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When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

it is realli hard to give up something u like. i tried it today. i realli miss s10 alot. i changed my sub combi from H1 econs to H1 phy. will most probably b in e same class as yun. ting mayb able to go back to s10. i have mixed feelins about it. i just want everything to b back e way it was.

s24 is not tat it is bad. it is just tat it is not s10. today e CT nv come. so had a small bondin session wif s24. it was ok. but i missed s10 so much tat i went back. although left onli a few ppl, but i still feel more at home there. i dunno wad to do to get it back. fate always messes wif my life. i am tired of emoin. but it seems like tat is wad i always do.

i know after a while, i will like my new class. but then, becos i have been in s10, i know tat i won't b as close to my new class. this is a fact. even after two years together, i will still prefer e old s10. i wonder if i made e wrong choice in comin back? would i b happier in aj? i doubt so but at least i won't feel so painful. it is like u can still see s10 ppl and we went for lunch together today. but i wonder how long tat will last? next week? i am scared. i may b e first one to break away. cos i am scare of losin them. i rather b e one to walk away first.

p.s i love you ♥
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had to get out of e house by 11 pllus today. my parents was sendin my maid back and they didn't want my sis and i to b around. my dad dropped us off to j8. . . was like wonderin what to do there and we decided to catch a movie, music and lyrics. went to din tai fung for lunch. spent like $40.40. e numbers are very ominous. sometimes i wonder why i even bother spendin money. i don't even like them. sigh.

dropped by e library. . . i was so happy when i saw e huge shelf of lavryle spencer books. she seriously rocks in writin romances. after tat was walkin around aimlessly. truly. j8 is gettin seriously borin. went to e arcade to look around. sat down to read fb. then my sis went to a machine to get mentos. funni, she actually notices whether onot e ppl completed e game onot. she manage to get three sweets. so smart.

music with lyrics is seriously nice. e beginnin was catchy.ppl who love music will enjoy this show. hugh grant is hearts. he can sing and he is very charmin. ppl should age more like him. haha. saw MR BEAN!!! took some photos although not very clear. can't expect much from a 1.3 mp cam. . . but i still love my nokia 5300.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

today mugged wif yun in sch. we are super muggers XD provided u count last minute work as muggin. saw sexy weizong in sch. then bought beebee and pocky as snacks. yun and zong are both beebee addicts. i am more of a pocky fan. haha. but somehow manage to finish both. saw e canoists and ran to look for my darlin laopo who became very tan, almost as dark as bobo. then saw aiman who say tat he was in s13. yun and i were both stun. . . O_O. e list was out in e atrium. we went to see and already e first person i saw was in s10. heart didn't beat until finish e entire list. 07s10 split up in six different classes. i didn't know it was goin to b tat bad. and e worst thing is that it is permanent. there is no more TEMPORAILY. sigh.

after seein e classes, yun and i decided tat we were in no mood for muggin anymore. so we tooka bus down to queensway. it was practically e blind leading the blind. anyone who knows me well should know tat i have absolutely no sense of direction. yun is not much beta. we were like lookin out for queensway shoppin centre cos accordin to ting, we are suppose to alight after seein it. e bus went pass an mrt track. . . and started goin a long dist. we panicked. even worse was when e bus went pass a plot of vacant land. then we thot to ourselves, die. . . lost liao. then we saw e shoppin centre and i had to run to press e bell. . . O_O;;. very unglam.

went to ikea and ate burger king. . yum! then walked around ikea. we even got lost in ikea's 2nd floor. so noob. but we were fantasizin about our future home. haha. after tat, went to queensway shoppin centre to look for yun's shoes. i now know every design of nike shoe and e entire floorplan of e place. we spent 2 n 1/2 hrs findin her shoe or more specifically, she findin her shoe. haha. but it was fun. in e beginnin, we went into this shop then e shop person was sayin tat he was goin to give us student discount so we say tat we will go back later. . . in the end, we had to walk all over e place just to find tat shop again. so lu chi. tat guy was quite friendly la. . . but he manage to fake yun and i.

guy: wa, both of you from nj ah.
yun: yeah.
guy: you got run e road run? i was also from nj also.
*both yun and i got reali excited.
me: realli ah? which year did you graduate?
guy: 1999 - 2001. i went to e road run also. you see, i graduate from nj also end up sellin shoes.
me: then you 25 ah?
guy: aiya, age cannot tell la.
yun: sue, this shoes will get caught by sharon phua onot?
me: i don't think so
guy: aiya, last time we wear any type of shoes also don't care one. i last time also got caught.
yun: by ms phua ah?
guy: i dunno. one lady caught me.
me: yun, this shoes looks like ur husband's shoes.
guy: wa, so young already got husband ah. like tat i got no hope already.
me: you too old for her la. she likes younger guys.
some random shopper to yun: you so young have husband? by the time you forty you grandmother already.
me to the guy: you seriously 25 already?
the shop keeper: no la. he bluff you one. he around e same age as you all.
*yun and i look at each other in shock
me: how old are you?
guy: it is a trade secret. sale people normally 95% of the time lie one.
the shop keeper: he is 18 this year, in ngee ann poly.
me: you sure onot? later you also bluff me.

so in the end, yun and i ended up comin out of tat shop very blur. but she bought her shoes XD. haha. the people in tat shop are extremely friendly la. can just anyhow chat wif you one. haha. so people who needs shoes, pls go to that shop and look for peter pan (tat is wad tat guy say). but he gives alot of discount. haha. so amusing. then we went out of the place and i saw a 961. i told yun, quickly, e bus comin alr. then i look and was swearin, why e bus nv stop at the bus stop!!! then yun gave me diaoz look. it was a taxi stand. today is not my day.

anyway, even though we are not in the same class again, we were once part of 07s10 and in a way, it is fated tat we were together for e first three months. haha. anyway, we will still see each other in sch so it is not goodbye foreva. i practically copied what i typed on my class blog onto here la.

i dunno why am i bein so optimistic. i am also hurtin. but i find that there are others tat are hurtin more than me. flo is kicked out her class and her original class is almost intact. now she is upset also. so i must find ways to console her. it is hard when i can't even console myself. it is right to just let go and let it be? in tat case, i will nv b close to anyone again. i am tired of break ups. there seem no point in havin new friends if in the end, will split again. there is just no use. sick of it. but tryin to b optimistic for once. rach says that mayb it is for e best and i will look back and luff. i will always rmb her words. thanks for it.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

ok. . . i know it has been like donkey years since i last blogged. . . goin to b about one year alr. . . but i will try my best. . . haha. i haven even updated anything bout my jc life so far. . . so here it goes. . .

I WAS ELATED, when my appeal to nj was accepted. i was realli gettin desperate. it is not as if aj was all that bad. i made some new frens there durin my short 5 hrs stay there. e ppl there are friendly but e sch is seriously run down. i was walkin in wif yun and wonderin if e sch will collapse if there was an earthquake. so i just thank god that i am back!!!

however, still have to drop my H2 econs to a H1. things always goes in threes. . . i didn't do well for Os, posted to aj for jae. . . . worst of all, having to leave 07s10. now it is too late for regrets. there are too many what ifs and too little time to go thru all of them. so i guess will have to take life as it comes. but i am still goin to try to ask for econs H2 when sch reopens. i know it is bloody unreasonable of me to demand so much when i am in fact, indebted to them for acceptin me but it is worth a try. i don't want to waste my first three months learnin something new in order to restart all over again. LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR REPEATS.

had cca camp today. met someone new in our section. haha. fresh blood. but he is nice. my partner for jacobs ladder and i was so malu. i thot he was a J2 when he was so obviously wearin e odyssey shirt. i am dumb. after tat, tried to practise e syf piece. i think i onli manage to play like fifteen bars and about 90% is offtune. i seriously rock at this XD i didn't realise how easy e piano was until now. . . when i met e cello. but e sound it makes is nice. haha. now considerin to take up guitar lessons which is goin to overload me. . . piano, cello and guitar. i am not a music genius. i am reali tone deaf. haha. and tat reminds me, i haven finish practisin my piece for canon. grr. . . it is always e same stupid bars tat make me stuck. oh well, can practise tml.

i just realised tat i didn't do any tutorials at all. shit. saturday and sunday i was too worried about my physical health tat i couldn't b bothered. monday i went out wif yun in nj u XD haha. then went out for dinner wif my sis. yesterday, was slackin around e house, findin places to sleep and today had cca camp e entire day. i am left wif tml, fri, sat and sun. sat i am doin cip wif yun and ting and sunday goin to airport to pick up jun. so i am left wif tml and fri. fri goin to study wif yun and shop. my march holidays is passin by too damn fast for me to catch up.

i am now tryin to rmb what i have not done. . . phy - kinematics, dynamics. chemistry - electronic structure, bonding. maths - ap and gp, summation. . . and these are e tutorials i haven done. i haven included those tat i copied, and completely don't understand at all. oh gosh, i am dead. i hope it is not too late. i am tired of regrets.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world