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When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

happy. totally happy. fun fun.

ok. woke up groggy since first time i had to wake up at like 8 plus. took mrt down to bishan to wait for the lib to open. flo that dumbo was late. so i had to go grab a seat. our usual spot. hee. then she came and started studying.

i was doing complex from tys. standard. some had to ask her. then did graphing. finished both. haha. lunch had yoshinoya. WHEE. flo is the only person that will eat yoshinoya with me. i love my bf.

so anyway, half way we got bored, msged kx. he and his CATS. tsk tsk. but entertaining for a while. then went back to mugging.

i seriously hate nj for their gp. like hc notes are MUCH BETTER. MORE CONCISE. MORE EXAMPLES. ok, it is practically spoon feeding but who cares. i mean their percentage of As are much higher than nj's. EVEN KX CAN DO WELL FOR PRELIMS. it says alot.

so sat there mugging. mugging. my butt was practically GLUED to the chair. after that, walked to the photocopy shop to photocopy the gp notes, nj chem prelim and hc chem prelim. whee. and i promised flo if my gp gets A or B, i treat her to swensen. pigs can fly.

haha. then flo went home while i dapaoed dinner then my mum came to fetch me.

had to eat dinner alone cos my sis WENT OUT. then my mum also went out. hais. drank lotus soup which my maid cooked. and ate cheese cake from secret recipe which my mum bought. to be honest, i didn't like the base of the cake which was made out of walnuts. yuck.

flo send me this link about gp. click
it should be good.

there is less than 3 days to a levels. heat is building up. but i am enjoying myself. i have no idea why. haha. things i am going to do after a levels:
1. get my hair done ASAP. (it is sadly neglected)
2. do my nails
3. KINOKUNIYA
4. catch up with besties, backrowers
5. shop for clothes and shoes
6. shop for prom
7. kbox outing with co
8. co chalet
9. watch TWILIGHT
10. go on holiday
11. plan taiwan/hongkong trip with JS
12. think of more things to do

booked mr tan jun wei on 11th dec 2008 to go out and play since it is the day before he enlists into ns because that idiot failed napfa. not only will he not be there to hear me bitch, he is also not around during my birthday. lousy.

so anyway, i am feeling relieved. not because of exams but rather certain things cleared up and things are moving on. whee.

plus, sue-anne is no longer available. HAPPY.

this song is stuck in my head.

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

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was thinking about somethings after a levels. like how my life would change. i mean 7 months break is a long time. probably be working. travelling. hanging out with my friends. like thank god, most ppl are enlisting in like april for ns. YES.

then it is the uni. if can get into nus, it will be great and for SMU, wouldn't be too bad either. meeting new people. new friends. new social circles. i have no idea if it is something to be excited to or dread. naturally, i am rather mutual to it. doesn't matter.

haha. naturally, i won't forget all my close frens and buddies. XDDD. love you guys loads. seriously, i want to shop like crazy.

nah, i just want to get out of njc and have fun.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

since 6pm. i have been watching tv. talked to my sis and her bf for like two over hours.

ok. it started since i woke up. my voice isn't there yet. throat still abit sore. feeling lethargic and yet i forced myself to sit thru a six hour maths paper and i tink maths is going to screw me over cos i haven been practising.

so ya. . . was doing until watch tv. then my sis bought dinner back which was subway and her bf ate here also. and i was abit unhappy cos i wanted alone time with my sis. but anyway, i ate upstairs then went downstairs to talk to them. overall, i am happy for my sis although he looks like a pushover. super pushover. like my sis is. hais

so now i am back maths. tml is maths plus physics. friday is gp day. my timetable has to be pushed back due to me talking. but it was enjoyable. and seriously, i am going to do something drastic to my hair. all i can say is that, after a levels, it is not going to be black anymore. hee

So I sit here finding a way
Surrounded but still lonely
Your absence here doesn't help, it doesn't help
Cause every time I look to you
A mild depression comes screaming through
I don't know myself, we don't know ourselves

p.s i love you ♥
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i am sick. literally.
my throat feels raw, my noise is like running. i am sneezing non stop. i just feel so tired and lethargic. crap. and i still need to study econs.

sigh. . . shall take nap first.
my sis is back. my sis says hi

p.s i love you ♥
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i need retail therapy oh so badly.

i want clothes
i want shoes
i want bags
i want a hair cut
i want books

i just want something that can make me happy for a long long time. shopping for prom will be so fun. but i need need cash. so work is first. HA

and i just can't wait to plan the post exam hk slash taiwan trip with jiin. and if possible thailand with usarin. i want to travel. hee.


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once that line is crossed, it is really impossible to remain normal. for everything to go back the way they were.

it is not due to the lack of trying. it is due to the increase in the amount of knowledge known. as much as i want things to be back to normal, it just can't. not when things around have changed.

and when i try for it to be normal, they will say that i am heartless, indecisive, like the attention. sorry, but i don't crave the attention. but i want the friendship. which is why i don't want to ruin anything.

however, if it leads to people saying stuff which are totally fked up, i may not even want to frenship in the end.

it is not as easy as one may think. if they are so goddamn clever, come and take over my situation. because you are not, that is why it is so easy to say things.

p.s i love you ♥
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was talking to my sister the pig who just woke up like half an hour ago. she got her etjj then don't want me already. i go murder the guy.

she said it was funny that it happened. totally hilarious. YES I FIND IT SO. hais

p.s i love you ♥
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my econs lecture notes are flipped open to micro and i am just stoning.

was watching tv this morning. totally lethargic and no mood to read econs notes and do essays but it can't be helped. stayed up until 2.30am to do chem tys and finally finished the damn thing. maths has been put aside and shall touch it abit later.

hais. totally slack. 7 days plus left.

and i am going to rip kx's mouth out if he ever dares to msg me that type of msg again. CRAZY. ha.

i don't want to get tied down. i don't want to commit. i don't want to have anything to do with relationships until after A levels then i have time to think. so far, no one is within my consideration yet. so stop with the asking etc. the answer is never. once i made up my mind, i won't change it

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

today was a fantastic day to a certain extent.

pued with my sis. to celebrate our making up, went to ding tai fung. SUPPOSE TO BE SHE TREAT. guess wad. there don't accept nets and i had to sign card. ZZZ. walked around and around and around. then she had to go sch. sigh.

was doing chem then stoned. watch desperate housewives. yummy.

then mum came back with pasta for me. WHEEE. haha.

'hurry up' by frankie J is addictive.

everyone is like GONE ON MY BIRTHDAY. flo is coming back onli on that day. yun is overseas. daph maybe in msia. now i just praying that no more guys enlist before my birthday. yongjian enlists like on 9 jan?! like the day before?

hais. don't want to be lonely on my birthday. i don't mind being lonely on valentine's day but NOT ON MY BIRTHDAY. 19 years old. crap. i don't want to be old. i want to remain 18 on 10 jan.

hais. go back to cheming. later maths timed paper

sad. i wanna leave spore.

p.s i love you ♥
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i can officially say that i hate reaction kinetics. it is such a bleh subject. i took like five minutes trying to perfect that curve. rawr. like just sketching. it sounds like some kind of art subject instead of a chem subject.

tomorrow is maths day. i seriously can't wait. i dread sunday which is an econs day. econs is my most hated subject. surprisingly i rather do physics cause it is related to maths. chem is fun in a way without the RK topic.

listening to my updated ipod is just so nice. ha.

back to mugging.

today has sadly been an unproductive day.

guys are just despo. some random guy added me online through facebook. he said i was gorgeous like five times. which i take it to be an insult since he has never seen me before other than in pics. ask if i have bf. ask if got ppl woo me and then ask if he stand a chance.

HELLO! i don't know you. i never seen you before. i don't know if you are a rapist, molester, ex convict, paedophile, sex maniac, animal abuser etc. and secondly, if you are 23 which u said, i am TOO YOUNG FOR YOU. five years.

that guy was like asking where i stay. and i was like JURONG. he say he stayed in amk. if that is true, i will be careful when i go out. i shld have said tuas.

one major evidence that guys are just desperate. i haven even commented on the number of ppl that chat with me on viwawa. that is just classic. based on WHAT MY WAWA LOOKS LIKE. win.

p.s i love you ♥
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just woke up. shall continue my quest for chemistry. aim, finish whatever i never finish of tys.

had to go back school yesterday. adventurous me decided to take 165 opp my house bus stop. end up, i left house at like 7.40 and i reached school at 9 something. the leaving house early was so that i don't walk up main gate, end up. . .

saw vinnie at the bus stop i alighted then we boarded 852. haha. swathi and huzaifah was on the bus as well. end up, me and huzaifah walking up main gate as the other two was RUSHING for late lessons. haha.

went to the lib to do work. sat with daph and kl. then william came and join us. was doing gp essay outline for my consultation later. then had consultation. haha. happy. after that, continued doing chem. went eat lunch. then joined deng for chem consultation. went back lib to do work then went to oasis to find yiwen. aidan, giang, sara, swathi were all there. haha. like some kind of secret mugging group.

after that, kx crashed so went oasis to mug. kena threatened like siao. rawr. my poor periodic table is disfigured. but each time i look at it i wanna laugh. SIGH. my entire white paper is all filled with chinese names.

left school around six so i was craving for nasi lemak so we went adam food centre to eat. haha. he queued. i hate queueing. then bought oyster omelette also.

after that i went home. then my sis fren at the house so i was quite restricted in movement.m did abit of chem before crashed to sleep. slept early cause i was dead tired.

now need to mug mug mug. happy. 10 days left. sigh

p.s i love you ♥
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WHOOHOO! i got free cafe cartel ice cream! FREE! I WON THE BET. haha

i just have to rub this into someone's face. no, i didn't cheat. hee.

I LOVE YOU KX! thanks to him, i can get free cafe cartel ice cream! WHEEEEE.

p.s i love you ♥
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today was a time well spent? i have no idea how to measure it but it was kind of enjoyable in a way.

went to school. reached at 8 something. usarin came. waited for mdm khoo until 8.30. she sat down for a while then disappeared until 9.30. =O then she came back and sit and teach me physics until 11.30. i tink she wanted to murder me. haha. she said she felt like beating me. abusive. but i gained alot from it. she said i can get a B if i work hard. encouraging to some extent.

then it was lunch so sit and talk then went with usarin to tc class for chem. chem was. . . ok? after that, it was raining like crazy. went to meet kx at opp hc bus stop then went bukit timah plaza for pizza hut. hee. the bus stop was, i was stunned. i think one in too many coincidences is just freaky.

it was raining like cats and dogs, my shoes were soaked. ate pasta. the pasta there is nicer than amk although both are pizza hut. we shared criss cross fries. sat there and chat until the rain subsided abit. MURDER KX. hais. say i old. rawr.

so walked around the area then went ntuc to buy chocolate. kinder bueno. yummy. then took bus to hc to find flo. that lousy kx went back to boarding school.

i miss called flo like 10 times? she made me wait half an hour for her. but found this nice place in hc to study. got bench, it is airy and it is quiet. then flo finally came and i was doing chem while we talked. lol. came up with alot of useful theories about love and about life.

then while going toilet, i saw one hc guy which i always see in the morn when i take bus at amk central. quickly siam before he thot i was stalking him. stayed there until close to six then took 157 with her.

alighted at m reservoir then saw AUDREY CHONG. haha. she is a super happy girl. seriously, at this point of time hanging out with happy people really works.

super tired now, shall carrying on with chem and then do gp. hais.

love is sweet poison
and evil in disguise
the more you want it
the more it will consume you

p.s i love you ♥
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just talked to my bestie flo the phone. i think we just have alot in common.

just a generalisation
capricorn girls will generally meet bastards in their lives. that will turn their lives upside down that they cannot focus on anything else. the funniest thing is that they are willing to go through it. i have no idea why but it is the main thing.

i will admit, i have lousy control over my emotions. damn lousy control. but sometimes, things just have a limit. just have a bloody limit before i just want to hurl something against the wall. a mirror, a lamp, anything.

was suppose to study, intently, undisturbed then thoughts just crept in. i want to get out of njc. that is all i want. just move on with life, just have 7 months without worries or anything. i want to do what i want to do.

a dream that will be hard to fulfill.

i guess people will always fall in love with the wrong person. one which you are willing to devote your attention your time on. however, that is always a one way road.



Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

p.s i love you ♥
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super tired now. i slept at like 1am yest. had econs today. then econs consultation which was XS. physics consultation i think mdm khoo wanted to just throw herself off the building.

after that was studying with uu. she super funny. walked from one end of the lib to another then walk to raintree then finally decided on tb23 classroom which we stayed there until 6 to do physics. got chased out by the uncle so went canteen which we stayed there until 8.

i was literally dying. but learned alot of stuff about super position and quantum today. like enlightenment. whee.

doing physics now still. quite ok. mcq is easier cos dun realli have to use brain.

i would like to thank the following ppl for encouragement until now. . . the main ppl so far
uu, deng, yiwen, jun, my mum, my dad, etc

mr teck's words of encouragement also made me very happy. 'try your best'. at least i won't have regrets.

last two weeks, just like my mum say, give it your all. 2 weeks. just do whatever you can. i feel so warm and happy now.

p.s i love you ♥
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i feel like burning a page of the year book. crap. totally crap. #$^$@#@#%%#$#@#@#%#@$@

doing physics now and horrid mood isn't helping me along at all. it is not. hais. i hate physics now. don't understand dun understand.

first and foremost, i don't understand myself

p.s i love you ♥
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ha. finally sara uploaded the last day of final lesson in nj. woo. i think still have somemore but i yet to upload. so nice.








i hearts my maths class. seriously. got all the computing ppl and it is absolutely fun. haha. ok. i should go back to cheming. gosh.

should get rid of everything that is bothering me in my mind. like NOW. keep thinking about things which have no relevance to studies. i can just go and shoot myself.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

i realli should do some other subject other than chemistry. been doing organic chem all day. hais. should start doing physics! =X

i am getting annoyed cause i cannot find the speakers for my mp3. like where on earth are they?! rawr

shall go back to work although i am super sleepy now.

p.s i love you ♥
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last day of school. super mixed feelings about it. i guess. results were. . . hais. shall not harp on it. it was just announcements and announcements and announcements. lol. nothing much i guess. was doing chem during the 'farewell assembly'

when it was over, went to linkway for buffet. it sucks. the fun part was the phototaking with everyone.






i realised that my cam had this super fun function that can take six pics at one shot. so i was playing with it like mad. ha. the below are the super spontaneous ppl that took with me. ha. it was fun. i still have alot more photos though. like total 265 photos take today.






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don't want to think about it. don't even want to talk about it. all i can say is, i don't feel angry. angry is not the word to use.

p.s i love you ♥
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because this is just too cute to resist. it also happens to be one of my fave songs

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

headache. woke up too early. studied too much in the morn until it was brain overload. chem is fun. i sincerely like the subject. but need to prac.

wondering if i should go school tomorrow.

hais. alot of things are going on. i don't wish to bother.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

thinking and wishing hurts

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the piano song is stuck in my head. the bella's lullaby. the one that i think they will use in the movie. i am not very sure. all i have been doing is listening to that song non-stop and when i am not listening to it, i am playing it on the piano.

doing chem now. tomorrow have chem lesson. gosh. i feel totally distracted. left 20 days. 19 perhaps. there should be an urge, a rush, anything can just make me feel motivated. there is nothing. just studying to study. it is the worst possible reason why anyone can study for.

morning had gp lesson. i wished i had pon. jamie and yongjian were so smart to pon and go oasis. after that, went to find usarin and then consulted mdm khoo. i really hate quantum physics. ha. mdm khoo say i prefer calculation questions. how true. end up going thru the prelim paper with her and i think she wanted to kill me. i calculated, i lost about 8 marks due to pressing calculator wrongly/writing the VALUE wrongly. she could have killed me.

after that, walked out main gate with uu. 74 came and WE RAN FOR THE BUS. she laughed at the way i ran. ha. but it was a fun run. went thomson with her to eat subway. i miss subway. sat there and talked. i find times to hang out now very precious. cause although you can hang out after a levels, you are no longer in njc in a way.

i guess with exams, friendships aren't really that important. sad isn't it? that for exams friendships are fading due to lack of time. hypocritically is that after exams, we start to find each other again. to reduce boredom? i don't know.

shall go back to doing chem. i got alot of things going on and my mind is in nonstop thinking process. it is tiring.

p.s i love you ♥
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when i thought everything was piecing back together, that i finally was in the mood to study, things started crashing down again.

i really don't know what to believe. should i believe those words that were said to be? i find that as i experience more and more of such things, i become extremely skeptical. it just seem all surreal. like it cannot happen to me.

i know i frustrate alot of people by not believing. but after what i have gone through so far, what is there to believe? feelings can change. people can change. there is no definite answer.

i have seen so many ups and downs. i guess i am just scared of commitment. i am just running away from it. right now, i am just avoiding the issue. i don't even know why. my natural reaction is just to freeze and everything will be so awkward. i try to be normal. i really try but sometimes, i get so tired that i wonder if it is worth it.

sometimes i feel that the things that i do are so goddamn heartless that i can start calling myself names. but then, i always think before i act. it is self protection or defense or whatever it can be called. i just don't want to get hurt.

weird to think about such things now when there are only 21 days left to As. but i need to get it out of my system. before i just go crazy. i don't think i am that important. i don't think time should be wasted on me at all.

many things cannot go back the way they were. sometimes, just don't even try.

i don't mean for things to go this way. i don't mean for anyone to get hurt. but in this kind of situation, no one can gain from it. not when i don't want to move from my original spot. i use to have an open mindset. after what happened, it left me closing up my heart. because liking someone can be hell. so i promised myself never to go through that again.

p.s i love you ♥
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stressed. never been so fking stress before.

maybe because i have been slacking my way through and now i really have to study for something that i don't even feel like studying for. As. i have no meaning for it although it largely determines my future. why why why is it so screwed up.

stress level is now probably 8 upon 10. broke down on monday night. cried for one hours which did nothing except to make me feel so sleepy the next day. tomorrow have econs case study test which i need to do well. friday have gp consultation then econs consultation then physics consultation then econs essay test which i feel totally unprepared for.

less than 4 weeks. going to be three weeks. then the time is just drpping away.

fk.

p.s i love you ♥
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because sue-anne is feeling all mellow and numb, she decides to think about life.

some people may ask why she did so when it is in the midst of preparation for As, she is in the middle of econs essay outlines and time is running out.

there is only one reason, because she is bored. because although she is motivated to study, her speed is increasing, she finds no point. she lived in a family whereby both parents are working, hardly anyone at home. parents earn money to provide a better life for her and her sis. maybe she is spoilt. maybe she takes things for granted. but maybe, all she wants is to be loved.

she finds no point in material things. she chooses to be poor and be loved than to be rich and be obsessed about wealth. maybe the grass is truly greener on the other side that is why people are always unsatisfied. maybe that is why she is contemplating about her future. asking herself if that is the path she wants to go to.

she is wondering if it is because she never had to suffer that is why she wants to try. the future holds many uncertainties for many people and it holds the alot for her.

the love she wants is unconditional and unbinding. it is ideal but unrealistic. is she a realistic person? she hopes so because her ideals so too far fetched from reality.

loneliness is something that most people feel at different points of her life. she hates it and yet embraces it. the contradictions in her life makes her confused. what does she really want?

p.s i love you ♥
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because so many people were asking me about the stupid blog thing, i felt damn annoyed so put it back up. then i wouldn't be disturbed at all. zzz. it is my decision, dunno why people question it.

and the main reason i put it back up is because of daph. no one else. haha.

due to my lack of sleep at 2am due to me doing maths and having a one sided conversation with jun, he talked, i listen. i was quite. . . sleepy? have no idea. my dad was also sleepy so thruout the journey to sch, we were stones.

assembly, the person doing the announcements were so funny. she just kept laughing. and like said 'oh shit' which cause the entire school population to burst out laughing. checked results after that, my class math's results were totally screwed up. aidan got an A and there put he got D. mine was a C put there D. like my grades suck alr. stop making it suckier.

so maths lecture. i chased shuwei out of the seat next to daph. so i was just disturbing daph. hearts. IS THERE ANY GUYS THAT SHARE SAME PERSONALITY AS HER? I WANT YOU! ha. just kidding. but i was super happy. then had class photos. i look so MUCH BETTER. i am not kidding. each time i see pics when i short hair, i just want to burn them. then found out that the girl doing announcements was andrew's cousin. NO WONDER.

after that was chem. happy mood stayed. i can proudly say that i finished rev wksheet 1,2,3. yay! i graduated from a slacker to a 'would-be' mugger. physics was just. . . no comments. no comments at all.

after that went canteen to find sara they all. super cute. maths was haha. fun? it is always so much fun to be in maths class cause it is relaxing and fun. and i was seated between swathi and sara which is always enjoyable.

after that, dad fetched me from school. went adam food centre to dapao nasi lemak. and gosh. the queue was long. and some bloody inconsiderate people. 3 office workers they like bought 30 over packages of nasi lemak and they totally held up the queue. grrr.

after that, fetched my sis who did her highlights in her hair. my mum says i have to do so after exams cause according to her, my hair is too 'dark'. so stayed at home and ate lunch. after that was doing some work. went to bathe, came out it was already 2pm.

and this is the biggest sin, slept from 2-5pm. gah. like gosh. i just slept and slept and slept and being so darn happy about it. like YES. can sleep. haha.

so doing econs now. great urge to do maths.

and just in case, i need a wakeup call

because you are more than just a smile
you are you

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just ate dinner with my dad. my mum not around cause she having dinner with her boss. my sis went for friend's bbq. then later my dad going out and i am left all alone at home. exams suck.

i am going to miss my dad like hell when he leaves. he is the only one that is willing to fetch me to and fro all the way to njc. only one willing to queue half an hour for food for me. only one that will go out buy lunch for me. only one that will give me a silly face when i smile at him widely. i feel sad already.

p.s i love you ♥
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life is so weird. my back hurts. mugging is boring.

i feel like killing something. there was a cockroach in my toilet. lucky my sis was the one to find it and not me or else i would have screamed bloody murder.

hais. life is quite mundane.

only fun thing is that my dad is back so we are like going out alot and walking around. today had lunch with uncle peter and his family at east ocean restaurant. not bad i guess. after that was shopping at isetan. BRAS. haha. that was what we shopped for minus my dad. but he paid. then i bought two super pretty sweaters for shanghai end of year. super pretty.

seriously, i think my winter clothing are totally out of fashion and style. my mum agrees. haha.

so i shall do work now. feel like killing myself. bleh.

p.s i love you ♥
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because the world is increasingly bias and there is nothing we can do about it.

went to kovan to eat breakfast with my dad. so i was eating kuay chap while my dad was queueing for wanton mee. so there was this old lady sharing table with us. then my dad queue super long so his food was getting cold so she was like telling me to get a plate to cover the food or else the dust fly there. so there started a convo with her.

haha. she was from china. she is 90 years old. china apparently don't have coffee shops. etc. cute. my dad was quite shocked to see me talking to someone. lol. so we were walking around heartland mall. saw this singtel shop. i like nokia 6220C the purple coloured one. super pretty.

shall go study now. 29-30 days left. so fun i guess? i have no idea what is the world to use for it.

i miss you hell loads

p.s i love you ♥
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everything is fking annoying me now. i feel like i am being pulled super taunt that i could snap at any moment.



the noises around me are irking me to no end. i just want to study in bloody peace without anyone calling, without anyone asking me to do things for them.



bloody hell. i want to be a hermit. i kept my laptop, typing on my sis's one now.



i am so so stressed up that i can just break down and freaking cry.



not that anyone will even care. since everyone is caught up in their own lives, i shall be too. in my own world of studying. studying is selfish. so lets do it

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

just a random convo with my extremely random sister

i said i like guys who don't shave (i mean face). then my sis was like, i like guys who shave. then i was like, why? don't save, got this rugged look then i used the wrong word of saying MOUNTAIN MAN. then she just stare at me. HA.

ok. some guys suit and some don't. really. some looks like goats when they don't shave. . .

btw. i have a feeling that it is breakup season. dunno why.

and i don't believe every single word that is said to me. only some

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

sleepy. shitz. everything i say now is just sleepy. rawr

reached school around 10? went to canteen then went lib to find yiwen and grace. went canteen to makan. went oasis find usarin and yun then went back canteen. econs was ok. nothing much. stayed behind to do chem until side gate open.

sc is silly. haha. play bridge by herself. ren ge fen lie. HAHA. she said so herself.

after that, took 852 to amk then dad fetch from bus stop. my sis bought mushroom rice with wanton from st nicks since she went back today. hearts. went to 252 to eat there. haha. then peiied my dad to the foot reflexology thing cause he twisted his ankle in china and was too stubborn to go fix it until i nagged today.

ha. my dad say i am worse than his wife. MY MUM IS NOT STRICT AT ALL. so the comparison is invalid. my sis is annoying. she is watching some video over and over again.

shall do maths and chem later. shall do rev ex 2 of chem. me is guai.

i loathe your ignorance the most of all. yet for what you are is what i want

You like to think that I'm just crazy
When I say that you changed
I'm convinced I know the problem
You don't love me the same

You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care

I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

time is just dripping like water.

today was study study study. reached school around 9 something. went to makan with daph then went lib to mug and mug. i heart my daphne teh ming yee. haha.

study until 12 then had consultation with ms heng with yiwen. IT IS IMPORTANT TO INTERPRETE THE QN CORRECTLY. or else pretty much screwed. haha. then went back lib for a while.

left to take bus to thomson where i met my dad and sis for lunch. whee. CHICKEN RICE. yum yum. walked around. i saw mrs brenda tan there with her daughter. my history/ss teacher. one of my fave teachers in st nicks.

walked around and around. popped by yakun for tea. pig. i feel so pig now.

was watching one show. now i am pretty much sleepy. need to finish up with chem rev wksheet 2 since i photocopied from daph already. econs tomorrow. gggggg.

pics from yest equinox outing . . .



still have some more pics but i am too lazy to edit them. sleepy now. watching friends now. didn't take my nap just now. sigh.

work to do. . .

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world

i am ready to bang my head against the wall. literally. not figuratively.

still doing econs essay. stupid hc. although i can't blame them if i choose to do that question and WTF. i just realise that the question i am doing, nicholas did it for HIS PRELIMS to which he got a 90 percentile. gosh.

yesterday at equinox was super nice. foie gras.

got plenty of pics but my head is just pounding and i am just dying to finish this essay. dying.

p.s i love you ♥
living in my own crazy world