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When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

i tink i may have caught the flu bug from my sis. now my throat a bit weird. nvm. shall tahan until tonight's concert. my dad was sayin that i beta not fall sick cos everytime i do, it is very bad and get super high fever one.

my sis cannot go to concert! so tat means i have on extra ticket. sian. called daph to ask her to help me find someone to go. hopefuly can. i like slacking again? woke up super late again but cos i slept at 1 yesterday. it is amazing how many ppl are still online la.

i wonder if kx come back alr? kind of miss his crappin on msn. dots. later he read this and become super haolian. flo leavin tml. going to miss her. sigh.

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ok. my eye bags are gettin enormous. like HUGE. omg. can't stand it. haha. being super lame.

went for maths lecture. was quite ok. happy that did differentiation alr. but some questions didn't know how to do especially graphical analysis. i am so behind la. mug start studying alr. then suppose to go for pw meetin but then, some irresponsible person left. like always like tat la. then he refuses to meet up and stuff. hello! this is group work not individual work. if it was not for group work i would have not cared whether you did your part or not but if ur actions affect others then you wake up!

then ms teo FORGOT that the draft 2 was with her. total waste of our time again. sigh. then went to eat wanton noodles that yun brought back. nice! the canteen was closed again! then EVERYONE went for their ccas so was slackin outside lib until i saw clayton.

haha. he drag me into the lib and suppose to have canoe study session but that mugger finished everything. including entropy which was given out onli on MONDAY! was laughing and stuff until his vice cap came and asked him to study. lol. then clayton started to slp. funny. i was TRYING very hard to read econ notes. hee.

had cca. was practising like siao la. but took super long. meichen and then liu xuan came to teach. i applaud them for their patience. cos i quite slow one. haha. but super nice la. esp if the tune is correct XD. was slackin around when rmb to take draft 2 so dragged jun along wif me. got this stupid lizard that came out and i screamed super loud and he laughed. horrible guy.

there is this song tango that is super nice la. co ppl were playin and it was very very very extremely nice. i have no good descriptive words. haha. my sis is sick, so dunno if she can go choir concert. or else i have one extra ticket. die.

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i finally realised how alone i will b during the hols. flo will be leaving for japan this fri. daph is leaving for msia this sunday. bleh. all gone. and kx will b going back i dunno when. gosh. . . why all my frens are non-singaporeans one!

sheez. . . just finished wrapping up econs books. finally! like waited for them to come. haha. can start reading up on econs alr. very late to start. sigh. i wanna go and slp. but after i listen to some songs first. i can't believe wad i saw on youtube. my eyes. like omg. i am totally embarrassed la. who on earth posted that video there?!

was chattin wif sharon and jo online. lol. i miss them both esp jo who is in msia. rawr. she coming back on sunday i tink. who ask her not to stay in singapore?! abandon me all alone. tsk tsk.

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it is ok to live in sin once in a while. i think today was the day.

woke up at like 11.40 cos my sis woke me up. then went to amk hub for lunch. ate at new york new york. funny how come such a place like amk has it. and it has one of the most original mushroom soup. it is called mushroom cuppacino. i was actually quite scared at first when i saw the soup. it looked realli cute. like soup and got foam and choco powder on top like a cappacino but it tasted fantastic. serious.

then also ordered fries with cheese and sour cream. sort of like the one at kfc. then my sis ordered a burger while i took spaghetti bolognaise with giant meatballs. super nice la. next time can go again. but my wallet got hole. like 45 dollars total? then was super full and started walking around. saw alot of sng girls esp my juniors which i didn't want to meet. total b****es la. and at such a young age. tsk tsk.

then went to one shop to look at hair clips. then got these two girls which were from mayflower sec and they were lookin at nail polish. then one girl dropped the nail polish on the floor and it spilled. the sales person were like complainin about the mess on the floor and the girls had to pay for it and they left. then the sales person was talking to another in canto saying that they didn't even apologise. arrgh. i hate ppl like that la. becos of such ppl, they give adults the impression that teenagers are disrespectful and stuff. and i am quite embarrassed to say that some teenagers will say that adults order them around and stuff. i wonder why!

after that, went to anderson for dessert. then was debating wad to get. then my sis was like die die eat fondue and no wonder la. it looked seriously very pretty. ice cream flavours that i chose were, chocolate chip, vanilla, cookies and cream, mint choc and macandemia nut. super nice.






taken from alot of angles. then to take the top view i had to stand up so i tink i look very spas. like nv eat fondue before. it was seriously beta than the one at kino. after tat went popular to buy writing paper. lucky brought a big bag. to walk off the food, we walked all the way home from amk hub. not very far. and quite fun.

slacked the entire day la. watch prince of egypt, my wife and kids and so you think you can dance. wa. . . then now, my sis sick. got fever. i tink she too heaty liao. i like transfer alot of pics from my phone to laptop. haha. super fun.

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ok. i know i like said that i was going to slp like twenty min ago but kept watchin so you think you can dance on youtube. i am addicted to tango, salsa. all those sexy dances. very hot.

haha. and norman thinks i can't spell hot. cos i spelt in as HAWT on msn when i was chattin wif him yesterday. he now at pulau ubin ba. take care XD. later get lost or something. or a bear come and eat him up. haha.

muz plan what i need to do tml. cos on wed, i have pw, maths lecture and like cca. then thurs have choir concert at 7.30pm so technically, my week is full. then next week have cca, shall work hard!

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i totally woke up late today. was suppose to wake up at like 6? but then i woke up when my sis alarm rang. so naturally, i thot i was early and still took my sweet time to change and stuff. then to my horror, i found out that it was 7! but then today was my sis o level chinese exam so had to fetch her to school first. by the time reached the bus stop, it was 7.15. and 7.15 was the time my pw group was suppose to meet for meetin.

reached school at 7.45 and alas, everyone was there alr. but then turns out that they didn't discussed much at all. then went for chem lecture. they were teaching entropy. i was like highlight my paper blue and orange. yet, nothing went into my head. due to extensive group work yesterday, my brain officially died.

then chem vsepr. was super funny especially during the singing part. out of tune, especially anthony. haha. shall not laugh at my kor. was like thankin god when it was over. one down, three more to go. then yun bought lunch for anthony and me XD. the entire canteen was closed la. only the drinks stall was open. tsk.

then had cca. was super happy when i finally know how to play the first 50 bars? like a great accomplishment. and not all notes were out of tune! hee. but then left early for ac concert. met yun and went to eat burger king. was like eating in record time cos she needed to pass something to her teacher.

all i can say that ac concert was super professional and extremely expensive. cannot expect anything less ba. ok. . . i am like super tired? i need to mug. muggin attitude. but then i haven done anything yet. rawr. and will probably not do anything until the last week of hol. die. cannot!

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ok. .. was chattin with norman.

{[PeGasUs]} ['4o4.ole:~] DAMN IT says:
i just realised something
{[PeGasUs]} ['4o4.ole:~] DAMN IT says:
i really have ugly hair

then when i deny it.

{[PeGasUs]} ['4o4.ole:~] DAMN IT says:
NO!
{[PeGasUs]} ['4o4.ole:~] DAMN IT says:
serious!
{[PeGasUs]} ['4o4.ole:~] DAMN IT says:
i showu one pic
{[PeGasUs]} ['4o4.ole:~] DAMN IT says:
my hair is like gross............

omg. . . so metrosexual. and yes, he is so going to kill me for this.

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i am like dead tired now? just reached home when i left my house at 8.30 in the morning. super sleepy.

met at kap to do econs project. super. . . unproductive? or mayb cannot say it in that way. just wasn't very focus enough. it was from 9 - 2 but alot of ppl were late. i think joson was the earliest. haha.

then had to do chem project. had like FOUR LAPTOPS and all no batt. realli ironic. i mean like sometimes, u want one laptop also don't have. and now you have like four and no batt. so went to teena's house to do chem. super nice la her house. ok. i am too tired to describe it, just have to trust me that it is nice. brain dead.

FINALLY FINISHED THE VSEPR. and did it all by today. so pro. i totally love my kor, anthony. like bullied him into carryin my laptop here and there and steal his money. haha. super nice la he. but can threaten him with michelle. hee

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i just blogged on flo and my blog. it was a super long post la. like 10 over paragraphs? haha. was complaining alot. sheez.

read her post. makes me wanna go hc la. regreted not going to nanyang when i finished my psle. like very wasted? on the other hand, then i wouldn't be so close to flo anymore. will be like jiin like tat and i hardly see jiin anymore. sigh.

hc had a basketball match with innova jc. they trash ij fyi. kind of expected since hc is quite pro. they trashed nj softball. but according to flo, there was this super zai 3 pointer in ij. hc also had a concert on wednesday for the syf groups and flo said that there was this cello guy in strings that was shuai and can play well. droolz. not fair. i thot hc was not suppose to have any handsome guys and all were at ac or sajc? this has proven me wrong. and i trust flo's taste.

guys who play musical instruments and are goodlooking are extremely sexy. realli. i mean like music can relate to people and it can also mean that the guy is sensitive. but it can also be said taht musicians are eccentric people. haha. no one said that this world was perfect. but guys who are able to play canon in d are totally good in my world.

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ok. i need to start muggin alr. mr low wasn't wrong when he said that the june holidays cannot catch up wif work one. and varied assessments are total crap.

went to amk hub to finally buy the bag that i was looking for. bought it at punk star. but then the one that i wanted don't have alr so had to settle for another. it is white in colour and i tink it will get dirty soon in which will lead me into buying another bag pretty soon. haha.

rawr. i was sleeping when smses woke me up. it is true that having the hp near you disrupts you sleep. this can be concrete evidence. and yes, kx, you are one of the guilty ones. he msg to say bye, he is off to climb tahan. very mountain everest things. all the best XD

crap. i tink there is something wrong wif my msn or something. i can't send emails or if i attach a file to the email, it takes SUPER LONG and in the end the sending will just fail. rawr. so annoying.

i finally recalled wad clement said. in order for ppl to forget the previous scandal, just create a bigger one. haha. but i doubt anyone will be able to forget the previous ones. also gettin quite tired of ppl pairing me up. i mean, they are all YOUNGER. and since when a guy and a girl cannot be alone without someone saying that they are dating or something like tat. we are in the 21st century! we are not in some kind of historical romance novel whereby it is considered scandalous if a pair if left alone in a drawing room or something like tat. lol

i find it vastly amusing only. won't run cos it is kind of funny. and ironic. and for ppl's info, darr is not my bf or wadeva. he is just a fren so can just stop the speculation. lol. we find it EXTREMELY amsing.

i was thinkin about it this morning and it finally hit me. i tink it is highly romantic when a couple eat streamboat together. ok. i am super lame but tat is what i thought at that moment in time. and love is when you can wear rags and he will still think you are beautiful. sappy stuff.

my heart has always belonged to you. keep it safe.

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went to school for cca. ended up reaching at like 8? so horribly early. met vivien on the bus and went to squash courts. i didn't know that such a place existed in nj. haha. but it was quite a cool place to hang out. went to canteen to kill time. haha. hung out wif eugenia and clement. lol. it was like 2 sng girls bullying one cat high guy la.

then cca was playing cello until fingers numb. but quite fun la. with all the out of pitch music coming out. realli terrible. then changed in nj toilet. wore the sch u over wadeva i was going to wear out. went to nanyang wif huangyin to change. super funny la. i totally love crashing and yes, nanyang is super nice.

took bus to far east to fix my angel. was super out of it this week when i found out tat it spoilt. heartbreaking. but finally managed to fix it XD like extremely happy. i love my angel to bits. met my sis at taka to eat lunch. after tat, just walked around and went to vivo.

darr was there waiting la. super funny. then went to watch pirates 3. to be honest, i thot it was beta than spiderman 3 cos i all along preferred pirates. and yes, it would be confusing to those that don't watch pirates 1 and 2 and especially 2. but for me, i like rewatch pirates so many times until i can memorise the plot alr.

the only thing i was not happy with was that chow yun fat was in the show. i mean like, omg, his english is totally CMI one? and the worse thing is that in the movie, actors like geoffrey rush has to bow down to him? and i am embarrassed that he was the one to say 'welcome to singapore'. asians should nv venture into the hollywood scene. it was only make them look extremely inferior. and yes, i am bias. i can't stand asian films except hong kong dramas. and thank god, he died in the movie.

ok. extreme spoiler here. i can't freaking believe that william turner is the next captain of the flying dutchman! like wth? and he can only go onshore like once in ten years? i mean he is like immortal alr but wad about elizabeth? the next ten years she will be like 30, then 40 and so on. i can't imagine waiting for someone for ten years? i tink seven years was already enough and i gave up alr and liked another. haha. and NO, THAT PERSON IS NOT KAEXIANG! kx, you can stop dreaming alr.

after the movie, went to sakae sushi to eat. totally regrettin it. sakae is an inferior good. seriously. there is no standard at all. or there was but it dropped greatly. nv going there again. the food totally sucks. was walking when i saw a grey octupus stuff toy. very cute but no temptation to buy it. haha. have to go do econs alr. i am going mad very soon.

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ok. to blog about wad i did after i left the house. RAN like mad to the bus stop cos 165 just came and the stupid traffic light refused to turn green. and i was wearing school u and was very paiseh to jaywalk. ok. went up to the second floor and realised tat i made a HORRIBLE mistake. there was this non-chinese(note: this is not a racist comment, i would have posted even if it was a chinese) talking EXTREMELY loud on her hp. i was like lookin back at her sort of like glaring and i tink she finally got the hint and talked slightly softer. or mayb not. i couldn't tell cos i turned up the volume of my mp3.

alighted and had to walk to island creamery. jiaming came after me and soon norman came. then received the msg from grace tat she couldn't come. . .O_O then went in and stoned until yun came. very unproductive the project meetin but i liked the ice cream. and it was my breakfast. haha. norman was so horrible la. he met jun on the bus and he refused to tell me wad they were saying la. cos i very scared of jun. like xl and joson go and befriend and dunno wad he will say la.

then yun wanted to take bus so norman, jiaming and i WALKED all the way from serene centre to nj. and yes, it was FIVE bus stops. norman was like saying can burn off the whip cream i ate. . . sheez. then he cheated my feelins. no 1, he say will be SHADED all the way, no 2, he say we won't SWEAT. liar. we made a detour to fairprice to look for the whatever anything drink. very good advertising. was lookin for it like siao la then asked and it have not arrived yet -____-;;

we went back to nj under HARSH weather conditions. it was sunny and then it started drizzling. very nice la. ok. it was not tat harsh but wadeva. just crapping all the way to nj. the sex talk was. . . . lame. tat is all i can say. super lame. ended around 5 then was walking out wif norman to the bus stop UNTIL we realised tat HE nv collect the notes from the photocopy shop. so we walked back ONLY to find tat the door is locked. then cos i needed to pass flo kx's notes, i managed to persaude him to walk to hc bus stop wif me. but it is super far again. so when we walked, he ACCUSED me of cheatin his feelins cos he say tat the bus stop was far. O_O. then ironically, the 74 past us when we were walking. haha.

returned flo the notes then went back to the bus stop and JUST NICE, 74 came when he just exclaimed tat it would take another 10 min to come. on the bus, we were saying how much we owe each other and to be honest, i tink he owes me more. haha. super lame. then he is going to threaten me about the unglam way i break when the bus jerk. and there is this stupid guy tat sat opposite me tat was trying to look up my skirt. like wth. ok. norman's big annoucement. 'GIRLS WON'T LIKE ME BECOS. . . .*drumrolls* I HAVE UGLY HAIR' i was laughing like siao when i heard tat cos it had no link at all. haha. i tink he is going to kill me for posting this XD anywayz, total distance walked equals to one km or more. definitely. hope the whip cream is all gone.

ok, now about scandals. i probably have like ten scandals since the beginning of the year. most people are like saying i like person A,B,C,D. . . . i will just play along cos i don't want you all to find out who it is. haha. so technically, it is hard to find out who i like and even if u say the correct one or the wrong one, i will just deny. i will only like the person that can make me smile or happy when i talk to tat person. and it is different from wad i normally give people cos i am usually smiling. so need to take note. haha. cos, tat person is special so will have different reaction one XP

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ok. i haven been at the com for like two days alr. please applaud me for my accomplishments. haha. have been in like a total slack mode? cos nj has SISC then like some days don't need to go to school while others just have some lessons and stuff.

have cca like for the last two days? still not very used to the cello yet. play until my arms super tired la. but nvm, shall tahan. then yesterday, i was super late for school? like had gp at 9.40 but i reached school onli at 10.25? and the side gate was locked so had to walk up the main gate. sheez. bad luck. it was like jam at thomson and jam at bukit timah? i jam at thomson already half an hour.

was so sian of school tat i pon my maths tutorial. but made up for it by going lib to mug differentiation. then got some rj ppl in the lib tat were kind of desperately trying to find seats but don't have cos everyone was muggin. lol. typical.

i have 54 msgs to last me this entire month. and alr when i woke up in ten mins msg like ten over msgs? die. but nvm, shall learn to restrict myself even more. later going to island creamery at 11.30 for pw meetin. YES! manage to persuade norman to go. haha. tat is like a HUGE accomplishment. then have sex talk later at 1. rawr. super sian one la. then after tat, crashin hc to see flo XD

i love flo like siao la. she is worryin about me and now i realise tat my posts are gettin more and more vague cos i post in great detail in our blog. haha. but tat is for our eyes onli. i still dunno wad are my feelins but hopefully will be negative or else flo will have to worry somemore. haha. it is fate!

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i bet kx thought i was crazy last nite. was like chattin wif him and panickin about nadal. super sad rite now. 81th straight wins on clay. kx must have jinxed him la. horrible guy.

yesterday i was like runnin all over the place. at 9 went to bukit panjang plaza for econs meetin. then went to amk to my grandma's house for lunch. then at 2 run to toa payoh again and go back my grandma's house. super tiring la.

i am like dying to go out. . . but not feelin very well. i tink there is something wrong wif my stomach. lovesick? lol. tat is wad darr said. and yes, i should just stop tryin to find substitutes for him. it is kind of gettin super pathetic. and i realise tat i didn't cry for over a month alr. tat is becos no one is around to hear me anymore and i kind of miss it.

and crap, have one extra ticket for the pirates of caribbean this fri since one of my frens cannot make it. damn. and it is at vivo!!! have closing ceremony this fri dunno wad time it ends. have to rush to vivo in tat case. in sch u. bleh. horrible la.

if i told you 'i love you', you would probably laugh in my face. that is why i never said it at all. and that is also why, you don't see my face anymore.

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took this from the net. interesting stuff. i will onli post interesting stuff on my blog. haha.

What A Girl Wants But Most Guys Wont Give
KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS.
TRUST HER 0VER EVERY0NE ELSE.
TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL.
L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER.
TELL HER STUPID J0KES T0 MAKE HER LAUGH.
LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR.
MESS WITH HER HAIR.
JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER.
INCLUDE HER IN ALL THINGS Y0U D0.
WHEN SHE CRYS D0 WHATEVER IT TAKES T0 MAKE HER SMILE.
F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES.
L00K AT HER LIKES SHE’S THE 0NLY GIRL Y0U SEE.
TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAY ST0P.
H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE ROUND Y0UR FRIENDS.
WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT YOU TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER
LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS.
GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER.
TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK.
STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SICK.
WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE.
KISS HER F0REHEAD.
GIVE HER THE W0RLD.
WRITE HER LETTERS.
LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES.
WHEN SHES SAD, HANG 0UT WITH HER.
LET HER KN0W SHE’S IMP0RTANT.
LET HER TAKE ALL THE PH0T0S 0F Y0U SHE WANTS.
KISS HER IN THE RAIN.
CALL HER EVERY NIGHT.
AND WHEN Y0U FALL IN L0VE WITH HER, TELL HER.
L0VE HER LIKE Y0U NEVER L0VED BEF0RE.

the ones in bold are those which i tink that are more important than the rest. haha. ok, i tink i am gettin lame.

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To you

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

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i have finally lost all respect i had for my dad. truly. mayb i have finally changed so much tat i can't even stand it anymore. i need to cry but there is no one there to listen to me anymore.

sometimes i truly regret why things had turned out this way. if not, someone will still b able to listen to be now.

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Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
yes i know cos it is happening now. i wish i didn't feel tat way but i can't help it. so mayb he cared before but it came to the extent that it was too tiring for him to carry on. i was just scared so i just pushed it aside. it was basically my fault all along and now i dunno how to let things be the same again.

it is hard for me to tell anyone this. and even when i call and want to tell someone, the words cannot come out. it is tiring tryin to keep all these inside. i hardly see him anymore so mayb it will b easier to forget. but i am in this too deep alr. someone just pull me out so i can move on. and the funniest thing is, he doesn't even seem to know that i am there anymore.

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crap. i was actually postin stuff here then my com came out wif the blue bloody screen again. kx say tat it is BSOD. blue screen of death. super funny.

nothing much to blog about lesson. nj is gettin super sian for me alr la. like gettin to the point that realli don't wanna continue wif this anymore. i mean like what else is there?

flo and kx crashed today XD. i like always super happy when they come. they come and lighten up my boring life. ok. shall not say too much or kx will haolian again. they took like SUPER LONG to come to nj la. called kx like twice? haha. i am not THAT impatient. kx treated us to lunch! ok. we practically force him to pay and i stole the change to buy drinks. haha. i very mean.

we were suppose to tell flo tat we scammed her today. but then both of us were like delaying. saying stuff like 'you tell her' and 'i dunno how to say' until she got damn anxious la. super fun. i tink she thot tat we were going to tell her tat we were datin or something then her eyes were like super big. but in this case, it is a different matter. lol.

was crapping again as usual. then asked them to help me solve the maths question. kx haolian again la. write and write but cannot solve. i seriously think tat the ans got problem. or else why cannot get? i borrow kx notes. he NV pack his bag la. like the ENTIRE syllabus of each subject is in his bag? took chem and maths. going to have a very good time photocopying his notes. haha.

saw his ezlink photo. super funny la. i was like saying he went for plastic surgery. lol. was playin wif flo's phone and MENG take photo of him la. dunno why. i tink cos his expressions always very funny. took like 22 photos? then change to video. lol. then he made fun of me say i kampong girl nv see camera phone before. hee. then took revenge by drawin on his notes wif a PINK pen. the disney one. then when he buyin drink, took flo's PURPLE pen to draw flower, hearts, butterfly. super funni. with them will laugh until siao la.

then went to play piano. i want the winter sonata scores!!!. then kx haolian again, show off his skills at piano. but very good la. at least haolian still got skill. hee. omg, i tink after readin this post, he will fly la. then went home. took 156 wif flo then alighted at macritchie. waited super long for the bus la. . . then i saw my laopo ting there XD

reached home at about 7.30? haha. oh yeah, my sis sprained her knee yesterday while playing rugby. lol. dunno how she did it but got crutches now in my house. wanna take photo of them. haha. she like no need to go to sch for two days? crazy la. . . i like entire week book for meetins, lessons, etc? comin to jc got no life one.

chattin wif kx and norman now. norman said tat he lost his arista ticket O_O the person who found his ticket is super lucky. even i couldn't get tickets la. plannin on muggin tat day. i shall b a mugger.

was like talkin to flo about. . . . then she was like sayin cannot expect tat person to guess my every move. then she said something tat i knew the answer all along or somehow guess but dunno if correct. does he even treat you as a friend? it is not worth it. haha. was it a crush tat became real? dots. i doubt so but i am still scared to know the truth. just avoid.

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today was a damn slack day again. had investiture. haha. was very diff from sng one. all i can say was, trent was just smiling spastically on stage. super cute XD then had gp. i thot my group was totally screwed when we presented. no examples and no rebuttals. like WTH! i thot ms teo was going to kill us la. then had lunch. pw was no beta. . .

had to queue super long just to pay for stuff for enrichment week. ended up realli paying for henna, yoga, western food and chocolate making. the rest all don't want. alr have like 16 hours and i left friday free. i not tat stupid lor. just sign up alot just to gurantee tat i have place.

then was sports day. daph like from lignum run to aerius. jun also. then was like walkin to and fro from the track to the milo stand. haha. anthony, joson, jim, norman, jun, yun and i. wa. . . damn slack la. i nv liked sports day. and nv shall. then durin the house cheer session, darius came to sit wif yun and i EVEN THOUGH he was from lignum. haha. all ppl from lignum runnin to aerius. he promised to tutor yun and i. cool. just to need study and shld b fine la. . .

norman, joson, yun and i went out for dinner. was suppose to go to wisma upstairs but ended up at far east. ate burger king. the mugger joson mugged while the rest of us ate. super funni. then we went to popular and the most hilarious thing happened. joson was tellin me about our senior adeline eatin pineapple when he started laughing hysterically. like just laugh and laugh and laugh. so i naturally laughed at him cos he was super funni. then we walk one round around popular and he was laughin all the way thru. still laughin when we went to e cashier. lol.

then when we were about to leave, we were like cornered by this guy. this guy was RAMBLING about something which i had no idea what and just going on and on. norman was like tryin to say no to him but the guy won't listen. so we ended up payin a total of 2 dollars for one black pen. O_O. ok. . . haha. then norman and i took the mrt home. . . lol.

pw is drivin me up the wall, as well as the rest of the varied assessments. i have chem like due next week and it is not even done. screw it. . . 10% of the entire grade. fuck. seriously. then have econs. like what the hell la. i might as well go poly for this. sigh. today not very good mood. shall go emo on the other blog.

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Below is a discursive essay tat my sis wrote when she was super bored. very funni

Zoe's Messed Up Theory.

I have found out an economic and social problem in Singapore, and its disturbing the Nation. This problem needs to be addressed urgently. The problem? There's no (Okay, very few) Hot guys in Singapore.

Singaporean girls standards are actually quite high, and because of the minimal handsome guys (Otherwise known as shuaiges or as I'd like to call them, Hotshots, their standards have dropped. And this is really a crisis. Imagine if all the most beautiful girls, have ugly guys for their boyfriends, and other countries look at Singapore, what kind of impression would they have?

& For women who refuse to accept guys with, lets say, not that desirable looks? They'd remain single. This will cause a decrease in the rate of marriages, as well as Singapore's birthrate. Everyone thinks that the cause of the declining birthrate is because women become independant and all. But seriously speaking, which woman would not want to spend her entrie life with a partner, and enjoy each other's company. NO WOMEN. The fact that women must resort to stay single because of less shuaiges, its really worrying.

What i have suggested is, the government should have more exchange programmes with Students from other schools (Preferably guys) and from countries like, Brazil. So that there would be an increase in everything :]

hONESTLY SPEAKING. I don't care much about the guy's looks. As long as he has a heart of Gold (maybe Silver), Im okay with that. But of course, he must not look lecherous and old and Ew. If you get what I mean. The above was just made up because of Vic's and my bored-ness. If it seems true to you, Then, we must really have a wild imagination. :] And, Singapore does have lil shuaiges, I admit.

But its the not shuai ones who really know how to treat a girl, and how to touch a girl's heart. The majority of the shuai ones are arrogant and think that if the girl doesn't do as they say, They can get another girl, with their good looks. Of course, I ain't saying all are like that, but those who are, really know how to push a girl's buttons. In other words, I have no idea what point am I I trying to make, so thats about it. :]

ok. lame. was busy doing ms tan's letter for like one hours? gosh. was tryin to copy the disney font and like spent a super long time doin so. bleh. lousy at art. can't be helped ba.

today was a super slack day for me. free period. then maths lect. then maths tutorial. haha. mrs chan was shocked tat i asked her question again!!! hee. can't be helped. no one else did the question alr wad. and i am not a mugger. just woke up from an extremely long slumber.

pw was super slack time. . . boring again. then physics was stoning but i managed to solve the e.g. not bad for someone tat totally cmi for physics. so proud of myself XD. haha. didn't do any hw today. feelin very bad but i know i will do it durin the weekends since i alr powered up. just don't let it fade.

if kae xiang 弄假成真 nong jia cheng zhen and end up like wad flo say fallin in love wif wl. . . i will just laugh LOUDLY at him. haha. can't b helped. told him alr but don't listen. hee. super partner in scam la. very fun. i tink they crashin on thurs. hurray!!! i also lazy to go over XP

p.s i love you ♥
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p.s i love you ♥
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Love doesn't make the world go 'round; love is what makes the ride worthwhile

woke up. immediately asked dad to check the results for me
Nadal wins third Rome Masters
was like extremely happy XD can't be helped. even the slice of blueberry pie tat i ate for bfast tasted very sweet. haha. french open is coming up. i tink i going to lose alot of sleep over it. especially if nadal is in the finals.

dad fetched me to sch today. haha. don't have to take bus! zy said tat she couldn't get the tickets for me. die. if cannot then like cannot go and worse is tat i got like 7 tickets to order? zy said tat she will get them for me when western dance starts sellin. hopefully she doesn't forget or i am seriously screwed.

was copyin ans for maths tutorial again and doing differentiation. going to finish tutorial one alr. super proud of myself. econs was major waste of time! just copy work like no body's business. chem lecture i was doing differentiation again cos i stupid nv bring my lecture notes. die.

gp was like hell. jim and i were like countin down the minutes to when it ended and our group need not present today!!! hurray! gp is a bloody waste of time! then during civics, went to the hall and got to sit on chairs! i wonder what is the occasion. was sittin near the aisle and still doing differentiation. so mug la. it was then when i realise that i was very far behind in my work and started to panick. it is about time i woke up alr. and i dont tink it is too late XD

i made a bet wif yun and i tink i mayb able to win this. if i am able to let it go then i will be find. i can't keep repeating myself and never move on.

Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.

p.s i love you ♥
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was awoken to the vibration of my hp. joson owes me five mins of my precious sleep. . . lol. then was msging crap on my hp then after tat on the tv to check the telecast on nadal. and then went online to check the net. was super scare that he would lose. was watchin his match yesterday until i had to switch off the tv or else i die of heart attack. hee.

Rafael Nadal breaks John McEnroe's record with his 76th win on clay

XP all i can say tat it is expected one. how can he lose? haha. then chatted wif joson online until he made me late for the meetin. was like late for about fifteen min? then took 187 to bukit panjang plaza. suddenly got some guy sit next to me then i got shock until i saw the familar brown zinc bag. haha. it was joson. so qiao lor. i tink he stalk me though XD. then yun boarded the bus. . . went to macs to eat bfast. and discuss econs project. anthony was late! haha.but he look like nv wake up like tat. hibernatin bear.

they all were laughin at me when i got excited when i saw the lrt. ok, i am very live under the rock type. lol. i tink we manage to discuss some details out ba. haha. then went to lot 1 to eat pepper lunch. sat lrt for like the 2nd time in my entire life! i tink they all were laughin their heads off la. then when heard tat it was the first time i went to lot 1, they laugh even more. so mean. and yes, i don't normally travel so far to eat. haha.

then after lunch, went to eat dessert. i ordered ice jelly then it came wif cocktail and stuff. were givin my cocktail away to joson, anthony and yun. haha. then we started being lame. anthony say tat i will order ice longan and tell the auntie tat i don't want longan but give me more ice. lol. mayb. then we started sayin about hawaiian pizza without pineapple, chicken rice without chicken. . . .lame but very fun. haha.

i tink joson was shock at how in nj students can b. it depends on who you hang out wif. lol. and i tink i found myself a dinner group alr. haha. last time was always wu ren zhen but now got joson, anthony and of cos yun. XD hurray. supper happy. then mayb goin ice skatin alr. lol. money fly liao.

after tat before going home, met up wif darr at amk hub to shop for a gift. haha. finally found one. . but was ex. then darr paid half of it. dunno wad is his motive but he can't steal the present away from me. too bad. went out dinner wif my parents. was like omg when we saw the queue at fish and co but we still queued la. haha. the food was ok. guess i am very sick of all this type of stuff alr. darr was like sayin why can't he eat too but i shooed him away. later i get into trouble for nothing. haha. suppose to do some work durin the weekends but then. . . i was too busy havin fun liao. DIE!

the same thing is happenin all over again. i tink it happened like four times alr. and each time, i will get super annoyed and stuff for reasons that i don't know. all i know is that i am scare to lose. and i know it will happen eventually cos it was never meant to be the way i wanted. i just need time to get over it. but i just want you to call and talk to me cos i was never alright since you stopped.

To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world

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Love is to think about someone else more times in a day than you think about yourself.

i am totally studyin differentiation now. if you count on the internet as well as studying. i am like super sleepy today. i tink it was becos of the rain and i mayb gettin flu.

going to watch pirates at vivo on the 25 of may which is the last day of sch!!! haha. booked the tickets online alr. can't wait to go. i am like a super movie freak. gosh. and i tink i going to watch shrek like next week? money fly away alr.

tml ten at bukit panjang plaza. hopefully i won't oversleep or something. still dunno how to go there. damn. was it 182 or 187 tat yun told me? can't really rmb now. haha. will surely get lost one. errr

tml celebratin mother's day! i haven even buy anything yet. damn. i feel very guilty. like cannot realli celebrate the entire day with her. am i growing up? if so, i don't want to. i mean like in the end, ur family will be the one with you. sigh.

Love without return is like a question without an answer.

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now in my grandma's house using my aunt's laptop.haha. came here like around 11 plus. then was suppose to help my grandma do dumplings but she finished by the time i got there. lol. ate two. super nice. i <3 my grandma. and yes, i am spoiled by her. XP

slept from 2 to 4.dunno why. i tink i am gettin the flu bug. die. didn't bring my hp along. realise that i don't bring my hp along when i out wif my parents and stuff. don't want to be checkin my hp all the time. i tink it is beta this way. tml meetin yun, anthony, joson and theo at bukit panjang plaza at ten. not even sure how to go there. will surely get lost one. lol. and i will confirm win my bet wif joson one.

just now, my cousin was teaching me how to play games in the com and she is like 5?! gosh, i feel like an idiot alr. but she is like super cute and extremely bossy. haha. but she is like shorter than me by alot so i have to sit down most of the time. and yes, she is the one that i show some people tat was suppose to be JoAnne. lol. don't get it? go see my class blog.

i tink tonite i can slp late. . . do hw. still doin differentiation. got one question dunno how to do. must ask jun alr. realli no life liao. . .X(

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it is like going to be tml alr and i still not slpin yet although i like closin my eyes. having pw mass convo once again. i am beginnin to hate msn very much. haha. norman owes me dinner XD cos i came up wif like 14 questions to interview the person and i did it all by myself. lol. so happy.

lol. and for ppl's info, i don't wanna be linked to anyone in nj. haha. not my cup of tea ba. haha. scandals are for a while only. long time then super sian one. haha.

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Love works in different ways in different minds, the fools it enlightens and the wise it blinds

so am i a fool or the wise? am i enlightened or blinded? haha. it really makes no sense but i find this quote extremely meaningful. it mayb very surprisin but i like this sort of things. realli brings insight to my english. haha.

I REALLY HAVE NO FREAKIN LIFE! i mean like it is half day and i didn't even go out at all. and it is a friday. lol. and going out dinner wif darr is not counted as going out cos it is an obligation. dots. even my sis has some sort of life and it is her olevel year la. she went to sngs jubilate. . . i didn't want to go cos last years performance sucked. tralala.

maths tutorial was like meng copy hw? haha and taking photos of joson to make fun of him. super funny. i mean like he was super paiseh about it la. and i purposely put his photo as my hp wallpaper so that can use it to blackmail him or else he keep on blackmailin me cos i said tat z* was not bad lookin. lol. such an offhanded comment also zai yi. econs was like major copy time? i realli think tat i am going to fail econs. and durin maths lect, mr low alr said tat june hols try to catch up wif work also no use one. oh no. die liao. econs lecture was the same person that gave the pw lecture yesterday. sian diao liao.

went to help joson photocopy my transform notes. super nice la me. haha. but then something wrong wif the machine or something so ended up like one dollar for five pages? the aunties refunded of cos then i borrowed teena's card and started to photocopy. . . i hate the machine. cos it keeps jammin up the stupid paper and i have to start all over. and when i thot i was finished, the pages just jump like pg 1 then 6?! had to photocopy those mistakes again and i spent like 50 mins there. O_O. norman and yun were like callin me like siao and each time i was like sayin tat i was in the photocopy shop or something. like in there for almost an hour. amazing. haha.

i will not lose the bet to joson. haha. free chicken cutlet. i tink he already knows that he will lose already la cos i will be correct. lol. unless jun decides to betray me. die, i just rmbed tat this sunday is mothers' day then if i go for groupwork, my parents will surely suspect tat i go out wif my bf. . . dots. who goes out wif their bf on mother's day one? that is like so not humane. but i tink still must go for the groupwork unless postpone. grr.

i lazed around in school for like over two hours? for pw la. haha. was sittin down and talkin to michelle then decided to disturb danhong abit. msged her something. lol. super lame la me. then went to bug jun and eat his candy. SUPER SOUR. like got tears in my eyes and it was the same candy tat eunice offered to me also. sour sour. then went home at like 2.45 then halfway like reachin amk alr, jun found out tat he left his file behind in nj and he lazy to go back and take. blur block. super blur block. still dare to say me somemore. rawr.

went home and lazed around and went out for dinner wif darr at amk hub. haha. pepper lunch! wanted to go fish and co but my cash like ran out. lol. had to help some ppl pay for the arista ticket. book like 7 but i got one extra. haha. hope can get them since i paid the money. just waitin to lay my hands on the ticket. super scared tat they return the money and say don't have. will cry lor. i tink zhao and ben will go wif us. haha. the four sji guys. so fun to hang out wif. lol.

ok, i am like searchin for quotes online. some are quite nice. i love those about love one. haha. i am a super romantic at heart. i swooned at spiderman 3 at the idea of the proposal in the champage class. cliche but it will work for me XD

Love is a state in which a man sees things most decidedly as they are not.
Love is a friendship caught on fire.

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Love works in different ways in different minds, the fools it enlightens and the wise it blinds

p.s i love you ♥
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it is always easy to forgive someone but you will never forget about it

i am getting annoyed increasingly easy these past few days. mayb it is pms time. i don't know. but i find that the slightest thing now gets really on my nerves. i mean i won't show it on my face as to whether i am pissed off with you that is why i tink it is kind of scary. yun said tat i looked very sian this morning. i already know the reason why already but i not going to act on it.

i realise that there are a few things that realli makes me pissed off:
1. people that don't reply to msgs: HELLO! like feel honoured that i alr wasting my limited 360 sms on you alr and you don't give a bloody damn to reply? you are like sending me this signal that i was stupid enough to msg you.

2. Replies like 'see first' or 'maybe': i really hate these two words. i mean like grow up! can't you even see what plans you have for yourself already? Be decisive for once in your lifetime! if you still dunno what you have on, organize your life alr.

3. people who ditch others: if you can't go, just say NO! don't promise and don't carry it out. it is seriously selfish. for all you know, that person can arrange plans with others if not for you holding that person back and BACKING OUT at the last min. irresponsible.

ok, i don't think that i am the only one that feels that way. i mean don't you just hate this type of people? they just inconvenience others for their own benefit. the world seriously doesn't revolve around you.

and to be very honest, i don't forget things that happen to me. not that i am petty or things like that but i find that you will be on your guard around that person so that you will never get hurt twice. that is why i find it hard to open up to someone. got backstabbed before and it hurt so now just playing along. if it happens once already, i will never forget it and already that barrier has formed.

it takes a heart to forgive but it takes an even bigger heart to forget. sorry, my heart isn't tat big so live with the fact that i will still remember.

p.s i love you ♥
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ENFP
warmly enthusiastic and imaginative. See life as full of possibilities. Make connections between events and information very quickly and confidently proceed based on the patterns they see. Want a lot of affirmation from others and readily give appreciation and support. Spontaneous and flexible, often rely on their ability to improvise and their verbal fluency.

i wonder which part of me is positive. i was practically laughing when i saw my results of the personality test. super unreal. especially the sentence highlighted in red.

today was chem prac instead of tutorial. she totally cheated our feelings la. then i like bring all the tutorials. annoying. i tink hong hu can kill me happily. haha. cos i was suppose to do part two of the prac. then i like repeat one part three times cos my timing was like 2.94 secs? wa. the rate of reaction is like SUPER FAST. then i was repeating again and again. rawr. until i found out that i MISTAKENLY keep on adding 1.0cm3 of sodium thiosulphate instead of 10.0cm3. i tink he can strangle me. haha. both he and shuwei said tat i was super clever. but hh is a nice guy. won't kill his lab partner one.

gp was like hell. the lesson was like stagnant? was trying to come up wif a topic sentence wif yun, grace and jim. then ms teo was like keep on saying wad is the link and stuff. so ended up crappin a whole load of nonsense until she said ok but i totally forgot wad i had crapped out. irony.

econs today was funni. i was the first one to reach the class! and i don't even belong to that class. tat is the fun of crashing. then was like savin seats for trent and ting. trent came and normally he sat on my right but if he did today, he would be sitting next to ***** which he didn't want i tink so he forced himself to the corner. haha. so i moved in and saved the right seat for ting. this is like a confirm sitting arrangement alr. i feel intelligent cos i like between them? trent was super funny during econs. he was panickin about signin up for h3 which ended like 12? so he was like 'i want h3' chanting away profusely.so told him to go during econs class. so like three min before the lesson ended he went and he came back like very fast? so pro.

econs lect was very sian. i was also acting very sian cos of some reasons. pw was also equally sian. then norman and i decided to mutilate ourselves with his pencil.


this is was i normally draw on my hand








the above three pics are the product of pw. pw drives you to do this. i am not kidding. all these were done by a pencil. norman's one looked worse la. like he do so enthusiastically until his surrounding skin swell up. i tink we both are mad. then yaoliang was being sick, going about grapes and strawberries. i shall not elaborate. guys shall and always will be sick, incomprehensible creatures.

in the hall, they were talkin about enrichment week and stuff and i was just ticking away wad i wanted. was highlighting the timetable and stuff so tat everything could be fitted in. then went to LT2 for the talk on personality. super sian. then took the same bus 156 as yun, wai kit and jun yong. before we walked to the bus stop. we were deliberately walking super slow so tat AHEM could run one round and the guys could see wad he looked like. haha. yun was walking super fast though. was crapping all the way in the bus until macritchie. i kind of expected jy to ask me tat question. it is the ONLY question people ask me. and for the LAST TIME, the answer is no. i am not INTERESTED in guys that are YOUNGER than me. haha. no consideration needed.

p.s i love you ♥
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Why are we strangers when our love is strong?
Why carry on without me?
What have I done? You seem to move on easy.

i tink it is seriously over already. there is no point holding on to it anymore. to see each other and pretend that everything is ok is even harder. you don't need me anymore.

I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free
I know they say if it dont come back again
Then its meant to be

p.s i love you ♥
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CONGRATS TO NJ CHOIR! GOLD WITH HONOURS!

haha. yun was super happy la. . . now waiting for like the honorable mention. she refused to msg me what was the results that i had to find out from jun. but in the end, she called me at around 6 but i was sleeping so didn't pick up my hp. then when i called her hp, she didn't pick up. this type of thing seems to be happening alot recently.

anthony totally ps me and joson la. horrible guy. i was practically bored to death during my first two free period cos i didn't see a point in studyin maths cos nothing will enter my head. then joson and jim came. was using joson's phone to msg anthony and i was going to send an I LOVE YOU. then that guy went to type that it was from me!!! no wonder anthony didn't reply. i think he too shock to reply. lucky i quickly msg him tat it was from joson. or else later AHEM come and kill me. then i would have died a very wu gu dead.

maths test was a total gg case. i was like half the time trying to figure out how to use the stupid gc. rawr. but hopefully like some working here and there won't be all for naught. then had maths tutorial. didn't do transformation so ended up copying the answer but kind of understood despite not self studying that topic.

pw was ok i guess. just got shot alot of questions and meng answer then. i hate to do this type of presentation la. i mean like no one is even listening so you might as well talk to the wall. and ms teo is like going to fall asleep? sometimes i dislike her attitude la. it is bad enough that she is gp and pw teacher alr. have to like have her for like 50 x 6 mins per weeks? like is like over 3 hrs! haha. but had a long lunch of 1 hr and 5 min due to choir syf.

something totally funni happen. during lunch, i was sitted opp norman and jim was next to him. then we were talking and suddenly, an empty heaven and earth bottle just flew and hit him in the head. we turned and we saw michael tay just hitting this boy cos i tink the bottle was meant for him and he ducked so it hit norman. haha. like all of a sudden la. then i went to joke wif norman say tat cos he sit wif me then other guys jealous tat is why they throw stuff at him XD then he just gave me this super diaoz face and continued being his lame self. lol.

norm and i made a bet about the maths test. if he gets higher than me, he treat me to black pepper noodles and if i get higher, then i treat him. so if get equal, i am just going to the teacher and ask her why she mark me correct when the answer is 'wrong'. super lame. then i told grace about it and she was like shld have asked him to treat buffet or something. so true.

i was literally dead during physics. like cannot absorb anything at all. half dead. so dead. haha. going to revise during the weekends or something. i need to go out. i kind of miss stayin back after school to do work and then go out of dinner. but tat was like during the first three months. now honeymoon is over. marriage really kills all romances.

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i swear that nj guys are the LEAST romantic of the lot. haha. i was like super jealous when i heard from flo what her classmate did on the girl's bday. PR went out during break to buy the girl one red rose and a cushion for her bday. O_O i thot this type of guys was already EXTINCT LA. haha. then flo told me that PR and the girl were only friends. . . i seriously don't believe la. but still super sweet.i didn't know hc guys were tat zai ah. but i shld have known since they open doors for girls.

still doing ap gp. . . rawr. . . haven do functions yet. . . haven eat dinner yet. die. i tink no need to slp liao. but have first two periods free so not so bad ba.

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this is like my 3rd post os the day? ok. i am kind of getting addicted to blogging? i am still on ap gp and already certain that i will totally flunk the test. but somehow, it doesn't matter to me anymore.

went out for a while. hee. went to nanyang poly for lunch. i totally crashed there but it doesn't matter since there is no uniform ba. then kind of lingered there for a while becos of darr and his unresistable attractiveness. i am sort of puking while i am typing this. haha. but i sort of got a life now. i didn't want to stay the entire day at home which is very boring. i will probably end up sleeping again.

if you think what i am writing on this blog is personal, you should read what i write on the co-blog with flo. cos seriously, what i write here is extremely surface. yeah it touches on my emotions and stuff but it never really goes deep as in why i am feeling that way. that blog is only for the viewing of flo and i only.

this is only for certain rants and stuff just to kill my boredom. anyway, it is beta if not many people read flo and my blog cos it is seriously hardcore emo. and not many people will be able to relate.

p.s i love you ♥
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i tink i SUPER do not have a life rite now. as in today there is no school BUT YET, i am staying at home to study. was suppose to go to school to see co but then i overslept. was suppose to go back st nicks but i overslept. so oversleeping causes opportunity cost to increase.

i just started on ap gp. i tink i can bloody hell fail the test la. and i just rmbed tat anthony took my ap gp and summation assignment. . . so gg. and to be honest, i am not really studying so. . . why on earth do you give me a hol? i tink hols before test is like completely useless. i mean like you will most definitely study during the hol.

and i tink those people that are online now with me are also super no life. i mean, GO OUT! and that includes norman. although he said tat he VOLUNTARILY stay at home but stil. . . . hehe. he says that i am forced to stay at home which is quite true. bleh. and if is not for the fact tat only nj is hol i probably would have gone out wif flo. rawr.

i tink i am going out like this week after school or i MUST go out after school or i feel damn sian. haha. too active liao.

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the computer is truly a bloody distracting thing. i am like still on summation since last night? i need to focus. planning to do ap gp at twelve then functions at like 4?

i was suppose to wake up at like 8 to study but when my alarm rang, i switched it off and went back to slp again. then woke up at 9.45am. so charming. all the people online now are like from nj? sometimes life can be super sian. and i haven eaten anything yet. super hungry.

what is a definition of a close friend? someone that you can share your troubles with? jeffrey said tat a close friend is someone that will step in when the entire world steps out. daph said that it was very cliche but i agree with him. for me, that person need to know what i am thinkin before i even tell that person. So far, the only person that has been able to do that is flo. got once i was super emo but i didn't tell anyone then she came on msn and asked me if i am ok. . . she said that she had somewhat sense that something is wrong with me.

ok, mayb she will be the only one that will be able to do that since she knew me since pri 5. haha. she told me that if she didn't know me by now, she would bang her head against the wall. i tink i only need her around.

i am tired of one sided friendships. there is no point of me spilling everything to you while you don't tell me anything about yourself at all. it makes me feel as though i am using you while you just tolerate it all. that is why i am stopping it until you show me that you care about me enough to tell me things. a superficial friendship is not enough. i thought you were someone but i was wrong.

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i am like super sian now. . . like doing summation half way and still no gc. . . tink going to take it from yun tml. then tml is full force mugging.

chattin wif norman now. haha. havin this silly small argument about his emoticon. it is suppose to show a sob but i tink it looks more like a giggle. lol. then now he puttin alot of emoticons about crying and i am like tryin to say another thing. ok. both of us are extremely lame people. haha

i am like super tired of people asking me if i have a boyfren. i was asked that like twice today by my relatives. i mean like in the beginning i was like ok with it but now, it is gettin like super annoying. i mean like so what if i have or don't have one, does it really matter? then got one uncle even secretly ask me if i have onot. . . super dots la. it is seriously none of their business. i know that they care but still. . . i know how my cousin feels like now when they ask him about his gf. . . but he is a guy so it is still different. . .

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i tink i am going crazy. my gc is not wif me. it is with yun so technically i am quite gg. die. and i need to learn how to use it somemore la. rawr. cannot get hold of her somemore. and i also cannot find my the other calculator which i used for Os. . . bad day.

was revising maths when i noticed tat my gc was not wif me. and becos of tat, my revision became stagnant liao. die. . . horrible la.

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i tink blogger is screwed. something is seriously wrong wif it. i can't even change the template of the new blog tat i created wif flo. stupid. and not tat i suck at doing templates la. i juz changed for this blog. dumb. rawr. and i am tired of trying alr. . . mayb do it tml.

having lunch wif my relatives tml. the word sian comes to my mind alr.

i think joson and anthony are goin to pon sch on tues juz to skip the maths test. they may b ditching me. so mean! rawr. then i be lonely during maths lesson. horrible. but then again, there may be a SLIGHTEST chance that they will come. haha.

was listenin to this song on youtube. was listening to it in french, italian, spanish and japanese. super nice. i am hooked alr. i won't say i'm in love in hercules. haha

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out

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was reading an email tat xinglong sent me. i find it super meaningful.

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short.
If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there. Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love.
A hug is just a hug>until its from the one ur thinking of.
A dream is just a dream until u make it come tru.
LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u

i find all of the above super true.

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went to compass point today. . . it feels like a long time since i went out wif my dad and mum. i feel quite bad since recently on weekends, i go out and study. was like walkin around compass then went to the world of sports to look at sport shoe. dad has been nagging that the one that i wear was in tatters. O_O was literally staring at all the nike shoes since i love nike to bits and it is the one tat nadal uses. but nothing caught my eye. then i saw this grey shoe which is reebok. was VERY reluctant to buy it since it isn't nike but it can't be helped since i like the shoe. i betrayed nike. damn. but my first sports shoe was a reebok so it doesn't really matter. but i bought a nike sports bra. and one from fun fit. orange and red. my mum was telling me that i like orange alot. haha.

went to buy famous amos cookies. so nice. haha. was sleepin on my sis's lap on the way home. dunno why she suddenly so nice but i don't mind. nearly all my things are gray now. got a new sweater which is gray also. haha. gray is like a warm colour.

went wif dar for dinner since house not cooking. was at prata house again. seems tat i am at that place alot. haha. was like chatting with him for a long time and laughing away. lol.

going to find a blogskin for flo and my blog. haha. hopefully can find by today cos i took a long time finding mine.

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'haha..and i'm gonna tao him until he stops gaying around la'
this is from norman about ducheng.

i tink it is seriously damn suggestive lor. sounds as though norman jealous tat ducheng flirt around wif other guys. haha. seriously spas. . . norman, watch ur words. hee.

haha. he threatenin me tat if i spread this around, j------- becomes my life-long partner. haha. don't want. i scare ****** come and beat me up. then it is like so wrongly accused. i alr chosen my life-long partner alr. haha.

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it is like 10.47pm rite now and my eyes are like closing. . . .
doing chemical energetics like FINALLY! but still on question 10. got some questions tat i need to ask. i tink i doing at a super slow rate. . .mayb cos i am chattin while doin the work as well as smsin and bloggin.

norman is in charge of keepin me awake. . . haha. i told him say i threw the tv remote on my bed to make it look less comfortable. then he say throw water on it or burn it. . . dots. suppose to ask him to teach me chem but his notes wif yun. sian! then called jun but he nv pick up. then he return call and i nv pick up. mei yuan fen! haha

the orange signal is flashing at me. . . haha. . . totally cannot do work in front of the com. . . but i want the music. so too bad.

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woke up at 5.55 am to the sound of the hp ringing. then saw the msg from norman tat said tat the meetin was cancelled. went back to slp again and woke up one hr later. was going to get dressed when my dad told me say tat Nadal beat Federer. XD. tat seriously made my day.

NADAL BEATS FEDERER ON HALF-CLAY, HALF-GRASS COURT

dad and mum fetched me to sch again.i tink i am getting lazy. then had PE. I FINALLY FREAKING PASSED MY BLOODY NAPFA! thank god. 9 for pullups. i was telling myself to do ten since last time i told myself to do 7 and i only did like 6 for three times? muz be the power of nadal. haha. seriously love him to bits. and i didn't have to run shuttle run. hurray!!! juz took the timing tat i ran during the napfa. i am free!!! especially during pe!!! mark attendance and BYE BYE!

then crashed econs class and had my own econs tutorial. then had chem lecture. i was super sian by then. i was gettin to the stage of emoin after the chem lecture. i tink i spend more than 55% of my time thinkin about tat matter. i really need to learn to let it go. after tat had chem tutorial. time was passing by quite fast. then. . . mrs yeo asked me wad shape is ammonia in. . . i was about to say trigonal pyramidal when theodore kept saying circle and heart shape. i was like gettin blurrer by the sec. . . haha. so ended up not answering her question. lol. and i didn't do the energetics yet. die. . . muz do it by tonite. hopefully before parental guidance. i juz on the TV for the first time in the entire week. amazing.

gc. . . according to the paper, i am an interpersonal, intrapersonal, visual/linguistic person. yun was saying tat i was super weird cos interpersonal and intrapersonal are totally opposites of each other. then said tat i may have a split personality, which i don't deny. my emotions tend to go and up down. . . without warning one.

then at 3.40, went for mr low's revision class. it is like my saviour. i swear tat i didn't know anything about AP and GP until i stepped into class. . . damn good. i wish he was my tutor. my tutor seriously CMI! if i can pass maths, i will juz jump for joy.

i suddenly remember part of the convo i had wif flo yesterday. she said tat she pitied him cos he seriously doesn't know what i am tinkin of and yet i expect him to. summarize in all, my future boyfren is going to suffer, according to her because i tink alot then i jump to conclusions one. she said i shld date a mindreader. so, anyone know any mindreaders? care to intro? haha. but she said that her bf would love her more than she did while for me, i will love my bf more than he does cos i will smother him wif love. super funny. but to be honest, i don't expect much, juz for him to show that he cares. tat is all i need.

my class keeps pairing me up. there was jim and norman which are like ten months and eleven months younger than me. . . then there is j------, which is super not true. but even when i went to the toilet i also keep hearing his name. i juz wanted to laugh cos the picture is very ridiculous and i find him super weird. and i have never heard of anyhow not having powerpoint in their com and not having a home no. it became the joke of the day until i told them say tat he asked for my hp number before. . . LOL. sorry. but i only need two ppl in my life then enough alr. . . there is not enough space in my heart to accomodate so many. . . hee.

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placed in front of me is my chemical energetics. i tink i am suppose to do Q8,10,12. i can hear the clock chime nine times. i am tinkin of tml. what will i say when the time comes? i have no idea. suppose to deal wif chemical energetics but my hands are not moving.

i need to break out of it. need to get myself back into the studyin mode. but there is something tat is always on my mind. and unless i resolve it, i will get to nowhere. i finally realise what it was. i was only scared of losing you. and unless i can get rid of the notion, i am rooted to the spot. need to start all over again.

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it was rainin when i woke up. was freezing cold. dad fetched me to school. didn't really expect it on the account that i didn't talk to him since sat. all becos of a stupid car. i tink i shld juz give up. it is too tiring to continue it any longer.

assembly was cancelled due to the rain. went for chemistry practical. i can't tell the diff between pale green and colourless. stupid practical. and i am planning to take H3 chem. i tink i am going out of my mind. had gp. . . i tink gp is a total waste of my time. it is like english lessons back in sngs. during the econs lecture, i was either stoning or desperately tryin to recall what the lecturer said.

during pw, i thot my group was totally screwed. no powerpoint presentation but all the material was in our hands. have to work on it later. i seriously hate pw rite now. now wondering wad will happen if i flunk pw. i will only try to pass it for university, if it is not counted then forget it. was reading the papers which said something about pw being useless. i totally agree. the speech has to last for about 3 mins? super dead. i hate oral presentations.

then had to do the personality test in lt3. the questions were relatively normal. i have asked myself all these before. was the first to finish the test and rushed out of the lt. flo and kx was suppose to crash but kx got caught by his senior for ponnin cca. hee.

so i ended up crashin hc. i am gettin used to it alr. flo and i stayed at the fish tank. she was suppose to do her bio but i ended up emoin to her. haha. super emo. i tink too much. but flo is like my counsellor. the things that she told me were those that many other have told me before but i tend to listen to flo more. mayb becos she is the only jc1 person that i am close to tat is actually older than me. i am like totally enlightened. funni, cos i have heard all those things before. sometimes i tend to forget that they are different and i treat them the same. i was writing MCP on flo's paper. she asked me wad it was. Male Chauvanist Pig. that is wad i heard during econs tutorial today. i am going to use it on kx. haha.

i wish nj got some place like the fish tank. it is very cosy. i can juz slack there the entire day and do absolutely nothing. was talking to flo for about one over hour wif our heads on our hands buried in our jackets. it is comforting. she laughed when i told her wad kaixin asked my sis when she went back for sports day. it is so not true although many people may thing otherwise.

it is funny that the two people that knows everything from head to tail are both in hc. mayb tat is why sometimes i tend to wish i was in hc. i juz lost the person i could talk to. i wish nothing had changed or mayb i tink too much again.

flo and i are creating a co-blog. i have about 5 different blogs under my name alr. haha. the add shld b something related to chocolate muffins since she likes them alot. now searching for the blog skin. things like this tend to drag me away from my thought.

do i really know what i am doing? there are mixed signals. like when someone turns left and the other turns right. will things be able to work out? i dunno. i juz pray that i will have my friend back.

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too hurt for my legs to walk
eyes so blurry with tears
Before love never meant for me
I will keep on smiling

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in bout 22 min, i will be leavin to watch spiderman in bugis
2nd time in the row tat i am watchin a movie, watched 200 pound beauty wif yun. super nice. i was literally cryin at the end la. tears were flowing down my cheeks. was surprised at myself. i guess it was too touchin.

i have been emoing. too many things happening for me to deal it. sometimes, i question myself. is it really worth it? after what had happened, my final answer is no. i won't be bothered anymore. it is exhausting to keep trying so just forget it. after so long, it finally boils down to this. nothing.

i was asking myself this. why do people have memories if it only hurts to remember the things that they cannot have? dwelling in the past has no use to me, in that case, i rather it all have not happened. i am hoping for somemore to answer this question.

tml flo and kx crashing. not going to emo to them. only emo to them online. juz try to forget the past and move on. i am juz too tired.

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