? gah. although i know perfectly it is number 4 but. . . NO. i don't feel anything at all. i don't like vinegar overly much and i so do not drink it like WATER.

although the three girl thing was classic and made me want to throw a shoe. . .

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gah,. my sis told me something scary.
she say got terrorist escape from prison. scary.

sorry uncle trick! gah. i feel so bad cause of what i wrote in yesterday's post then he has been apologizing about not reply my smses and stuff. >.<

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gah. school is a horrible drag. really is a drag.

felt like an idiot in the morning. really. utterly stupid dumb and all other words involve. dumb dumb dumb. GAH. a perfect start to a horrible day.

the econs relief teacher is ok i guess. got background info about him from hao yun. super funny. then had chem lecture. frustrating. the entire thing was just frustrating. shall not comment. damn it. but at least i could pay attention to the lecture.

gp was just yawn. presented the article and then present for five minutes and stood there for the entire last half an hour of lesson cos mrs nair was just talking about stuff and she ALWAYS forget about the person presenting and leave that poor soul standing there. lucky i get to lean again the table so not so bad.

had free period so did physics assignment. NEVER EAT FROM WESTERN STALL. like the aunties there are so unflexible and it is horridly expensive and not say very nice. i spent 4.50 there today. gah.

then something happen. totally left me stunned there for a moment. i hope it is resolved now. it made me late for physics class for about ten minutes. it made me run out of physics class halfway just to answer a phone call. and i was super dumb.

i told mdm khoo that i had to go toilet and i ran the OPPOSITE direction of the toilet. like ta block 2nd floor. then i went down the stairs to answer phone. then after tat i really went to toilet on the first floor near book shop. walked up and went shit, there was the toilet at the other end. apparently according to boon jin, i SPRINTED out of my seat and i don't usually sprint. and shalom and he knew i was going the wrong way. gah.

went for pe which was quite slack then went canteen with ailin. studied with daph. i love her to bits and pieces. she patiently taught me complex numbers and i was bugging her for every single question and i know she wanted to kill me like every time but. . thanks!

then it started to rain. GAH. and i kind of got caught in it and sneezing now. and due to horrible sit ups tat i did during pe and TODAY, i got bad stomach muscle aches that whenever i laugh or cough or sneeze, it just hurts badly X(

should start doing hw soon. my sis is watching 'are you smarter than a 5th grader?' on channel 5. americans are dumb really. just dumb. there was this guy that didn't know the closest whole number to the sq root of 50. it is 7 for those ppl that are equally smart as that guy.

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WARNING: SEVERE EMONESS

cca sucked today. sectionals was ok but after that, waste of time. was just slacking with hao yun and huangyin. gah.

today was just. . . chem spa. nothing much. maths was just ok. . .then gp was nothing. gah.

today is just a super sian day. super sian day. just dragged on from yesterday's emoness. really. god. what is the point of living then?

i hate backstabbers. most of all, i hate people who do things just for their own benefit. and i really despise those that are easily influenced by others. come on, trust your own judgement for once! believe in yourself instead of what others tell you. utterly disgusted.

i don't need people to tell me things. i don't need people to feed me information cause i will believe what my eyes tell me. i judge for myself and not what lies and crap people tell me. bullshit is for bulls. and unfortunately, i don't like cows very much.

all going to be young adults and yet things are handled in the most immaturish ways i can ever think of. is it very fun? if it is, go play wif ppl that i think are befitting of your ages. if you all really think that this is going to solve problems, well be my guest. i have been through this before in sec school and it will not help.

i have probably seen and been in more conflicts than anyone can ever imagine. god. dumb. it is wasting everyone's time and energy. and people who normally think that they are in the right are normally plain wrong. this always happen.

and i am seriously disappointed in you. if what she predicted was correct. i was so wrong about you. it is naturally for people to save themselves first but i didn't expect you to be one of them. i just hope that the prediction is wrong or the disappointment i have will be very great.

i hate lies. i especially hate lies that try to hide reality from me.

sometimes, people ought to stop making excuses for themselves. sometimes the excuse comes out very stupid and we all know that it is just a coverup. it gets annoying after a while. seriously, don't wanna care anymore

things that can make me absolutely annoyed
1. liars
2. indecisive people
3. people who think that they are always right
4. people who don't reply smses

the last point just makes me feel stupid for even msging ppl in the first place. if you are going to waste my sms by not replying, just say so. i will not msg you at all. save me alot of sms.

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GAH. today is so annoying. super tiring.

just don't get involve. seriously. but i was very tired over the entire fked up thing. cca was just emo everything was just emo. it just sucked to be there. so different from last week when we were actually happily playing.

i just feel like scolding them. really. it is bringing personal problems to cca. does it help? no, so why are there wars? it is wasting everyone's time. please, it is my last year already and it is most of the j2s last year already, i don't know where they get the energy from.

maybe they should all just blow up and then perhaps they will feel better. i don't know. i just want it to end

super sick of it. feel like just breaking down.

it doesn't involve me, but it affects me. studies suck too. i just get so frustrated. i don't have time to complete tutorials and i just hate copying answers. it just make me feel so inadequate. a psle of 261. damn it. i don't want to think that it was a fluke. i don't believe in fluke. i just believe in ability.

everyone is all obsessed with doing their own things. mugging. everyone is just obsessed with themselves. everyone is just concerned about their own welfare that they just don't stop to take a look around.

that smile is getting harder to keep on my face. there is nothing left to keep me smiling.

i just want to pour out everything i feel to someone. someone that is willing to listen, someone that i don't even need to say 'i am unhappy' someone that can see through my smiles and know that i am crying inside.

just a simple phrase of 'are you okay?' i think can just make me cry.

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my sis says she pities him
to be honest, i pity him too.

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all i can say is:
thank god 132 came before 74.

just in case you really think i wasn't going to do it.
no matter what, i die also not initiating conversation
and it bugs the hell out of me

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funny things make me horridly happy. gah. i like fluff bunnies. ok, extreme randomness. huge urge to watch happy tree friends. technically, the word 'HAPPY' inside happy tree friends should make people happy rite?

my sis went to highlight her hair. sort of bugged her over it. dumb. total wastage of money not to mention the damage it does to the hair. perhaps it was due to brendan that i don't want to colour my hair cause he also believes of not colouring his hair. i mean he is 21 and to be 21 and have your hair kind of untouched, it is rare.

i love jiin once again. she wants to share with me her bottle of happiness. it is figuratively speech. since if there was ever such a bottle literally i will buy it in bulk. bottle of happiness. WOW.

my mum says that i am stubborn. more stubborn than my sis which i beg to differ. it is just that i don't believe in anything else. because i don't really believe in the good of human nature doesn't make me a pessimist. just because i don't believe that men is more superior than women doesn't make me a feminist.

i guess i have seen my share of backstabbing. and pls, don't ever mention the name of jingzhi and emily to me. i saw them during class outing at cine on friday. they have got to be the best backstabbing people i have ever seen. thanks to them, i know what to do now.

i love vegetarian bee hoon! new love of mine. just totally random.

sorry but it doesn't work one way.

i wish i could help more of my frens around. i mean i got jiin and flo around for me to bitch and stuff so i don't really quite understand those that need people to listen to them. all i can do i guess is just lend them a listening ear. it is not that i suddenly turn into a good samaritan or wad, but i know what it is like to want to scream out ur problems and yet no one will listen to you. by then the feeling of loneliness is just overwhelming.

i have a sudden craving for starbucks and the thing is that i don't even drink coffee.

evidence that i am bored. when boon jin left me to makan, this is what i typed in the convo.

{[PeGasUs] (!@# lame SHiT !$%) uewJou says:
brb go makan
[sue anne] white white chubby chubby blur blur says:
pig
[sue anne] white white chubby chubby blur blur says:
boon jin is a pig
[sue anne] white white chubby chubby blur blur says:
boon jin is a makan pig
[sue anne] white white chubby chubby blur blur says:
boon jin is a skinny makan pig
[sue anne] white white chubby chubby blur blur says:
boon jin is a skinny makan harmoc pig
[sue anne] white white chubby chubby blur blur says:
boon jin is a skinny makan harmoc blowing pig
[sue anne] white white chubby chubby blur blur says:
boon jin is a skinny makan harmoc blowing sucking pig
[sue anne] white white chubby chubby blur blur says:
bon jin is a skinny makan harmoc blowing sucking sarcastic pig
[sue anne] white white chubby chubby blur blur says:
boon jin is a skinny makan harmoc blowing sucking sarcastic unrunnable pig

sigh, boredom can make me go damn weird.


i should be doing hw and yet i am playing around with photoshop. gah.

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just woke up like a few minutes ago. super sleepy.

gah, have like five econs essay outline to do, chem tutorials which i have been sadly neglecting, maths complex numbers and physics tutorials. have to find a gp article which i have to present to the gp class next week. going shit shit shit already.

was chatting with alot of people last night. had the usual like boon jin and yl. then patrick. and then audrey and jun. sigh, cca conflict is really a bitch. the only solution i have is not to get involve. cause it may make things messier. and never ever take sides no matter if your good fren is inside onot. cause it will be absolutely bias if you don't even have the entire picture. i can only advise really. i have absolutely no intention to get involve. involvement means bitching about others and just now getting along. no use really. it is just wasting time.

now i am worried about something. although co camp's in charge or whatever they are going to do doesn't concern me. it may crash head on with harmoc camp and chinese dance camp. then there is this issue about places in nj etc. gah. i have a feeling i am going to receive more phone calls than usual.

there are alot of things to be done. birthdays esp. have usarin, then yun then jun's. . . headache. massive headache. time time time. i need time.

white white chubby chubby blur blur. this is audrey's description. damn funny. GOSH. and no, that description is not about me. thank god. but it is super cute.

i come to the conclusion that guys can take hints. just that they tend to be those kind of heck care attitude about them. gah. so just be direct and don't beat about the bush cause it is going to waste time and since he is going to know anyway, just go straight to the point.

i am going to play a game of risk. and pride is the bet. if lose, it really doesn't matter. . .

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i am going to read up more on people's eyes. like what kind of eyes give you what kind of fate. the hands one i don't really know. sc say i have tao hua yun from my eyes. i really doubt that it is true.

funny. people don't believe me when i say i don't want a rich guy.

and from yesterday, i don't know if guys cannot take hints or they can and they just choose to ignore it. this is indeed annoying.

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gah. life sucks. seriously.

went for cip and it wasn't so bad. just had alot of new kids. i think teddy found his match in one of them. then celebrated shen chen's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEN CHEN! 19 years old liao. wa. . .

suppose to go subway one but then yun they all didn't wanna go so tried to call jun which he was apparently at yew tee. lucky when reach amk, darr called me. so went to eat subway. haha.

the entire day was just heart pain for me. and i don't know why. just keep thinking about stuff just made me unhappy. just stoning . then coming back to an empty house just sucks. gah. shld really call my sis to bug her..

i suppose even until now, if choices have to be made, you will still choose another. and i just wished it didn't bother me so much. it really shld be time to let go.

In the game of seduction, There is only one rule: Never fall in love
What you can't have, you can't resist

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woke up like only twenty minutes ago. super tired. later have to go toa payoh for cip again.
chatting with uncle trick and brendan online. XDDD

staying at home is BORING if there is no one at home. i am gonna bug my sis to buy me things since she went to bugis. and i die also not eating anything for now. haven eaten breakfast yet and not planning to. too full still. gah.

there is a trend. and it is not as if i purposely planned it to be that way. really. it is so qiao that it is scary.

realised something. you need me in your life more than you know. but the thing is that, i don't really need you.

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road run! road run!

was playing bridge before road run which was super dumb. was like running and kind of like taking short cuts during the way. so technically didn't run the full 3.4km. yun accidentally fell during the road run. super painful like that

the j2 guys race was nice to watch cause had more people that i know unlike the j1s race or the ips race. xiaoting won the j2 girls race!!! so happy and proud of her. was super rushed for time so while they were gathering ppl and announcing the race and things, yun and i went to toilet to bathe. the water is super cold but nice. look like a crazy woman when i came out cos my hair was like in disarray.

went to meet the rest of the class at saki sushi i tink. was just eating and eating. like eat for three hours? really crazy. then boon jin, yun, usarin and i went to watch movie JUNO. quite nice and funny. haha. i got all the references and hints in the movie. the rest were just blur. i went to the guys' toilet. cause we went to cine's six level and then like onli one toilet for guy and girl so just go into guy one. super funny. boon jin was just laughing away. . .T.T

then we sat down to play bridge. the second last game was totally nervewrecking. totally heartattack. but usarin and i won!!! was jumping up and down and hugging each other like mad ppl.

went home and was forced to eat dinner. cooked by my sis. it was nice but after i finish the spaghetti, i was on the verge of throwing up. seriously full. had to eat pills to aid digestion. so uncomfortable.

tml have cip thing. super tired now. gah. FULL. not going to eat carbo for like two weeks. dying already. .


co camp is like from 10 - 12 march. monday to wednesday. please let it be fun and stuff cause i hate camps due the fact that i CANNOT SLP!

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today's school was just tiring. super tired. CONGRATS TO PATRICK AND LICHEN! lichen's case was really drama one. really heart stop and heart attack that kind. but lucky can stay!!!

don't wanna blog about school although was happy during econs and physics. weird i know. pe was slack and stuff.

went island creamery after school for a while with audrey and uncle trick! it was kind of like a getting to know you better kind of session but more towards the what type of guy or girl you attached to. super funny one. we shared like a 500ml tub of nutella ice cream which was delicious but then. . . when we were half way through we were kind of like dying. and when we finally saw the bottom, we were sick of it. audrey was saying online just now that she could still taste it. gah.

then joson, minghan and the rest came to join us and we were bridging. minghan and patrick can never touch cards. don't allow them to touch cards cause they anyhow bid one. walked to bus stop with uncle trick! uncle! stop emoing can?

went home and everyone was there. haha. super funny. my two cousins both from xinmin, my other two cousins both from canberra pri and me and my sis were from st nicks. all same school same school one.

did some photoshop on photos. going to do somemore tml when i have time. super time consuming.

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have not been blogging for like the past two days due to late in coming home and the fact that i was DEAD tired by then. shall just recap what went on.

MONDAY
dragged my feet to school. literally. had to take bus to school which is something that i hated since i was fetched to school for like the past two weeks. econs got scolding. . . due to test results. er. . . gp was just like tat. . . then. . . er. . .studied in lib for a while then went for cca!

had practice in the hall. had to wait for the rest of cello bass to prac canon then went to curry wok and eat. i brought my camera!!! took photos and stuff. seriously cannot rmb what happened that day.

TUESDAY
maths tutorial was copy down answer. maths lecture was just super funny cause they took like half an hour to even get the thing set up so like i was sitting with eunice and just chatting. haha. guess what was our topic?

then had pe which was slack and chem and econs. T.T fail econs which was expected but not tat bad. physics was sleeping time. haha. then went for cca. SUPER FUNNY. gosh. something super funny happen which had to do with pants, audrey exclaiming loudly and toilet. shall not mention anything

did the cip and took pics!!! happy. haha.

TODAY!
er. today was emoing. like joson and i look at each other and sighed. juniors all not around. super sad la. i was slping during my free period. like share classroom with jim and then off the lights on fans and just sleep. super tired. chem prac was just ok. . .

sigh. miss my juniors alot today







PATRICK! LI CHEN! SHENGHUI! HAI YAN! WEILING! I MISS YOU GUYS!

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all i can say is, spend time with your own friends and

SEE IF I CARE!

i am tired of your lousy excuses and i am tired of being a fking fool

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CHINGAY CHINGAY!

it is finally over. if anyone ever suggest to me to do any of this sort again, i will sock him or her. really. yesterday was just exhausting. lucky i have cuilin with me to talk. and this super nice auntie which gave me oranges, biscuits and sweets to eat. and i don't even know that auntie. haha.

quite frustrating trying to get people not to stand on the barricades, not to stand on the boxes which are hollow. you just feel like saying 'FINE you wanna stand. go ahead. if anything happens, i will just laugh'

yesterday, my part of my cc25 group met up for lunch. me, cuilin, yun, weishi, kenneth and matthew met at city hall station then went new york new york for lunch. sad to say, we made the guys wait. i was the earliest of the girls though.

ate mushroom swiss burger, yes it sounds like burger king. haha. then the guys played pool for a while. eric came along later and he and matthew were good in pool. zai zai. then we went to the tent and sat down. on fri also the same. like sit and wait for two over hours.

we had this grass war. like plucking out grass and throwing at each other while we were seated down on the grass. super childish and lame but fun. kenneth kept pulling too hard then the entire clump of grass plus soil plus roots will come out. we totally skipped lunch, ok, cuilin, me and weishi totally skipped lunch cos we were too full.

we secretly walked back to raffles city to buy drinks. then we went for our duty. it is very very obvious when matthew chose me and kenneth to stand at the gate with him. sorry, not interested. and pls NEVER msg me to ask if i am attached, cos it is even more obvious. and even more obvious if you keep telling me that you are straight and that you like girls.

haha. gate duty with kenneth is fun. the people behind us were super nice unlike the people that yun and matthew got which were like scolding them? haha. we were chatting abit during the chingay.

after chingay was quite high cause we were walking down all the way to the end of the road. haha. we were just blowing whistles into each other's ears and then got water war. eeks. yun poured a bottle of water down matthew's head. then kenneth got it. then i innocent, got poured half a bottle of water. was super drenched. but it was fun.

then went back to the tent and got dismissed. parted ways and stupid mrt was like closed. so took a cab. super tired by then.

i don't understand guys, how can you like someone without even knowing that person? i mean, like nv talk and stuff. gah. and if even when i sms him to say will never meet again cause chances are low, he was like you will never know. may meet on street. i feel abit stalked. and i have alot of things going on and i don't think i can commit. or maybe i just cannot transfer feelings from someone to another. i still like you even now X(

i dunno what happen between matthew and kenneth. like i was standing between them during the gate duty and i kept asking each of them if they want to exchange places with me so that both of them can stand with each other without me being the lightbulb, then both of them refused. then dunno what matthew say about me and kenneth that got kenneth expression looking very weird. thank god not seeing them again. i mean they are nice but abit weird. and weishi is . . . don't want to comment already.

i feel sad. my dad just left for the airport not long ago for shanghai and i have no idea when is he coming back next. felt that i didn't spend enough time with him. and had chingay for the past two days so even more lack of time spent. and i have like been reaching home like 1 plus am for two nights and my parents were waiting for me to come home. i just feel so bad. tomorrow is going to suck for me.

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always there for her.
She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"

The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying. "Just take care of my eyes dear."

This is how human brain changes when the status changed.

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chingay was. . . let me think. how do you even phrase it?

standing on the road for like five over hours. seeing boring floats and trying to get DEAF ppl to get off from standing on boxes which are HOLLOW. it sucks. shall blog more on sunday since tml i will be having the same bloody thing again.

i must stop giving ppl my hp number. seriously. SHIT. the mj guy got my number. DAMN IT. if he does things like write my number on the bus, i will kill him.

and thanks to boon jin who left me stranded in like the middle of city hall when i send him an sos. i have no idea what he is suppose to do though. thank god cuilin's dad fetched me home. or i will be sleeping on the streets tonight.

my cc group was so bored before chingay that they were asking weird qns like 'would you marry a rich but ugly guy or poor but handsome' smart answer would be marry the rich guy and ask him go for plastic surgery. too bad, i will never marry a rich guy. don't like that life.

jun is going to break his promise. and i worry like mad. GAH. chatting with him online now. and yes, he knows that i am a completely bias person. i will either like you or dao you. it is easy to chat with him cause just have to type 'what do you think' if he asks me a qn. it is self explanatory cause he knows what i will think.

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HAPPY. gosh. just happy. haha.

went home to change and stuff. went out to eat dinner. LOBSTER. i love lobster. with cheese. LOBSTER! haha. lucky my sis is totally opp of me and she prefer crabs. LOBSTER. happy. ok. small things can make me extremely happy.

received 80 dollars ang bao today. total amount is 1006 dollars. fifteen days of chinese new year. i love the cny. happy cause u were with me

p.s jiin! don't care about that bastard.

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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

went to school with stuff! haha. my sis made me give stuff to boon jin, yl and jim. but anyway, she also bought me jelly beans so i am not complaining. school is just NORMAL. sadly so. now currently in bytez.

got presents! haha. so sweet and nice. special thanks to flo and rach for the sunflowers. seriously surprising. like boon jin was passing me flowers and i was about to pass down.

gp test is horrible. horrible. but i am happy. gah. i want to ask. seriously want to ask damn badly.

to flo!
seriously loads of thanks for the flowers. haha. you are currently my prince charming ok? gosh, don't know how much i must thank you for being in my life. for all the online chats and smses to make me happy. you have done seriously alot for me. i know i am super demanding and really love you for being with me all this while. this year marks the EIGHTH YEAR of our friendship. and every year has been loads of fun.

to rach!
love you loads for the flower. haven seen you in a year though. must catch up ok? eight years of friendship and the first friend i made in pri 5. friends forever! don't stress out ok? i will be there for you!

really feel super happy to have stuff friends with me and beside me always. whether onot am i being unreasonable or when i am down, they are always with me to share my problems.

whether today will end happily. must see when school ends. . . GAH

p.s i love you ♥
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it sucks that hc's vday is so much nicer
it sucks when you go home and no one is there
it sucks even more that i am that disturbed by what you said.

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why am i still bloggin even though i have a econs test tml? cause i just want to court death. haha.

some idiot read my blog at 1am. T.T shall not mention who. . .cause he is a pig. and an sms daoer. and i am so going to get killed.

this morning woke up super super sleepy. my eyes could hardly open. gah. have such a thing called tuesday blues? reached school like 7.05am? my dad! he went to fetch me earlier. gah.

was reading econs in the canteen. had assembly then went to class for gc. was looking through the year book. SHIT. my hair was really ugly. >.< ugly hair. at least now grow long already. shall NEVER cut my hair short again.

EEKS. had blue screen just now. wa. . . lucky can restore what i typed or i will just be utterly sian diao.

maths lesson was just complex numbers. maths lecture was also complex numbers. then had pe. . . running road run route which was SUPER STUPID. like run in a circle? the one that run outside one was super stupid. HAHA. saw uncle trick running pe again. super funny one.

was slacking in the canteen. andrew bought me a rose! ok, i bugged him to buy one for me. but in the end, i got one! he say i am his on thurs. i think i better pon school on that day.

went to chem tutorial abit later with sze. again, i was just copying answers for chem. i really dont' know why i have no motivation to do chem. sigh. then econs was just super weird. cause ms heng is sick and then she like no patience to listen to us give answers so end up she wrote everything on the board and we just copy and copy. super weird. the class was so quiet somemore.

lunch brought food down to grandstand to eat cause lack of tables. and then played bridge. went for physics and the test was . . . ok? just don't know if my methods were correct onot. went to general office with boon jin to get my card back. they say got nothing wrong. dumb. met jun and timothy there. haha. went to canteen to get a drink then went to find huangyin.

walked around abit then bought ANOTHER drink and sat with yun hao and huangyin. slowly walk back to ta28. the juniors really very enthu. like always there before the seniors one. haha. heard uncle trick play his audition song. super nice. like that song alot. then heard the rest of juniors play their piece also.

then joson, uncle trick, hai yan, sheng hui and audrey play canon. NICE. my favourite song. whee. ended at 7.30 so walked out with hao yun and huangyin. met boon jin and nicholas at the bus stop. it was really a coincidence. you know how hard it is to meet HARMOC ppl at the bus stop?

took 74 with both of them. the experience is something that i wouldn't want to repeat. lets just say. . . one was mute. i won't say which one. but the mute one is always accusing me of losing my balance on the bus. and the mute one is also dumb cause he asked me to sit next to him after nicholas left and guess what. . . i got down at the next stop T.T

dad came to fetch from the bus stop. reached home and saw my dad's aunt and uncle there. was really super super tired by then, but was forced to eat dinner. wanted so skip dinner cos i was really very tired but then ate abit. . .

but at least got ang bao. haha. now my total is $926. . . my sis got like 38 dollars more cause she got from her colleagues? DUMB. this is damn unfair.

oh yeah, jim is super funny la. he asked me today what is with my msn nick which is 'i'm just in love with your infuriating sideway smile' then he ask who. then i jokingly went to say him. haha. then i kept asking him to show me his sideway smile. super funny. and of course, it isn't him XPP

i am falling asleep already and i haven dried my hair not read through econs. die. tomorrow have free period so really need to chiong.

happy. i just love my mum. she went to buy the jay chou 2007 world tour dvd. she say she wanna watch cause she didn't go to the concert with my sis and i. super funny.i really miss going home with you

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i was reading stuff online then i rmbed about the strait times thing. went to dig through life section and then the strait times and FOUND IT. gosh. bryan is spending $50 on flowers $20 on handmade present and $50 on dinner? i didn't even know he and julianna were dating. but, what an awful waste of money.

i mean producers all know that it is vday and NATURALLY, prices will rise like mad. really, 50 dollars for flowers? vday is just any ordinary day. actually, i have nothing much about the flowers, dinner or the present. . . the thing is that use ang bao money to pay for them. quite insincere isn't it? my mum was like telling me never ask a guy to treat you unless he has his own source of income that doesn't start with D(daddy) or M(mummy). quite true. cause if the guy buys the girl something and the money is taken from his parents, technically, it is his parents that is buying the gift for the girl.

and gosh, i am like chatting with my sis online and the thing that was very turn off about the article is that it is published before vday. i mean, WHERE IS THE SURPRISE FACTOR? if my bf ever did this to me, i would seriously ask him to plan it all over again. i mean it is sweet that it was published and that the entire world knows but i am the type of person that like to be surprised.

i don't care if the surprise sucks and it can be something like he accompanying me to my doorstep and THE END. i really don't care. i mean celebrating vday can be just like going to bk to eat lunch and walk around. it is not the presents or anything, it is just spending time together right?

evidence that i am surrounded by unfeeling guys
1. clayton - shown in the previous blog post
2. yl - due to his own lala land, when asked what he going to do for class on vday, answer was 'who cares'
3. boon jin- due to his apathetic self, he is just going to buy chocolates. -.-

and the last one is classic.
when he said he was busy on wednesday and then i ask him if he will be free on vday, his reply was 'vday on wed ah?' then when corrected that vday was thurs and ask what he is doing, his reply was 'celebrate for what? not as if people will love each other only on that day.'
and yes, this person sad to say, is my dad. >.<

my sis gave me a scare. i was chatting with her online during her working hours, then she suddenly say that she taking leave from work on vday. and then i ask her for wad, and she said for my boyfriend. and i was like. . .O.O. like ready to kill or extinguish that stupid guy. then she went to say, 'who came back from shanghai'. GAH. stupid zoe. she just enjoys stunning me. the last time she did that was. . . STEP ON SNAILS.

i have no mood to study. this is bad.

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A girl in love asked her boyfriend.

Girl: Tell me. Who do you love most in this world?

Boy: You, of course!

Girl: In your heart, what am I to you?

The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said, "You are my rib. It was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life, you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."

After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.

However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems, their life became mundane.

All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.

One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"

The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"

Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.

Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." She continued, "It is less painful this way. Let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners."

Five years went by...

He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and back. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him.

In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.

One day, they finally met. At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them. She smiled at him gently.

Boy: How are you?

Girl: I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?

Boy: No.

Girl: I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.

Boy: I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You know my number. Nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned around and waved good bye.

Good bye...

One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York, in the event that shocked the world.

Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarette. And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew. She was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken.

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now currently at home XD

reached school like 7.25? cause i took like ten minutes to walk from side gate to canteen. i was really dragging my feet to school. really dragging. like drag drag drag. i purposely somemore left the house five minutes later. but was caught in the jam also then my dad was like, 'must go by another way' -.- he doesn't know that i don't want to reach school so early.

chem lecture was half copying and half doing gp hw. haha. the weekend was taken up by physics. happy! then econs lesson, ms heng didn't come i think. so was just listening mp3 with boon jin and if ever ever says that superposition is easy. . . SMACK!

gp wasn't so bad. at least i have jim! haha. realise that both our pencil boxes contain the same items. the stapler was the same (and it is a very very old type), have the same ruler. jim lied to me! he say that the valentine's day flower is he draw one, turns out that is was lusandra who drew it. don't friend jim liao, still say he won't ever lie to me.

he saboed me into reading the passage in front of the class. haha. then i saboed him into reading the next paragraph. then went to canteen. ate indian food again! i ask for curry and the auntie loves me i think. she gave me like ALOT OF CURRY? do i look as though i can eat spicy? i don't really eat spicy unless forced to and it was really very spicy. and once again, boon jin was saying that i deserve it.T.T

was just talking with joson, boon jin, yun and usarin in the canteen. super lame conversation. usarin's future name may be, usarin s****** l** n**** udomchidecha (is this spelling correct?) super long. and she is going to name her future son. . . DANIEL. jeremy will be the name of my son, if i ever have one, and if my husband is not happy, he can bite me.

then went to hall for contact. super lame. building performing theatre and throwing us out of lt 5 to the hall. was talking with clayton and clement. clayton is super unromantic. vday is his gf plan one. not him. haha. then got this enquiry session which got one guy went up to complain about the two pillars in the dance studio, and then mrs cheng was like saying that it is structural pillar and if remove, the entire ceiling will collapse. haha. nicholas was like saying that the pillars will be useful for indian dance. LAME

went to general office to do my card. apparently have error and they took my card back. need to rmb to go there tml to collect it back. saw ms foo! haha. she is really really very nice. helped me alot when i came to nj.

had a sms convo with jiin throughout the day since i was really very free. apparently an idiot pissed her off. and i have to assume that the idiot is very infuriating since, jiin seldom gets pissed off. shall meet her one day next week to catch up with stuff. for now, jiin! ignore that idiot!

after general office, went to canteen and pei daph buy drink. haha. i was telling her 'it was never a question i love you onot, it is to what extent' then she went ERR. and i am straight fyi.

my dad fetched me at the bus stop. thought was going home, turns out have to go centre point. i had to help my sis change her mango jeans cause the jewels on her jeans came out. so went to exchange. you see! i am very nice to my sis ok? had to run up and go back to the car. gahh. . .

super tired now. need to study for physics and econs. i found a studying partner in daph! studying with her next thurs and fri. . . haha. cause she mon have cca then my cca is on tues and wed XDDD tml have cca! if have time then play bridge ba. . . need to go mug mug mug.

it depends on whether i will give you the present. may not be on vday though. . . GAH

nobody has got to belong to somebody else

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EEEEEEE. i went downstairs to get a drink for my sis, then was walking then i saw something running across the floor. IT IS A COCKROACH. super big.

i was screaming like mad. . cause it was running super near my piano! if my maid doesn't catch it, i am not going downstairs. it is big cockroach. i hate cockroaches next to lizards! yuck yuck.

now trying to do physics assignment. tml during free period shall read up on econs. . . need to read cause really, i need to study for tests as well as spend time with my dad cause he is going off to shanghai on sunday and the next time he will be back is around april

chingay is taking up my time. . . my dad say if i want him to stay in spore, i must pay him 13-15 thousand cause that is his salary. er. then he might as well stay in shanghai cause i don't have money to pay him. haha.

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i am so bored now. . . bored. . . X(
i really cannot be bored. listening to the song patrick sent me OVER AND OVER AGAIN. it is kind of like emo song. . . haha.

chatting with jiin and JOANN CHUA! that stupid horrible girl who ran back to msia and left me dying in spore. horrible. then come back also left so fast. she now doing uni application T.T apparently, msia's college is only one year. . . so then go uni. gosh, she will be like a year ahead?

and yes, i miss that stupid silly girl.

[sue anne] i am just in love with your infuriating sideway smile says:
quickly come back la
[sue anne] i am just in love with your infuriating sideway smile says:
i lonely
Joann : fools cant be kings says:
go find a boyfriend la!
[sue anne] i am just in love with your infuriating sideway smile says:
u go help me find one la!
Joann : fools cant be kings says:
how i so far
Joann : fools cant be kings says:
and you dont like malaysian guys
[sue anne] i am just in love with your infuriating sideway smile says:
haha
[sue anne] i am just in love with your infuriating sideway smile says:
i can always be PARTIAL RITE?
Joann : fools cant be kings says:
you want australian?
[sue anne] i am just in love with your infuriating sideway smile says:
i want!

is it any wonder why i love her? wait, she only going australia like three years later? she taking mash med. . . so three years in msia and two years in australia. . . i wanna go overseas study also >.<

but i need to study very very very very very very hard. . . and i am still online. . . DOTS

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created a new live journal blog. . . that is just for my randomness only. will still be blogging here. haha.

http://lyphitia.livejournal.com/

just for my boredom. . . tralala

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85 words

Touch Typing online

my fingers are so tired >.<

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obvious boredom. blogged like fourth time already? finished studying part one already. just need to learn how to apply. gah.

confessions on vday are sweet. seriously sweet.

and msn is being distracting as usual. >.< should just remove it from my com and concentrate on studies rite? 4 As. . . 4As. . . it is like the aim of every student that it is so COMMON. how about an aim like, enjoy your jc life while you have it? how many people can actually go through jc and say that they actually enjoy it? hmm?

give me a blue rose would you?

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still stuck at superposition notes one. trying to differentiate longituninal and transverse waves when travelling. . . sigh. stuck stuck. still have part two to read and read chap 5 and 6 of econs notes to prepare for the essay test on wednesday. YUCKS.

i really rather play piano. . .compared to studying. tomorrow must see if jun willing to teach me after school or else i run home to chiong study already. my blog post are getting more and more boring at this rate. you see what studies do to me? they make me a boring person.

on the issue of liking. . . how do you really know whether you like someone? haha. there is no definite answer to that and to like someone need not have a reason. it is just the way you feel with the person. THERE, you have my answer.

and i love annoying my sis. haha. i know that she is still sore at me for being unreasonable yesterday so today, i am just bugging her like mad. she is already kind of talking to me. . . so much for the daoing technique. she will just talk to me and go 'i am not talking to you' so CUTE RITE? and she will go 'i don't like you. go away' and repeat that sentence a hundred times although i know she loves me to bits and pieces.

upon the upcoming vday. er. not sure if am doing anything onot. last time in st nicks was really a headache cause have to wrap things up plus sew stuff. gah. i know boon jin and yl not doing anything. cause they are HEARTLESS GUYS. and yl is in lala land due to COUGH. and probably will dao the rest of the world on that day. tsk tsk.

haha. i want someone that i will go gaga over also. but not to THAT EXTENT. should i fold stuff? depends on what time my cca end on wednesday. horrible feeling that i won't be able to give anything. can always opt for buying food and give. HAHA.

What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie

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evidence that i am not awake. someone came to chat with me and i thought it was my sis. . . turns out to be my cousin T.T asking if i was going to my grandma's house today. gah. aside from the fact that i daoed him the entire cny. . . if he makes another stupid comment, i am going to kick him hard.

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GAHHH. moody. woke up at ten plus. . . super funny yest, my mum's friend drank so much that she got drunk and she kind of like slept on downstairs sofa T.T hopefully she didn't puke on the carpet.

just now when downstairs to play piano. wa. . . the sonatina is super long can? only manage to master two pages, have like four pages more? must jia you.

study study. uncle trick yest at 12 midnight was already doing hw?! this senior must jia you also. wa. . . j1s are scary >.<

mug mug mug. study study study. tat is what happens if you are in this horrible spore education system. you become a BOOK!

And that's what you get for falling again
you can never get him outta your head
And that's what you get for falling again
you can never get him outta your head

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was so bored online just now. cause my mum's frens came over for dinner so was stuck upstairs.

was so bored that had to send sos msg to boon jin and yl to ask them come online. went downstairs cause they had the lo hei thing. sorry but i can't spell it. haha. all of it went onto my hand. . . ee, my mum's friend gave me salmon. . . didn't eat it though. haha.

went upstairs and went to another room to do hw and use computer. then boon jin came online and YL CAME ONLINE SAME TIME. i tink both of them purposely go online at the same time.

isn't it funny when u are so bored and then u are suddenly bombarded with chats? was chatting with nicholas as well and anthony. then was chatting with audrey!

gosh, my chats with audrey is ultra lame until gosh, joson cannot see that convo. seriously. super funny. got in laws, got stalking. . . very funny. both of us super worried for the juniors in our section. hopefully their audition and appeals will be successful. super happy with the way our section is now.

now chatting with uncle TRICK! super funny the convo. whee! i got the website for the free movie thing. he super horrible one. go bully me. where got junior bully senior one? haha. . . mugging half way now. or more like trying to do hw. . . haven study superposition yet. >.<

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gee ming han, if you ever come across my blog, go F**k yourself.
biggest pedophile. stop harassing my sis you asshole.

and my sis is pissed off at me cause i was telling her to get off the phone.
thing to do if she is scream all vulgarities at you
say 'thank you. now can i have the phone?'

one thing that is ironic about my blogskin is that
i don't like balloons.

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slept for like three hours. super tired. and woke up very groggy and moody. MOODY.

the transition of my feelings from october to november is just amazing. was reading my archives. gosh, can't believe it. really cannot believe it.

oh yeah, forgot to blog about this just now. when coming home, we couldn't turn into our lane cause the neighbour's car was blocking the road. and then something super funny happen. the driver of that car happens to be brendan and like there was this year outside of his house gate. then he suddenly looked very paiseh and went to move the car. and even as my dad was reversing, could see that brendan was looking super paiseh.

my parents was like saying, no wonder he paiseh la. yesterday ask him if he got gf, he say don't have. and now got girl waiting for him. my sis and i were laughing like mad. mainly cause, i know he is single cause he wouldn't lie to me about this sort of thing.

went to msg him and he was like saying that he was super paiseh cause he blocked up the entire road. haha. and i knew it, that girl wasn't his gf. haha. i knew brendan since pri 1 ok? although didn't exchange numbers till i was pri 5. just this super nice guy living next door. shall bug him for a car ride next time.

my mum is super nice. she knows that my sis and i are hiding upstairs so she bought up fried rice that my opp neighbour cooked and my sis and i are totally in love with his fried rice everytime. my sis and i were like taking a spoonful each and passing to each other. and the last person who finishes has to bring the bowl down. it was me X(

ivy brought up carrot cake. . . wa. . . lazy liao. haha.

one more week and my dad is going back to shanghai. what i will miss most is the when i grin at him, and he grins back. X(((

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my sis is horridly mean. she don't give me the website for watching free movies and i am like dying to watch p.s i love you. i know i should be muggin and stuff but. . . i feel like sleeping.

reading my archives. from july to sept 2007. i want to return to the past. where everything was just natural between us and jokes can be made without awkwardness.

i feel like watching gone with the wind. i know it is a terribly old show but it is very nice. clark gable is very very charming in the show. shall i sleep or watch tv? tonight, my mum's friends are coming over to the house so i am going to stay upstairs. shall study then. shall try not to get distracted by msn.

i am contented. and the thing is that, i don't even have my friends around me and yet i am contented. it says alot about school doesn't it? and BOON JIN! s19 is not an antarctic region, it is the sahara desert.

stupid guy. go say my new blogskin is fugly. it is pretty ok?! even nicholas say it is nice. coming from someone who wore pe shirt and gray pants on cny celebration, i really cannot trust his taste XP

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watching ayumi's video. nice XD

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woke up at like ten plus today. went to get ready cause meeting jean san to watch kungfu dunk at amk hub at 11.20. haha. dad fetched us to amk hub. bought popcorn and hot dog before going to cinema. was super hungry.


the movie super nice. i like basketball. haha. something that many people don't know ba. but i like to watch people play. the other two guys playing basketball is very handsome. much better than jay i think but yet jean san and my ssi say jay got more charisma. they are bias i think.

walked around abit amk hub then dad came to fetch again. went home for lunch. haha. sis got nagged at by my dad cause she promised to eat the food that he bought and yet, she was too full. super tired now. need to study for physics and econs. . . mug mug mug.

i want to watch the below movies!



but yet out of the three movies above, two are like m18? and my friends are horridly underage. people that 18 already are like, jiin, flo and daph? i want to watch p.s i love you! i wanna watch. it is taken from a book by cecilia ahern. i want to read the book! i think jiin has read it.

it is open on vday! who wanna watch with me? haha. but i only free like 18 feb onwards? i think i go drag my juniors go watch with me ba. tralala. it should be a romance movie. nice. looking forward to it

'I know what I want, because I have it in my hands right now. You.'
from P.S I LOVE YOU

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i have gotten super weird responses from my previous blog post. like from boon jin is 'CHILL', nicholas is 'CHEER UP', yl is 'i feel the same way' haha. no la. not emo. just reflecting and that is what i really feel. the honeymoon is over.

today woke up around 9 plus. msged uncle trick happy birthday then went to use internet. haha. cny period is really, no one online. but this year cny is really quite dead.

took like super long to get dress and stuff. eye shadow was even green to match my dress. haha. so weird. went to my dad's ex boss's house. . . boring. just sat there for like an hour listening to whatever they say. and answer qns like 'which jc you are from?' same qn everytime.

went home for a while then went to my neighbour's house. gosh. i wanted to smack brendan. haha. he was like 'where you get your tube from? very nice' wa. . . make me so paiseh and malu cause he asked it in front of his mum and my parents? but his bro is really good looking. like jaw dropping good looking. brendan this year is 21. R21 liao ba. his bro i think is three or four years older. made small convo. wa. . . nice cny goodies. was like bombarded with new year goodies at brendan's house. stupid brendan. . . slick talker la. go message what 'both of you look good today.' it is the about what he msg last year also!

then went to my dad's aunt's house for dinner. BLOSSOM! that dog is so cute. my cousin stelle-anne also was there. i realise something. not only all my female cousins have all -annes. they also all go to st nicks. like. . . so far, all three years went st nick ten years. now stelle-anne is in pri one. . . haha.

made small talk. really quite rubbish one. i don't want to engage in conversations which people will ask 'which uni you going?' and one that i hate the most is 'have bf onot?' i am only EIGHTEEN. i am still YOUNG. i mean, enjoy your youth. having a bf is really not impt to me.

went upstairs to watch tv. . . shanghai knights! super funny. but i was quite bored once again. dunno what is wrong.

have econs, physics and gp test next week. have to do well in them esp in physics. i mean i skip her lesson, i must do well. you can't afford to skip lessons if you cannot do well in them. that is what i think. tml morn going to watch kung fu dunk with my sis and aunt and uncle. then at night i have no idea what else is there. visiting shld be quite limited already. . .

one of the few 123 pictures that we took today:











plus pics tat taken in minghan's house yest:




cny is only good for collecting cash. really. ahh. . . need to study. but no mood. gg. in like next week sunday, my dad is leaving for shanghai again. GAH.

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living in my own crazy world

are the friends you make in jc impt? i am really beginning to qn that.

class is like so mixed combi that it really is a touch and go sort of thing. does it really matter who you sit with in class, sit with during lecture, sit with during lunch, hang out with after school?

maybe i am that anti-social that i really don't want to be involved anymore. all the gossip, all the laughter, all the teasing, all the lameness. . .it is fun i admit. but it is also pointless.

the fact that i am not going to contribute in conversations anymore says alot. i don't want to just sit there and listen. lunch is just eating. . .no wonder i see so many ppl in nj being uninvolved with their class and more involved with cca.

i really rather commit more time to cca now. my section is really more fun than class. it really is. there is less hypocrisy and more genuiness. cause, there is nothing to compete in cca. it is really sad that going to step down soon already.

studying is just studying. and studying is a lonely thing. i never once believed that studying with someone else is effective. never once. the main aim of going to school is just to do well for a levels. whatever that comes along is just a complement. it is not to fall in love, not to make enemies.

just study. i don't want to make any choices about friends. i don't want to have to choose. the thing is not to favour and just be neutral. your life will just be so much easier. but i never liked following others. i am not a follower, neither am i a leader. . .just neutral

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gah. don't have a picture of my junior so. . . SPONGEBOB'S PATRICK! haha. happy birthday to my dear junior! the first junior i met, spoke to etc. a super blur blur junior whose cello playing skills far exceeds mine. wouldn't have known that he was the president of cat high co just by meeting him. one of my walking out of side/main gate partner after cca. now newly bridge partner. UNCLE TRICK! don't worry too much about appeal results ok? i will still continue bugging you to play canon one!

have no idea what i am going to do today. later need to go relative's house. haha. can wear the super pretty dress that i bought. going to just do things and not think about anything else. seriously.

it was a really wasted effort on my part wasn't it? seriously right now, i really don't feel anything anymore.

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living in my own crazy world

why don't you just break my heart again?
you know you want to.
i am not that dumb to believe
your excuses everytime

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whee. i got the pics from danhong! tat day wore sec sch u in nj. . .




from left: shanly, audrey, me, danhong, xiao xi



gah. blame minghan for the lousy phototaking skills. he zipai super nice then he take for us anyhow take. murder him.






gosh, my cousin looks like a bear. haha. super huggable. . . whee. nine years old this year. haha. above pic is my proud work of two hours. . . silly i know. like after four days, it is going to be removed. . . nice to look at though

uber sian now. uber sian now. i know the reason why i am sian. and it just annoys me

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happy chinese new year!

thanks to those that wished me at like 12 midnight. yl, nq, jun, audrey, patrick, brendan etc. . . haha.

woke up at like 9 this morn then went to prepare. was super tired la. was like just playing with eye shadow and stuff. super bo liao.

went to auntie noni and uncle vincent's house first. breakfast was mee siam. thank god i trained to eat spicy liao. or i can just cry rite there. hot hot hot. then other cames then went my grandma's house.

it is just shaking hands and say happy new year. the same old boring way, the same old boring thing. gah, just take ang bao and zao. haha. played black jack! at first won like ten over dollars. . .

went to my aunt's house for visiting. just extra go there and get extra ang bao. haha. then went back my grandma's house and continued playing. i lost like twenty to thirty dollars overall X( heart pain. haha

came home and went neighbour's house to sit for a while. wa, they play black jack is play sixty dollars at one go lor. if i lose, i heart more pain. haha.

gah. . . why no one online one?! cny everyone go out ah? sian diao

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(despite everything)

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was suppose to slp in the afternoon. . . but had to wash hair, dry hair. . . one hour gone. and then set on the task of painting my nails and it took. . . two stupid hours. seriously. cos i keep moving and smashing my nails . . . gah. plus it takes horridly long to dry.

gah, when i was painting my nails half way, my neighbour came. and then my dad was like calling me to come down. . . took quite long to go down. haha. uncle tony! just greeted and then went upstairs to continue. . . gah, got called down again cause brendan came over. . . STUN DIAO. then went to sit down and talk abit. . .

his house suddenly appear one dog. . .medium size one. apparently, he in army his commander give him one. . .super long that the area i staying don't have dog. . like two years already. so when talking, i was just looking at brendan and was thinking about things. what on earth was so good about him that i liked him for seven years? i mean he is nice and stuff but. . . GAH.

steam boat! every year is the same one. haha. steamboat. i seriously onli eat steamboat once a year and it only occurs on cny eve. . .


was super full.i was like telling my mum, don't need to eat other stuff, just eat beef and abalone. haha. so funny, my dad was like asking my maid 'sir going back soon, you happy?' then ivy was like YEAH. OOPS. it was quite a OOPS moment. i think she heard it as, sir is back, you happy? but then again, i can't be too sure =X

went for a walk around the estate. super long nv walk around already. haha. was talking to my sis about stuff while my dad and mum walked tgt. gah. got dogs >.<

was telling my sis about my juniors. haha. super funny one. super tired now. reading through my smses again and deleting some. i only keep those that are impt. . . must stop letting people see my hp liao. even uncle patrick looked thru my phone! dunno what is so interesting. my inbox is super normal lor.

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came to school to early. passed the ring to yl. he owes me lunch. haha. saw patrick in the canteen then super funny la. he was like signaling whether to go up co room then i was like wait for a while. so both of us just continued talking to our friends then shit. 7.25. we were suppose to go there at 7.15. then i signal him then we walked up. HAHA. both of us were waiting for the other to go up la. super dumb can?

someone dropped my cello. super heart pain can. cause i placed it again the chair, then walk off to get something. then someone accidentally kicked the cello and then super loud. lucky patrick help me tune it back or else gone case. haha. brought cards, didn't really look at cny performance, just played wif my juniors, patrick, li chen and sheng hui bridge. haha. like ppl watching performance then we sit beside pa room playing bridge. then we moved to the co room behind to play.

GAH. li chen is the blur one, patrick is the risk taker and sheng hui is the calm one. patrick is can bid up to FIVE DIAMONDS. and shit, he called me as partner. nearly killed him. haha. he keep playing no trump la. then he call king spade as partner and i partner sheng hui. then king spade until five cards left still haven come out and he started panicking. funny can. then he call for four hearts and his partner is two of hearts. T.T super fun.

then went to perform. nothing much. haha. then went to gallery to look at performance and hold balloons. haha. was trying to play static wif the balloons and then make ppl's hair stand.

met boon jin and yl at canteen. haha. dad was fetchin me out so needed to wait for a while. STUPID BOON JIN! say he can leave at 10.30 then ended up leaving earlier and before tat, spent his time chatting wif other ppl. T.T total PS. bleh. yl also run off to dunno where. kill both of them.

dad, sis and i went to centre point to shop. ate noodles! super hungry can? then went robinson to shop. eee. i don't like shopping there. nothing to buy one. then cos i needed to buy one more attire for cny so my sis pei me shop around there.

walked into like espirit, britich india etc. then went mango. finally bought something. dress. super chio. haha. then pei my sis to shop also. crossed the road to buy my sis starbucks. ee. i don't like coffee. don't like. although her drink is chocolate mix coffee, still can taste the coffee

what you said today just made my day>.<
i don't need a knight in shining armour. just a guy in pe shirt.
p.s i love you

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world